No time to blog. So shall summarize e gist

A new year like wad everyone is blogging now. A new start! 09 6 hours away plus one second haha due to earth's revolution.

New resolution. Though this year mayb e worst for some or rather the whole world due to recession, i really thank god for this year for everything. Be it bad or good. I love it. Cos i grow stronger and learn from my mistakes from the bad. And the good, i feel happy cos i am blessed

Know, nxt year or tmr will be a hard time or year. Cos of A's, hw, commitments, everything. I know i can pull all these through as long as i persevere with a mentality at a lvl that is higher than them and same as urs:)

Faith rise, blessings come. Impossible is no longer a reality. But rather a virtual obstacle that can become possible in reality if u get ur mentality, actions, thoughts, plan right :)

Cya
Ziyan

Blogless

In a blog, to me, it is impossible to blog everything in ur life. It is too tedious and lazy to just blog everything. Talking to someone is always the better way out.

Right now, many things are twirling in my mind. Trivial,impt,stressful,all u think of they are right in my mind now. Yet i find it too lazy to just blog. Simply ptless. I just wan to find a day to talk to someone yet i am lazy too u know? or tired? haha.

Studies yet to do, waiting for me at one side. rm not in a gd condition to study. Still, commitments are piling up. My brain is just so confused. Even when i wan to plan, smth comes in btw my plans.

I gotta be decisive. Plan fulfil. No delay. No more. Hope 09 will be a better and more fulfiling year though ppl and i know nxt year will be a tough year w all unexpected happenings awaiting for us.

Gotta remain strong. :)

Cya
Ziyan

Theres only rm for the better

At this pt of time, i think i practically just say out things w/o thinking, mostly being bad. Thats kinda sux when u realize but is too late

Time for room to change for the better

I feel i let her down, or rather him down. Whether it is just a remark, i know everything is just kinda not in place right now. But in e end, surely theres a way, theres a miracle, theres a blessing!

Cya
Ziyan

Overwhelming

On e night of sunday and monday i was quite sick- the feeling isnt good. I hope to get well for christmas is coming.

So i pray with Faith. Indeed, god never fails me. I am quite well now miraclously haha. I just want to thank god for always being there for me. U may not believe it but i do. Trust in him and u see e light and truth. :)

Anw, when people say they are what they are, are they really what they say they are? To some yes, To u and u, i don think so.

And i realize i have got a big problem of unable to contain the thoughts in me and always having a tendency to blurt it out in impulse. gotta change.K time to rest a while b4 is time to go toa payoh.

PS: Mum is coming back! WOO!

Cya
Ziyan

Faith elevation

See,Think,Confess,Touch,Hear.

Pastor How is really one great guy who i always admire. The reason i manage to stay long in hog is him.

:) Thank you. K lets hope nxt wk will be a great day. Everything w be smooth, even if not, it will be successful in e end.

Sometimes, i am really amazed how different my perspective to life is compared to others. Just different. K gtg. Time to take a break. Dota!! haha.

PS:Congrats wj if u reading. 95/96 :) Keep it up!

Cya
Ziyan

Went sj concert, was great. Quite inspired to dance at some parts by the song, mayb i will take up dancing! haha. Anw felt quite bad not meeting my sec ppl though last min i culd. I got many things to settle thats y sorry. Is just me in my house and everything got to be cleaned and my dog needs company.

Met up w my jc mates. Nth changes much. Just that one person seems more different than i know in the past. I wanted to show the change in me, yet i just back to normal when i came back singapore. haa donno y. K shall not talk agn abt changing. It is pointless to say. Must show

Sometimes, being the one who spreads love to ppl is the best yet in reality people normally only associates nice, fun people with people who expresses themselves totally. Cos, all the time we only notices the outside of people and not their inner beauty. Generally, in everyday life with ppl, what they do, think, act is never able to tell whether they are being genuine. It is only when you are with them privately just two of u then u slowly notices the small and tiny bits of true charac of them which amounts up to either a very good or bad side of them.

It is late. Guess i got to sleep soon. Nd to start getting serious. I cant just lay back and relax. It is not me and surely i am wasting time if i cont doing this.

Cya
Ziyan( I must stop saying or doing whats on my mind w/o thinking. )

Gonna cherish the free time i have now. Plan my long term goals, my daily needs, my additional stuff( according to priorities). Shall keep to my promise. shall not divert from my promise.
Must no longer be the same as last time b4 i go chiang mai. The feeling of changing is slowly diminishing yet i couldnt let it fade away. I just couldnt be what i was in the past- too spoilt, too...

Anw, time is going to be tight now. Pressure, stress. Maid is going home for one month. Zx Ns. Mum coming back only on 20 plus. dad frequently go overseas. Dog how? Nd to wake up 630 am. Huge burden. Studies coming. I got to manage. This is wad i get for having a dog. Is my choice. I can look it at a positive side. I gonna be more independent. Gonna train to be more responsibe-more mature. Learn to manage my time. Be decisive. Arrange my priorities!

Today sermon was great. Real Men. Indeed true. We are born to be male. But not all are real men. What defines real men?

1) Real men who leads and not direct nor facilitate. They shower love, provide stable income(for dads), give security, bring happiness via actions not just buying of presents!

2) Real men dont give too much rules, far too commanding! It drives the people crazy, confuse ppl, give them pressure of following the rules. What rules am i talking abt? Rules on paper, rules u say to them. We shldnt have too much of them. We can have discipline via rules but not rules on paper. Rules in the heart of man. Use ur love, ur care to teach them. This will have an impact, deep significant impact in their lives for good that they will understand and w always rmb and follow. These type of rules are what i call "rules of love". Is rules and followed willingly through the power of love. :)

Gonna start to lay more, be a real man step up! Prioritise! One year and i am still stuck in this prob of prioritising! How indecisive, lazy i am haha.

Cya
Ziyan

Everything is piling up, yet i am still lazing ard. Whats wrong w me sometimes.

I just got to sit down and plan. I did it. Yet, i am too lazy to achieve it sometimes.

The feeling of my ownself is kicking in. I hate it. Got to change.

Shall restart all over agn. And start planning. Must achieve what i start. Must end off where i start.

Be decisive! Life is just like a river. No matter what, u are gonna knock into some rocks some day. But if u plan ur future routes, u gonna knock into lesser and smaller rocks. Even if knocking into them, u wont feel discouraged cos u learn from them and move on. Soon, ur route will be a smooth one. A near perfect one. Many ppl lack this mindset. As a result? Bad consequences. Like the recession. Don plan ahead, u die. badly . Plan ahead. U survive. Hurt slightly.

K guess no one understands haha.

Anthony robbins rocks

Cya
Ziyan

Random post

Never make fake promises in life!

Always put whats Impt to god over everything!

Always learn to be patient, have trust in ppl and urself.

Always focus on permanent happiness rather than temporary happiness! Ppl>Anything

Arrange ur priority, settle e most impt followed by the least impt!

To end off, i just wan to say sorry to those such as R if i ever promise u smth yet i didnt fulfil it in e end. Sometimes, i am just not perfect, my memory don have much rm for everything in life. If u r reading this post u shld know it. I will try to learn and improve though i w not be perfect in e end :)

Cya
Ziyan

Back in sg :(

Really regretted appealing to come back ytd. Cos of several reasons that i realize aft i come back.

1) Precious time w mum!
2) Gym
3) Food
4) Good environment to study
5) Able to tour ard w mum, similar to (1)
6) Shopping time!

I really miss melbourne now lol! as in my mum haha. Shit, always aft something happens then i cherish it, kinda stupid yea. Must learn to cherish at every moment, cherish everything NOW!

Nvm, happiness is decided by us and not by the circumstances we are in :) Since i am in sg now, lets settle everything so when my mum comes back, i have time for her haha.

1)Ogl stuff! I don even know whats going on
2)Finale! Same here!
3) Chiang mai! Nd to reply them!
4) Chingay! Got to know whats up!
5) Basketball w winson!
6) Learn to be more independent haha
7) Catch up w frens
8) Swimming!
9) Studying!

Two wks are all i have!

Mum, i miss u! haha

Love
Ziyan

9th day at aus

6 dec- Finally back at apartment after 3 days 3 nights away from city. Had quite lots of fun.

Scenery to animals feeding to horse riding to seeing penguins to star gazing- all memorable yet unforgettable and once in a lifetime moment :)

Oh ya one thing bad abt aus now is that the flies here are in abound! Too many till buay ta han. But they are stupid haha. Their reflexes arent that fast compared to sg flies lol.

K is quite late now, i think i gtg time to sleep :) Nites

Cya
Ziyan

5th day at aus!

Shall blog my 5th day here on my blog, lazy to write. haha. Today wake up late agn! lol!

Went to victoria mkt! Cool!Didnt expect them to sell all kinds of stuff. But ex la! Only bot souveniers haha. Then ate snack pack which is fish&chips. 6 plus quite worth it. Unhealthy though but who cares! I wanna get fat lol.

Then went w bro take tram to smith street. Factory outlet still so ex- Adidas, nike, ripcurl. All so ex. Bot bottles nia. Australia everything so ex. Is really hard to shop. Even if i buy smth, i will feel pain haha.

Then night at jap restaurant. Quite ok but i prefer sg :) Or rather jap restaurant at sg. Left 3/4 of my money left. Tmr is so called e last day to shop at melbourne b4 we go somewhere else- philip island and blah blah!

Wanna go gym too lol! So skinny still go gym. At the same time i wanna go melbourne central. Hopefully has e energy to go haha. But i am not sure abt my willingness to spend though i have e ability to.

I wan a polo T or rather two of them and at least a pair of jeans! Cap! Hoodie! Cool small bag. & Hopefully Shoe bag? Haha, k gtg

PS: Prison break was nice! Imba show haha. I love scofield. Backup is always gd :).

On a random note, hopefully i get in chingay yea vip usher haha.

Cya
Ziyan

Aus!

So far have been walking ard in aus, spent quite a lot-100 plus? The stuff here so ex! one shirt 49.95, one pants same or more..

Gotta buy souveniers hmm what they will like? Do anyone nd a wallet? Or anything? Email me thx..

Damn full now! Just ate mexican, lamb chicken, almost vomit. Gotta shit now! And i just bot PEE!! Inspired by shermine haha..

Gtg! FULL! DAMN FULL!!

PS: Gotta change my attitude on a random note, gotta learn inner is more impt than outer.

Cya:)
Ziyan

Chiang mai

First two days: Stay at hostel at chiang mai university. Thought of vegetarian diet kills me yet in reality, the food isnt that bad after all! We bathed hot water. Cold weather wasnt that cold. Meeting the thai ppl is weird at first. I talk, they cant hear properly. They seem hard to socialize. I had a great time thinking how am i going to benefit from this trip and help the ppl in this trip.
Living conditions arent of a big prob to me during these two days yet.

3rd Day: We went up to the mountains. During the trip i was excited, i wasnt having such a bad perspective or mindset of the whole trip. Living conditions to me were just like the hostel. The only problem is the language communication btw us and the village ppl. Yet i still thought they know basic foundation of english like is are was were, alphabetical order eg. When we reach there, the place is far beyond my imagination.

First- The girls' dorm got like few hundreds or even a thousand ants. Spiders were much more and bigger than those in singapore. There was even a snake but was dead. Pigs! Dogs! Rats- according to sze how. Boys' dorm much better but the floor is damn hard to sleep. Rats on the ceiling at night. Lots of creeping sounds in the night. Cooking conditions- Insects can just drop into to ur plate anytime or into the frying pan anytime. Food was nice yet little. Dogs can just come in anytime for ur food but they were friendly. They arent like certain wild dogs-Fierce and wild. Toilet conditions!! Worse! Water-iced water to bathe. No flush. Use water to flush. Tissue may just get stuck there. Insects to bathe with you. Pail and water tap is all that u have to bathe. No proper hangers. Small cubicles. No proper lightings. Weather! It is cold esp in the morning and night. Night comes at 6! Day comes at 6 am. U got to bathe early otherwise GG!! So cold, bathe till you scream haha. First night, i am already sick! Sleeping at night= waking up 6 plus times! Waking up in the morning is damn cold! I cant stand it by the first night!!!! Almost dying!

4th Day- Yet miraculously, by the nxt day, i got fever but recovered on the same day as well! Had a much better time and sleep that day!!!

Shall cut short! The rest of the days till the 8th day was the thing, just that more time with the village kids! Their life, their way of thinking is what i admire most! If only singaporean kids will have those mindset and stop grumbling abt every single bit of their life, that will be great! They are so smart yet so unpriviledged not to have sufficient adequate education and living conditions. Their smiles, their every actions are enough to bring priceless memories and happy feelings and smiles to you. Too much to talk abt them! But they will forever be kept in my constant memory not in my backup forgotten memory! How i wish i can go back!

Coming back to Singapore seems weird seriously. The life u live in right now seems so priviledged that you dont even feel like having that life! Is so empty and meaningless w/o being able to help those kids agn. I miss them truly. This experience is one that not many ppl experience and yet should be experienced by everyone so ppl will know how fortunate they are and how meaningless our lives are actually. It is ptless to have such a luxury life or rather boring to have such a life. Nothing you do makes a difference. You enjoy, you help old folks yet you dont actually makes a huge difference and dont actually get to see what exactly it is to have a poor and pathetic life in the world. In singapore, even the poorest ppl are fortunate. Yet in the life i live in the past 10 days, the people are so happy in spite of living a life worst than any life in singapore. They are strong mentally, emotionally, physically! They fell, they smile. They treat life with such an optimistic mindset. Nothing is in their way!

I really hope that 10 days can be 10 years? Even if the toilets remain the same way as it is. The kids' emotions are all that matters. Their smiles. Their appreciation towards your help. Their thankyou words are irreplacable. I hope i can retire there nxt time? haha, life has changed for me i believe. Different mindset, different perspective of looking. Time to cherish my life. Time to show others love. Time to live my life to the fullest!

Leaving aus in 8 hours. Time to pack my bag! WOOO!! Must not waste my life just like that. Time to experience the most out of it!

PS: I miss Mo lei Tak!!!

Cya
Ziyan

After 10 days away from the urban lifestyle, life seems so weird and different now when i am in singapore.

I feel really empty unable to do anything to help yet enjoying the luxury life when i don even deserve it..But on the happier note, this trip simply is priceless. I learnt far more than i teach them! The way the thank you, with a simple smile or simple gift is worth it. Just a simple piggyback or tickle can brighten their life for that day. Thats how simple their expectation of happiness is. I am really impressed by it! Unforgettable! How i wish 10 days can last a little longer. haha.

Through this trip: I really learnt far too much that i can type out with words. Life is gonna change. Yet ur happiness is always determined by yourself. :)

I really realize some of my mistakes that i often make: Lazy, indecisive, not putting ppl first, thinking too much abt small issues.

10 days away seem like one year, suddenly all the frens i seem to lose contact w. Yet i am leaving tmr agn till 14 dec. Excited though haha. New place w/o so mani buildings. New environment. New lifestyle.

Anw, i think i gonna miss ogl a lot. Seem pointless being an ogl suddenly- w/o the proper training, the proper dance steps, what is the point to be an ogl? Haha, this stage of ur life is just busy, admit it. Yet this is the time when u experience the most out of ur life. Pro-active!:)

Have fun to those in ogl! Jiayou to those practicing for their concerts, sports, ccas, wadever. God bless all! :) Makan time!

Cya
Ziyan

I am leaving, i hate this feeling, the life when u just cant seem to relax a single bit..

Yet i am helping ppl:) Lets see how it goes. Mayb it is the first step to me going humanitarian permanently? To help ppl for good..

I love singapore, cant believe i will be away for one month!!! I want to enjoy much more here before i leave!!!

How i wish life can slow down just like how hiro nakamura did it in "heroes" lol! Talking abt heroes, i gonna miss it too, damn! So is prison break!

K time to sleep. Sorry kobe! Happy bday kobe! Nites!

Cya
Ziyan

Mayb sometimes i should not show too much of one side of me out?

I should not act as if theres smth to say yet i keep it inside.

I should not just care about myself rather than the others.

People really changed. People really are different. This year, I have just known one section of people in this world, yet i am already confused by their way of thinking. Life is much more complex than i thought. However, one who is able to see life openly and as a moment to enjoy themselves, will then he be able to go through the circumstances in life and surpassed the others.

Time to not show that side of me too much yea, too scary lol.

Really wonders/ponders/thinks how next time the future will be like, how people around me are gonna be like. It is gonna be amazing to see how people's life changed once they reaches university..

Cya
Ziyan

Take care to those who are going overseas! :) Bon voyage!

And congrats to sy jia who gt distinction for her ballet! lol, just read her blog

And hope shermine found her wallet real soon. Pls bless her :)

Madagascar 2 is tempting me! I wan to watch!

Time is tight! Time to prioritise my time! :)

Mind is clear! Nth except u brighten my life. LOL. Fyi, theres no such person, just crapping. Only God yea haha. My life perspective of people in this world really changed this year. I am much clearer in my direction in life now.

Cya
Ziyan

My life has changed indeed Cos of knowing this relationship with god :) yet i feel i can improve more!

Shld nt be stressed or busy over temporary happiness but over lives!

I gonna win this battle upside down!

Sometimes, how i wish friends know me inside out yet i know only Him can understand me, thanks for everything!

Temptations, distractions of faith may come but he w prevail! Just saw youtube videos on god does not exist, on the mind doing great things and not god, on the mind doing everything that causes e universe and not god, noah ark is fake yet i sometimes feel in doubt in faith cos of them. But looking at videos like how cool the bible is interlinked, i am strengthened!

2012 no matter what year it is, i gonna live my life to the fullest.. If the time is to come, i w not be scared! Do wadever u wan to me, yet i w still proclaim his love!

Cya
Ziyan

This wk will once agn be a busy week! Tis year is crazy!

Haha, ogl, chiangmai, outgs, exams! I gotta improve w e year moving forward. In everything in life.

Whos up for madagascar 2? Feel like planning a movie outg b4 i am off to Chiang Mai!

Cya
Ziyan

4th dimension!

Speak, Think, Visualize, Faith!

4 Keys to ur heart to the H.S to work in U!

Time to live my life w/o fear!

Fear is the worst obstacle in life. It is worse than anything. It impedes u from doing anything u wish u want to do yet u cant do.

Remove Fear, and ur life will be much better!

He will give u sufficient str! Body is weak but my spirit is strong babe! :) LOL

Cya
Ziyan

Sometimes, we will think that if life of ours will be a little happier, a little smoother, a little more relaxing, that will be great. Yet, this imagination of ours will never come or set into reality.

We know that life is always not a bed of roses like my life, esp when u come into a commitment or rather conviction of smth. Life is purposely made this way so that in we can become stronger and strengethened more each day! At the end of the day, i realize my home is still here. Nevertheless, temporary stuff are more desirable and yields more fun if u think, the happiness is still temporary right?

When u feel down, u tend to realize everything or rather when u feel empty on the inside though on the outside everything seems perfect, u tend to enlighten urself with some amazing simple facts: They are still e best ppl on earth, and i shld not forsake time w them!

Happiness is maintained if and only if u seek them in the right ppl or right objects. This is true and true indeed. U can say anything that dampens one's mood, but he who stays strong and knows what life is really about, will always put a smile on his face regardless the circumstances :)

Normally, ppl appear friendly to u on the outside. Yet at times, or everytime, they are doing it for their own good and on the inside, they are just wearing purely wolf-clothing. lol. I met these ppl and i thank god for knowing them. For i grow strong and happier for i know he will look over me.

How i wish this blog can be private yet i am lazy to do it.

Lastly, Ppl who shld be close to u shld be ppl who are living with the same purpose with u.

Cya
Ziyan

Awesome svc! Indeed it is true, if god wan to have something for u, it will come naturally no rushing!

What we need to do, is live the way he wan us to w love as simple as that! Really regret the things i do in the past, never cherish friendships. Now, it has gone way out of hand. Ppl are avoiding me or mayb drifting away. Hope everything will be alright :) Time to live his life and thats all i wish i can be able to do.

Time for prison break! And i wan go shopping! I wan swim!! Most impt, i wan serve him! Time to prioritise my time! Busiest holiday ever? Or is it even a holiday to relax? haha, two camps two trips- i gonna die.. haha just joking

Ziyan

ANOINTING!!! Svc was once agn overwhelming! I love hog more and more haha :)

Though my life is very busy now, i still hope i can make this power packed week a success, a time where many of my frens will get to see an amazing life of a guy who is limbless as well as what a church svc is like in hog church!

Hope god can give me the str, the faith, the wisdom, the necessary stuff that i nd to glorify god!

Scars! It is true.. brokerness.. i guess my backbone operation was one that broke me and now i am stronger! Anw readers! Note there will be an advertisment on tmr- sunday and monday on strait times or classified! Nick vujicic service! Come on down k! Don miss this sermon of his!

Sidetrack- Op is coming, i hope i can prepare as much as i can tmr! :) I will give it my all! Sleep b4 1 and pia thrugh tmr! Power packed week. I hope this wk will nt be only a fulfiling but a life changing one for me! Hope frens ppl will all come for the services this wk!

Sidetrack 2- I realize mind and heart always tend to go different on their agreements sometimes. Ur mind can sae one thing but ur heart will tend to go agst it. I realize and i cant deny. I cant stand u yet my heart longs for u, whats this? Self-Dilemna? haha, and i wan go shopping!!! and Find the price of the cardboard!!! :)

Most importantly, get ppl to come for svc this wk! Nick Vujicic! Life changing person= life changing experience to others

Nick Vujicic!

Everyone in hog church is talking abt him, or rather my church, whos he? Hes a guy who is limbless and has lived his amazing life alone inspired by the WOG!

Video speaks a lot of pictures which speaks a few thousand words: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TtweZxNGk1Y

Hope that whoever reading can come to hog church! At paya lebar! 4 or 5 november 7.30pm to 10! Thanks! :) Really hope that u can just come and take a look! His life is enough to give u a totally different new perspective to living ur life! So just come and take a look yea when i ask u haha :)

Anw, sometimes life is qutie cool thinking abit.. When u feel u r alone, u hope that ur life can be busier than u thought otherwise it wuld be quite meaningless living it, vice versa.

A busy active life brings more challenge to me than i thought. Busy = more problems, more challenges! Yet when u solve them or overcome them, a sense of maturity grows in u.. To me, this year has been a not only a fulfiling one but one that really opens my perspective of life.

Ppl are all different- different in the sense they look at things, do things, live their lives. Some with a narrow-minded thinking, some with a broader perspective way of thinking. I feel that no matter what life u are in right now, wadever setbacks u are in right now, just live ur life to the fullest! Focus on ur goal, be persistent, and all setbacks will only cause u minimal impact to ur morale! If u think abt it, when theres a setback u should be happy, this means ur chances of succeeding will be higher! haha! Live ur life to ur MAXIMUM! This is easier to say than done, yet it is possible!

Shopping is fun!!

Today shopping was fun! haha! though didnt act as enthu, i enjoy shopping w shermine haha...

Anw, shermine if u see this post, hope we go agn haha! and i gonna tell u more! :) lol.. donno wad i talking oso, not on the right mind... mayb i was shy haha, nvm still gt chiang mai to talk!

Pw up! Chiang mai proposal up! Yet i hope to have every fun i can now b4 nxt year starts!
Douglas is planning an outing yet me, vice-cg rep is doing nth, i will try my best to help..

K, time to get class T, get class outg for atlas 4 for 08s107, time to enjoy myself, pw and chiang mai comes second!

But b4 i can enjoy, i nd to save up!!

K gtg, liverpool vs chelsea! Shit chelsea concede .... Alonso! damn u haha

Cya
Ziyan

Greatness in Spirit Body Soul

I know my mistake, am gonna change , time to start spending more time with them.. They hint, they comment, but they never complain, yet i knew they want me to spend more time with them.. Care for me :) haha.. shall not give excuses or let pw stand in the way! Time to focus!!!

R.A.C.E and SSB impactful seriously:) haha, this sermon is impactful, today since is 145am i shall start spending time with god daily, i must glorify him, not just get gd results( which to me still sounds a miracle as i study damn little except maths, simply god blesssing!), but in other aspects of my life:)

Time to grow, time to start training in my cca, pw, character in life, cannot neglect them!

Time to sleep! Man U sux! lol! I am getting lesser and lesser devoted to man u.. Anw, sometimes somehow, i deny the fact yet it keeps dawning back on me.. why? I dont know, does love needs to be explained? Does it comes with a reason?

Gonna start getting back out of conviction and not being forced to! Serve god out of conviction and not commitment! Time to glorify him in all aspects of life and in order to do that, i nd to spend some time with him! Cant just do it by my power but his power!

Cya
Ziyan

Op is coming, i am loving it seriously, i somehow like to present yet when presenting, fear sets in, not only that, i always has problems pronouncing clearly... sounds funny but somehow my saliva always accumulate in my mouth when i present... such that ya such that, this word " such", i cant even pronounce la! such that i nd to remove "such" from my op script lol!



Everytime, when i m alone no matter wad, esp during a quiet atmosphere, things to ponder seem to set in, all kinds of things, and they keep repeating over and over agn in my mind, i cant seem to remove it.. guess i am already addicted to it?



And, sometimes, i wonder why ppl just cant go the extra mile even when little sacrifices are made? Even christians(no offence), like eg, an extra mile to encourage someone or reply someone when his limited no. of msg sent is exceeded, i know almost everyone does that always but i just feel courtesy, sincerity, values rule over everything:) Life has changed, ppl seem to neglect modern values and rule modern life over them, mayb i am too sensitive but thats how i feel

My dog

I love animals, yet i wish i can give them the best which many cannot give. Thats my wish, but in reality, i couldnt..

Kobe, my dog, i wish i can let him have freedom run abt, play with him, give him all i can, yet i cant.. why? Someone just do not like animals, i never thought it would be till that extent, cant go outside to the garden, carpark, cant go out and walk free and easy when no one is with him.. Wth la...

Nvm, shall not complain, is my own fault that i chose to have a dog..

PS: I cannot find any topic to talk to u nowadays, i dont know why, and dont ask me why

Time to do I&R! wow! my favourite!

Cyaya
Ziyan


Cya
Ziyan

Love for god is reignited! :) Dont know why, but i feel like serving god once again..

Though i left church today early, sorry guys, i hope i can spend more time w u guys :)

Hope my bond w u all w grow stronger, not just now but eternally

& btw, BOG preached by pastor how was impactful! We r e banks, and hes e depositer ( if theres such a word) =D.. We nd to multiply whatever he bless us with!

Cya
Ziyan

Something happen just now, not involving me of course, and i realize people can be deceiving in life sometimes..

Deceiving in their outward looks and actions, u may think that thats their personality when u observe what they do or say in life but act, u are wrong..

Ppl tend to keep their trueself to themselves and only show it to those close to them, one such person is u( nt saying who :) ), they can appear very nice or friendly on the outside yet they are actually having a total different personality when they are alone...

They can appear happy and peaceful to u on the outside, yet they are hating to kill u at any moment..

But personally, i feel this kind of personality or characteristic in one's life is pure stupidity.. what for have different personalities to different ppl? Unless, u are afraid of one revealing ur weakness or ppl rejecting u? I donno cos i am not those kind of ppl :)

Lastly, some ppl in life, tend to like backstabbing others, or saying bad things ( factual or fake) abt others, so as to make one suffer while he rejoices, these ppl ought to search their own soul...

K, time to do pw :)

Cya
Ziyan

Ogl turns out to be great :) Hopefully i get in...

Time to take on leadership roles, time to face a new stage of challenges in my life in preparation to the reality of the workforce..

Gonna start pw

Thank god for everything :) Really, with u, everything changes for the better somehow, ur power and nt my power, ur grace and thats all that matters

Cya
Ziyan

Finally a successful 08s107 outing! 15 turn up! woo! :) Though i was tired, i was satisfied as long as my class was so enjoying themselves- it is all that matters

Yet, on the other hand, i realize i cant seem to put my feelings on hold, i tend to be unable to suppress and express easily, it may be good at times but bad at times too..

K, time to sleep and go for PW and OGL tmr! I will get better and better over myself, more and more anointing of HS, i can do it! External effects are nth, what matters is the inside of u- the conservative values of christ that u are possessing 24/7...

I think i shall photoshop b4 i sleep since my hair is wet..

Cya
Ziyan

Thx yassy for today:) And mong too:)

They are true, i admit it is all abt ur own decision not anyone, i will give it a try then..

In christianity, outside of everything may change but the inside must definitely remain the same otherwise the reality will no longer be the salt the light the truth

Time to try dreamweaver! Time to get over everything! Time for a new revelation

Ziyan:)

Did really well for my promos this time :) Just really wan to write this post to thank god though i did not spend much time with him during this time, i pray i dream i see and it happens! I am going to get promoted, from 1 pass in mye to 5 passes in promos :)

Thank god for blessing me.. God power is unexpected, limitless and overwhelming..

Give him a chance, trust in him and he will bless u anytime u want anything u wan as long as it glorifies him :) As the typical saying goes, As long as god is with you, nothing is impossible..

True indeed :) Time to start getting back time to spend more time w him

Cya
Ziyan

Time to step on a new path: Path of determination

No more delaying, no more self-demoralisation, no more external demoralisation...

Way to truth and the light :)

Happy always now forever, mind of christ incubating in my mind, visions and dreams forming around it, Step of faith in thinking and hence action occuring..

lol, dont think anyone know what i am talking, time for photoshop or maybe dotaing which i didnt really play seriously for a long time, or maybe sleep till tmr afternoon?

Cya
Ziyan

Able to be unaffected by the external surroundings only then can one have full control of himself

Not only by saying but also by thinking,hence action will occur

Always set ur mind on him and ur weakness w fade away, ur strength will develop

Wa, quite cheem lol, k just typing out some things i should change.. Realize that sometimes, i deny myself but my heart reveal the truth to me. Why must i be so easily twirled around by someone? It is my life, i must learn to let it go learn to fight it learn to live my own life

Cya
Ziyan

Sometimes, just got to be more sensitive and care more about the image of christ than the earthly image, i guess, pride is nothing

Work towards his glory, and his plan will unfold b4 u naturally, bless me to be more sensitive to everything cos i don wanna hurt anyone unintentionally like i just did in my sms..

Time to be unaffected by external surroundings and grow more in his glory :)

Cya
Ziyan

Pass GP & CL!!

Finally the worst paper is over, and luckily i pass phew 52.5/100 lol, though is bad but at least i improve :) Cl 45/100 but nvm la, i pass

K now in sch doing pw gtg,wx is coming

Cya
Ziyan

Finally have some sleep today- too much sleep lol, am still tired though a bit tired..

Blogspot sux la, cant seem to find any link to be able to email to the support abt mjc shooting blog. To those who dont know, it got accidentally deleted and i just cant seem to retrieve it or even inform the support to retrieve it..

K my jole cole just scored and i didnt put him in my FPL shit, i tot he was injured? K time to do pw, and sleep, tmr results are inevident to avoid yet the only thing i can do is to prepare myself for the worse

Cya
Ziyan

Busy tired!

Been out whole day, didnt expect that haha, came back home, spent time w dog, and now finally got some time to rest and now is 12am.. Tired jc life is tiring, maybe is cos of the studies, e fun that it contains that surpass what i have in sec sch..

Church tmr yup, and morning injection, busy agn, no time to sleep no time to relax :(

And just realize monday is getting back cl and el papers =.= what the heck, they are e worst papers i wan to get back cos el once i noe e results, it determines my fate, this means el is e sub i am least confident in, but of course i trust in god that i will do well..

gonna spend some time w him, it has been so long since i had spent time w god personally at home haha, excluding praying..

Sometimes, just kinda seem unable or afraid to talk to some ppl, mayb i feel inferior towards them or i feel they are a nuisance? But no matter what, this must change and it starts now :)
Feelings are evident yet they are deceiving and are subjected to changes over time, here i am in a dilemna unsure of where am i standing.. One followed by another, feelings towards someone is just so unpredictable, yep indeed imo

Cya
Ziyan

Miranda rox! My life!

We won! As expected HAHA! :) Good job miranda! Open house today, turn out that nt many ppl come to our sch, yet i enjoy myself to the max!

Sch cg merchandise- Competition from some class selling the same thing, but we managed to sell all! Imba! Most profitable class? Mayb.. Cost to pay- Energy, Strength, Tired!

Miranda- Simply love dancing now lol! We won! We won w style! Won all competitions since new house com takes over! :) Cost to pay(Same as above)

Damn tired la! Going to half-dead, tmr still gt basketball outing shit haha, i organize somemore
And pw! Doing now, hardly had any sleep, it has been long since i have been sleeping b4 12 and this wk is e last wk of enjoyment man! Gotta die/survive aft this wk, i really dont know. Results are coming but that does not determine e way of my life:) As long as i have god in me, life is great, happy!

My ex-classmates came back! Perform magic LOL! Leave a mark in e sch haha
And, another came back, how i wish we could meet up more often..

PS: Guess i should change in some areas of my life- the way i speak, the way i eat, the way i live my life( one not affected by external surroundings but by the internal element- HS) :)

Cya
Ziyan

Open house is worse than i expected.. having to initiate,plan, do and lead all this by myself and troubling ws so much to do is horrendous.. Both parties suffer yet the satisfaction is unpredictable.

Exam's coming up, results! So many events coming up! Still got PW! Still got Chiang mai! I am about to die la! lol! But it is no doubt that all the while i have been enjoying myself, though my sleeping time is limited, my time w dog is limited too, sorry kobe lol.. Haven got a chance to buy treats for him and the tortoises at my house is really a poor thing. They have no entertainment, no space to move, only eat sleep drink, i really feel that is time to release them into the world of freedom..

K time to do pw
Cya
Ziyan

Post-exam is great! Tiring but great! At least less tiring, stressful and much more fun than exam

But the thought of pw, open house, dance makes me sian lol, mayb cos i am already prepared to not go school, prepared to have the holiday fever, do whatever i want, here i am 1 am still awake, unusual of me..

Today board 81, 20 mins of waiting though seems a bit frustrating to mani ppl, to me it was kinda worth it lol... i observe quite a lot things today,

1- Sometimes, ppl like to act cool, stare at u with those kind of look that they are bigger than u, yet they are actually just much younger than u, sec 2?

2- Ppl like the girl i met today, vent their anger over the phone on innocent parties, unable to handle the stress they are coping now with.

3- Ppl so poor yet they try to act pai kia, neglecting their studies, throwing away their future.

4- Ppl like to act pai kia to stand out from the others when they cant even do it at all, what for giving that "cool" look when smiling makes the world go round!

5- I m not sure about this, but ppl seem to like vent their wadever problems on eating.. eat eat eat, till to the extent that i have nothing to say

6- Ppl makes mistakes yet afraid to admit it, end up scolding the innocent party who is oblivious of anything.

7- Ppl are decisive inside yet indecisive on the outside, why? Lack of confidence they make the correct choice to satisfy everyone, lack of courage to speak out.

8- Ppl are never sure of their feelings, thoughts, when something happens more than once.

9- Ppl are always lying. In others, say but no action. Or what i call, Tell but didnt Show. I am included in this category, trying to change haha..

10- Ppl are guilty of their actions, yet by putting their pride away makes them unwilling though able to admit. They always know when to apologize but are unwilling to do it.

11- Ppl tend not to know when to behave. I believe this applies to everyone. We are sensitive but just that we are either too sensitive to the wrong issues or too insensitive to the correct issues at times.

K, time to sleep, and find my psp charger, otherwise tmr no entertainment lol

Cya
Ziyan

Things to do- Cherish this moment

- Class T

- Class outing

- Get injection

- Go swimming

- Go basketball

- Go watch eagleeye

- Go church&Invite ppl to church

- Watch planetearth

- Do pw photoshop stuff

- Learn sony vegas

- Spend time w god

Yet, at times, i felt lazy to do all these only to regret at the very end
And sometimes, i do not know what is wrong with me, some words i sae seem to be insulting to others unintentionally, sorry if i did but thats me, change takes a long period of time to occur so give me some time

Cya
Ziyan

Exam is over, time to play!!!!

:)

OMG! Promos is finishing! lol! 2 more days! yes two more days!!! Time to enjoy, time to catch some sleep, time to train, time to throw my notes aside! Time to free my mind of all chimalogy knowledge that i dont even need in my career but i am studying now...

Heroes Second Coming, Butterfly Effect! Wow! lol, just fantastic, prison break equally good but heroes slightly better haha, just cant wait for nxt wk! Open house, Enjoyment, Heroes, Prison break, Church, Sleep!!!

Papers arent going to be coming back soon till nxt nxt wk if i am not wrong, so make full use of these time to enjoy! Pw oh shit! Aiya that, can oso put aside XD

Time to study maths, get A :)

Cya
Ziyan

Thanks mum! :) Read ur comment, thanks!

Through this mugging period recently for my exam nxt wk? nono, 4 days more lol, i realize that if i were to study a bit earlir less say 2 months earlier, as in really study, i wuld have improved tremendously! :) I will not need to suffer now, though suffer doesnt mean i am not enjoying myself!

Anw, i have to stop judging.. myself everyone.. only him who can judge nt me.
Also, anger management, laziness, prioritise, really i got a big prob with all these
And lastly, My pride! Just cant seem to let it down. Is easy to sae seek him follow him humbly and he w bless.. but hard to do ! Slowly , i will overcome it!

Lastly, need to be more independent. In the world of reality now, it is no doubt that my independence is growing, yet my laziness is creeping onto me, sometimes i seem lazy to do what god wan me to do, gotta start plucking the faith out of me! The world don gain pity out of u but the world wan happiness out of u!

FH,SH,SH!

Feel, show, spread HAPPINESS!!!

Cya
Ziyan

Eom time to rush

Today was supposed to be the day i thought can sleep early! But i gt so mani things to cover omg!

1) Eom
2)Econs essay
3)Physics superposition
4)Physics waves assignment
5)El summary

Omg! LOL! I got to rush now, though tired which is beyond my control, i am inspired by Steve Rizzo! learn smth! In short,

-Always feel happy( ur power of choice)
-Always show ur happiness(Ur attitude of happiness)
-Always spread ur happiness(Ur effect of happiness)

:) Cya
Ziyan

Nothing is going to unfold, nothing! Secret!

Dont wanna say anything already, things are subjected to change, more than once, so i am just going to keep my mouth shut now! And top the school! See the name " Poh Zi Yan" on top level students for every subject! Watch it! And fear it! lol! I siao le...

Gonna start mugging econs and physics soon, Eom forget it lol, and i wan to learn video picture editing plus camera phototaking! I wan to excel these 3 plus microsoft excel and market share lol! Ambitious ah? Time that i can spare- None... I wan be ogl but i cant! I nd to leave at 27 november night shit! zzz, i don wanna be the only person in my class when school reopen lol!

Things to ponder: Nothing but studies.
We are born to study and then to work but the only difference btw u and me is that i am born to glorify him too :)

Cya
Ziyan

I think i have somewhat decided, i am going to stay stay for now :)

Time to focus on eom AND STUDIES!

Eom PW i hate u! lol, lame, just hate the thought of pw, it teaches u nth good except vocal exposure agree?

Studies teaches u nth but time prioritise

Bible teaches u much more principles in life that benefits u eternally, so why should we nt seek him first when all else will be given if u seek him first ?

Cya
Ziyan

What should i do? I have two keys, two rooms , which one should i unlock? Can anyone enlighten me?

One wrong step into the wrong room could mean the end to my wonderful life... Dilemna.. :(

How i wish everyone can be together, dont have to be in diff countries.. How i wish, i wish yet the truth is antithesis of it....

I am troubled to the extent that i am sorry that i let out rage when this topic always came to my mind..

Time to decide...No matter what, i will look ok and be ok:)

Cya
Ziyan

Beveryone

Time to move back to the dimension time to rekindle the relationship w him, feeling guilty all the time that i am not myself, shall start changing from now :)

My life is tight, can someone stretch it for me? So i can have more time to cope w it..

Cya
Ziyan

HTD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy belated tEAcher's DAY!!! Is it ('s) or (s') lol aiya wadever! haha, great time spent, realize how united our class is today 08s107 rocks on man!

Was deciding to be enthu and hyper but i think i didnt have e energy to, during mass party i was quiet, not what i had wanted to in my thoughts... Just didnt feel like doing anything, mayb cos of smth? haha... i hope i can be like what i was during pae, enthu hyped up chatterbox but i just couldnt i just dont feel like making that effort to do it la..

Anw, later was catching up w secondary sch classmates really kinda change, hyped up much more, talking to them quite alot b4 feeling tired on the bus and then hyped up again when playing lan tgth lol! we no life i know, but is kinda fun realizing so mani ppl play e same game now! Nxt time, easier to go out and decide on one place! Basketball too! But didnt have e time =(, hope nxt time we w have e time to go out! This wk cannot la, most prob cant, nd to study...

Lastly, just wan to end off w a sentence my own: If U can control ur mind, u can control ur destiny, ur life, ur everything, the only problem lies in ur soul, is it willing? Or is it not?

My mind is willing but my flesh is weak, my soul, i am not sure, time to step once agn back into the dimension of christ, and the mind of christ, :)

Cya
Ziyan

No one understand nor will they ever

Once upon a time, there was a boy. He led a somewhat lonely yet fun life when he was young. But thats not the point, he feels that he should leave somewhere else, yet at that time no opportunity was there for him to grab. So, years past, he has grown up, now at 17 years of age, suddenly his life is so busy. Not by only studies, but also by the environment hes living in now. All of an instant, there was many friends he make in jc, there was many more times he has been hanging out, in conclusion his life was just so much busier than before. He has never imagined that this will happen in his life. He seems to find staying and living much more fulfiling and meaningful. Yet, it was at this point, that the opportunity he has been waiting for all along dawned back on him. He has a decision to make. The time is now, is not in future in the past, but is now. Within this week, his decision must be made. One firm and definite decision must be passed down. However, he cannot make a decision for the opportunity costs for him now seem to outweight or equal that of those presented by the opportunity. He is in a dilemna. He needs someone to talk to, he needs someone to guide him. He needs a prayer :)

Cya
Ziyan

Great sermon => Great start for change!

Just a little bit farther,longer and more! How great is that! :) Way to study way to live life like this! Inspired cant wait to try it later which is in the morning, haha, k going to sleep already great sermon by pastor how!

New revolution, new way of living life, embrace change and turn it into ur advantage!

Theres no such word as " Impossible, Difficult and Cannot!"

Quote: If a dog can wag its tail when it see someone, why cant u say hi to someone when u see him/her?

True indeed, we tend to be lazy but since a dog can do why cant we?

This is random i know but why are friendships non-lasting at times? Is it both parties' fault or is it one party's fault? I hope this wont happen in my life :) I really hope... Dont read too much into this sentence, readers, thanks

Cya
Ziyan

Everything is alright really, nothing is impossible to handle, it is just i am too tired the past week i guess.. now i am fine, enough sleep, enough time to study :)

No stress, no pressure, time to perform, time to show his glory!

In e past week, i cant handle e workload and i am too tired but now i am alright really, dont worry, i am back to normal now though i am sick.. Sick is not an excuse to stop me from being what i should be- that is to study and glorify him yea...

Thanks mum for ur concern i am fine really and everyone out there who have been encouraging me and thanks mong and pastor how who make today svc so impactful, woo from now onwards, nth is in my way hehe, he who is in me is above everything

Cya
Ziyan

I want to end this race yet the only way out is full of suffering... What should i do?

Emo... my foot! Just think my life is so freaking busy now, and i just cant get this damn thought out of my mind.................................................

I am ZZZ

Cya
Ziyan

Damn tired, it is 1.06 am and here i am finally finishing the physics project. Hopefully, it is good enough to get an A haha, anw still gt lots of tests coming up lots of hw to do! And worst, EOM! If i only i can pay 1k for pw to get a straight A, i would do it, pw is the worst of the worst subject in my life la! Nt even abacus can beat it la, still remember during primary sch abacus i hate it, though i love maths lol, irony.. haha

Have been out lately, busy lately, trying to manage dog, bejing olympic, church, project, hw, tests, class t, prayers... Just so busy, it has been long since i take a break from everything and play one whole day or rest one whole day... How i wish this day would come soon... Though i am busy, it doesnt mean i am nt enjoying myself haha, really learnt a lot through this year..

Prioritise, time management, commitment, No more idling around, Put down pride and have faith!

Time to sleep, wake up do maths tys, physics tys, chemistry ws and tutorial, maths inequalities and lastly EOM!!! father coming back home tmr! shld i be happy or not? Hope my mum can cope, god w look over her have faith! :)

I feel this is the time, yet i am afraid i fail, u seem to care too much abt appearance that i am inferior in...

Cya!
Happy Ziyan! Time for a new change! No more Dota. OUT U GO!

Thinking back this year seems to be the best year of my life, yet it may be the saddest moment of my life? haha, it all depends on my promos i guess.. But no matter what, i got to work hard! :) Which i am starting to do with 5 WKS left! Time to put god first and remove this thought out of my mind...

I thought it was lost, yet it found me right back again, i am once again continuously distracted by it.. What shld i do? Give up or Go for it?

Today was fun! Change of plan though, went to movie pool and BMI! lol! Building M... I.. shit i forgot! sorry! Didnt study which i was planning to do, but ended up didnt :(, hope that didnt affect anythin yea?

Though was fun, i am sure ppl think i emo or smth.. or not enthu, i donno y, but i am just tired today, mayb cos of a lack of sleep? But i cant sleep at bk when e air con is so cooling! lol, just really no energy to be enthu or sociable, ppl camwhore i stone, opposite from pae haha, i camwhore ppl camwhore.. Haiz, mayb jae life has changed the way some of us behave?

Gonna start studying! Sunday out whole day most prob?, monday mayb going out to have fun! haha, i think tmr is e only day? Need to send me parents email too, cannot forget! And ClassT design! Must be responsible! Lastly, Must do EOM! I am so dead la haha

Oh ya, peter finally went for a class outg today! :) Yea! It is great to have known ppl closer thrugh today, and having a first class outdoor pic! With almost everyone inside :)!

Time to dota! Ws where are u!

Cya
Ziyan

I feel like stepping down

Seriously, after just a few months, i feel i am not up to the capability of being a vice chair seriously.. i want to be to help this class bond, but seems like i donno how to ? First time vice chair, lots to learn yet lots of mistakes made...

One thing i dont get it: I am so INDECISIVE! Ppl sae one thing i listen, i cant decide on my own! Like this study outg for tmr 8/8/08.. i decide halfway i back out.. i just really disappointed the class, hope they can help me through more :) I wan to lead this class to being more bonded which i know i can, but i need to be more decisive can! Hai... Hope someone can take my place soon, every outing waste damn lot of sms, how good a vice chair i am sia LOL.. haha

Anw, i just realize through this fun festique, i learn much more and make more frens! yea! :) Time to study time to do pw, entertainment get lost... lol! Tmr watching mummy 3 somemore but is compulsory haha, mjc so good la, wan everyone to destress and be bonded as a class so plan this NE trip thingy tmr haha...

Oh ya, i just receive another rhema from him, one word: COOL! thats all

Cya
Ziyan

Got fourth for fun festique, didnt perform well due to several reasons: Lazy to explain. But what matters is really i exp his glory through this fun festique :) only i can feel it, up to u to believe it

Life's busy till 15 august, tests almost everydae, events coming up almost everyday, remedial too, projects too, but i believe i can manage it hehe, really inspired to do everything in life be it studies or whatsoever after reading the 4-D book, yep 4-D bet money those type of 4-D LOL.. just joking haha

Sch is fun now! Know more ppl, closer to e sch! :) Nxt, church! Plan my time, and everything will be alright!

See the things that are seen yet unseen in 3-D and the things will be unfold in e 3-D sooner or later, believing is not everything, faith is everything

Cya
Ziyan
SLEEPING TIME! woo! lol i siao le

God pours his blessings!!!

God really answers my prayers and i can feel it! :) Pray in e new 4-D way, and god really assure me by blessing me to do well for today fun festique!

Though we are the underdogs, small size, but we get into e finals somehow! God bless me by giving strength and power to score? be calm, and have faith! Thanks to those who cheer me! Really boost my morale! :) thanks!

Tmr is the finals though many say we cant win top 3 and end 4th and dennis may not be able to play, i have faith and w pray that god bless me! 4-D God cr8 this world, he gt control of this world yea? :)

Increased lvl of faith, great achievements all thanks to god! Glory to god! Nt me but god who did all these! Must cont to be god conscious, muz be humble, and put god first!

Cya
Ziyan

Blessings by god!

FOP was great today! went agn with sj haha, swee! the sermon songs everything! hopefully she enjoy too? Great exp for both of us, never go b4 fop lol since this year.. Anw, inspired by e sermon! Love ppl,Knowing god& Investing ur time and talent in e WOG! haha cool man:) really internalized everything, time to apply into reality

Anw, second blessing was that i finally realized that if u give smth precious to god, he will bless u ten times the worth of it! I give god my precious- savings and time. And he bless me w Chien Mai trip! yea!:)

Lastly, just wan to end off, is image really that impt? Weight, ur clothing, ur hairstyle, ur appearance, is it really that necessary to make it very perfect? Very attractive, stylist wadever u call it? Why shld this word"image" come! If it doesnt, everything will be perfect

God bless!!!

Cya
Ziyan

Rebecca my blog emo meh? haha, didnt know is emo, just blogging my thoughts everyday lo haha, k i shall blog abt other stuff from now!

Life busy like hell, for the past for now for the future.. Never seem to be able to get out of this hectic jc life. Although is busy, thinking back, it is fulfilling and joyful till now! I really learn much more in jc, in life yup! Which explains why i am more happy now than in the past, though my blog may seem emo haha..

Fun festique is coming.. Basketball is coming.. The medal is awaiting for me.. lol! Hope i can win for miranda though i nver train that much already?

National day is coming! woo! Another period of break and SLEEP! Haven been sleeping 12 hours since donno when, still thinking of the past where almost every weekend i can sleep for 12 hours, so shiok lol.. Oh ya, hoping to have a class outing for national day! Aft movie, a successful one, i think it is the only time which i can gather the whole class to be present for the outing..

Tmr Going FOP agn, haha, experiencing god once more! :) But b4 i go, i need to finish quite a bit of hw and revision if possible which i haven started yet! two days yet so much hw -.-... But it is no doubt that my life is much happier than b4 in sec life, though i seem to be unable to take a break forever..

Lastly, hope my mum and dad are doing great now :) God bless yea! Be strong! No matter where u are, u two are always loved and blessed!

Cya
Ziyan

FOP was great! Thanks for filling me with comfort lord! learn lots of stuff today! But must slowly internalize! New transformation as i step out of singapore indoor stadium today :) Hope all christians will make it for FOP which lasts from this fri to sun !

Anw, just really guilty that sometimes when i talk, i seem to give ppl an impression that i am angry or du lan mayb is cos of my tone, but wadever it is i never meant that way, am trying to change :)

Taxi fare was ex! 11 dollars midnight charge lol! siao leh! but worth it as i exp god a lot in spite of my lack of sleep two days ago, hai now still dying, shall go sleep le cya!

Oh ya b4 i end, i just met a 2.21 m which is 7 foot 5 inch person today! wow!

Cya
Ziyan

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Why do i let the faith or confidence to do things sometimes? Thats one big problem that has been existing in my life for donno how many years.... Thats one big boulder that i must start to remove.. i must!

Anw, just looking and observing at the things in life that had happened this term, i realized that many people have changed or mayb is i am more observant this term? haha, out of these people, there are actually two people( not going to say who) really changed my mindset abt them and disappoint me, esp that one. Was planning to elaborate, but i think i shall not, is bad talking abt ppl, moreover we shld nt hate them, still got lots of things to type but i think i shall stop here, time is precious.. priortize is impt, time to finish my workload...

Cya
Ziyan

I just realized two things

1: I lack calmness and confidence

2: I just fell into the life of _________.



Though i admit that is nt true, yet i cant deny that i feel the other way...

Need more faith, more of ur presence lord :)

Time management, Prioritize, Dont be lazy and much more!

Say but no action, whats e pt? These few days have been saying i muz achieve all those above yet my actions yield no result...

Time to start action! Action!

Miss C1, though not very close to them, they are the bros and sis that have been sent to me, hope can hang out more often :)

Never look too much nor think too much

Regret didnt do many things that i have planned today, not studies but things in life, saying that i will change yet unable to do in actions really disappoint myself...

I know is my own choice yet i dare not take e step of faith to do it, god gives me str guide lead me as i am willing in e first place :) I can do it! Authority over e devil, over my mind , order hence function!

Shall start from now on, this time i mean it, never gonna regret one second of my life, time to study time to plan my time well!

On the other hand, while i was walking home today, looking up in e sky, realizing my parents are gone only then i felt the loneliness, the nagging that was once so irritating yet now i so long for, hai...

Also, i just realized in life, we tend to think too much, think we are always correct in our own principles and try to influence other ppl, but the prob is we are not supposed to do that. Only he can influence ppl nt us, wad rights do we have to have authority over god? We do not have, this is one thing i realize yet one thing that many ppl do realize in their life,
ESP non- christians

Longing for someone to understand me and be there for me fully physically yet i know this is almost impossible to happen.. & in a just a few months and i mayb gone as u have directed me to do..

Cya,
Ziyan

Bye mummy papa, god bless

When u r busy, time seem to be running faster than u think, this is indeed true

In just like 3 weeks after my mum and dad decided to go overseas, now here i am and my bro and maid alone for two weeks before my dad come home and 3 months b4 my mum comes home, time past so fast

I hope i can spend more time w my parents, always regret after smth happens haiz...

Mummy daddy, i love u :) hope u like e gifts from me my bro uncle and sj..

Hope when i see u two, u two wuld be christians like me! haha... Mummy is already one, hope she can cont to be more on fire! Daddy, i believe u will too be one day including my bro :) Nth is impossible

K, shall go do my hw now and tests, i have authority hence order k! Svc is great today! We must function at a higher lvl, nth's going to be e same once i wake up tmr. The New has come, The old has gone

Me VS Time

Is just all abt me and time right now, sound stupid but i guess is true for everyone in jc life right now

We are all trying to run agst time to complete all our tasks in life right now, no matter how much time we have we seem to be unable to complete forever...

PMT: Time to study to show and nt just say! AAAAAA Is it possible? Yes it is. Is it possible w/o mugging like a nerd? Yes it is, i believe so w god :)

Time to manage my time, time to assign my tasks, 15 hour rule! Time to go :)

Cards, Study, Bible, Gift, Cca- Never ending

3 more days =(, Everything's gonna change for me yet no one will know and no one will care that much i guess

Is just all btw me and me alone to adapt to this change

Cya
Ziyan

Confidence & Sensitive

Fear is no longer significant in my life, nor should it even exist in my life! Fear brings nth but problems, worries that impede ur life progress towards a better life... Confidence! Is what i strive to achieve! Must start to be confident! Dont fear, dont be shy in doing anything:)

Sensitive- Know when to behave! Dont be sensitive but dont act, it is pointless!


Please bless me in these two aspects of my life :) thanks!

Cya
Ziyan

Time to focus, time to set my mind right, time to study! :) for the right purpose of course

1 wk left =( sian


Cya
Ziyan

Life's gonna be great and fulfilling ltr! :)

Hope everything can be back to the past :) And i know it will, just a matter of time..

Life is all about tests, whether u survive it or fails it all depends on how u perceive it and act according to it


Really feel depressed of what i have done all these timeas a vice-cg rep, useless =( sorry guys, But now all these goin to change, shall start doing smth now, now...

Really clueless about 3 things in life right now- 3 ppl..

Really happy that i was quite good w my chiang mai interview today :)

Life is full of emotions- one day, u can have many emotions, be it negative or positive, but whatever it is, e end of the day, u must always put a strong front- for what u do always affects e ppl ard u, and influences e ppl ard u :)

Of all my frens, u have become the fren whom i am not sure u are close to me or far from me.. Just seem to not understand u totally just after this holiday yet i still thought i have understood u all along..Guess i am wrong for now, you seem to change 360 degrees after the holiday..


Loves Hog! Mong thanks! :) It all matters btw him and me, and nth else :) Wadever ppl think of us doesnt matter for hes e most impt and e one that matters to me most :)

Cya,
Ziyan

I just love my life right now :) Yet theres still many holes that i have yet to fill up in my life, esp my flaws..

Never regret coming back to u! :) 4-D! Nth is impossible w u:) Nth!


New mindset, New goal, New attitude => 12/7/08

Life is a blessing, cherish it

Ppl complains, ppl grumbles, ppl gets angry easily. Some ppl just falls into this category, or most of the people in this world... Just find it stupid that in this world, many of us are wasting our time or our life just like that. Whats the point of being negative? being angry? being so pissed off easily? being so pessimistic?

Why not u be happy? Always optimistic? Be the one who will pass the optimisim,joy to others. Be the one whose actions will calm someone down, will cheer someone up, will heighten their confidence level, be the one!

Both types of life will be using up precious time,days,months,years of ur life, so why not just choose the life which is more worth living for, more meaningful, more joyful?

Inspired by Mandela =)

Faith & The mind of Christ makes everything possible :)

Life is only worth living w u

Thanks for everything! I learn quite a lot abt life today though it took up abt 1 hr of my life haha, i love talking!

Saturday is coming! Woo! Time to have a higher lvl of faith through svc tmr :)

Oh ya! Just now i just experience a scenario that was prophesized by god! cool man!

Ziyan

I am simply going to lose my patience in u, i dont know y, but i just did, somehow trying to get back this patience which i have almost run out of, in u...

I need ur help lord! Thanks :)

Longing for ....

Time past like a blink of an eye, within what seems like a few hours, 5 days have past, holiday is gone, exam is finished.. and now here i am, adapting myself to suit term 3 school life...

It is just so amazing looking back and seeing how much time has been wasted.. still remember pae say that we still got much time to slack. But now, 6 months gone leh! wth! is like how i wished time will slow down for me to decide when it will start&stop =( but sadly, is beyond my control...

Sometimes, how i wish someone will be there for me 247, i know i am demanding in saying that, but i really think a person in life should have a very very good fren, one whom both can relate probs to so both can help me one another 24/7.. i got frens who are there for me but nt 24/7.. Only god is there 24/7 haha.. but sometimes i wish theres someone in physical form there for me to hear my probs, know when i need a ear, know when i need a helping hand.. Haiz, sometimes there is but sometimes there isn't..Looking at the sky in the silence at night with my dog staring at me blankly, walking home alone , taking bus at home, looking at how gloomy sgeans faces are, how amazing the galaxy is ( Thanks to Xueli!), how nice the sky is , how life is so complicated yet so simple at times, all these just left me pondering, totally oblivious of the surroundings around me, just caring about the life i am living now, the life the world is in now... Anytime, anywhere,anyone can be just affected right now just by the 3 words " Time is here" ... When that moment comes, i donno what will become of the ppl ard me whom i loved but not willing to accept god.. hai.. just can only pray and hope their hearts can be softened more each day till e day they accept him =)

Faith, Holy spirit, i need u=)

Ziyan( Stop being so childish!)

Life is cruel but god is great

Life is hard to cope but is possible to cope

Life will not always turn out what u want but it can be if u persist

Life is said to be ups and downs but if u look from a diff perspective, it is always ups :)


Just dont get it, why sometimes ppl wan to have quarrel ppl wan to have hatred agst somebody, it is just not worth it, both parties suffer, no one benefit at all, just hope u can be less STUBBORN and learn to more loving through ur actions not ur words, acting cool is plain stupidity.. it just simply drives ppl ard u smirking at u...

Life is hard to maintain

Cant just seem to figure out why sometimes things dont turn out as i wanted and it is especially times where i have control of the outcome of these things.. i have a choice and yet i chose to take the wrong path... why? & as the days go by, i think i m sure of my own feelings and thinking already.. yet time is short.. it is too late? lol.. Kk time to get back on track! HS and faith!

7pm le! Love blossoms!

Happy Birthday MUM!

It is 22nd yes 22nd june! And happy bdae mum! Sorry for only buying u a cake and nt making any presents =(.. Shall bu chang aft exam soon haha U have been a loving mum though quite nagging yea? haha! but thats wad mums are.. all mums.. nagging but they do that cos of love =)
Mummy happy birthday again!

Anyway, time is seriously running out for me i got only like 3 hrs to prepare b4 i take tmr chem paper? At night not free, going out lol! Mum bdae ma! haha.. but i believe wad i study will surely come out for chem! God is a good god, use me lord! haha.. chem cant possibly come out 100 percent of what e teachers cover right? haha.. ya lo so i believe wad i study will be well enough and good enough for me to take e exam tmr and get an A,A,A,A,A!!! lol!

Ytd church svc was great, faith! I muz have faith to take on his role, to speak out, to live his life and glory!=) Muz be more god conscious! I do it w faith and HS!! i can :) and i know it! And i will! Glory of the lord here i come:) Faith HS! man! Pride is shit i dont nd it :)

Ziyan

Time is running out

Time, time , time, can i have more of u! Sacrificing my time to use com, and go study these few days, as u can see, my msn is offline now till abt 2am, which is e time i watch soccer!

Is great to take a break from studies and watch soccer, play dota once in a while lol.. haha, portugal currently on live and i am watching it =). Cant imagine how am i going to wake up at 10 when i am going to sleep at 5 LOL.. haha, hopefully i can somehow...

Study within 1 wk is stressful, planning ur time, no longer being lazy, somemore i study very slow, is really very hard haha.. but it seems fun to be able to study! haha! It just seems fun to me now as i study.. i donno y oso... studying seems so fun now yet stressful, experiencing his work as i study is even greater!

Hopefully i can glorify him through this mye? I have faith but i need to put in effort too yea =) Time to serve him not only in exams too...

Second half has started, cya

Ziyan

Chem is fun!

Finally, aft a 1 hr plus tuition by bro just now, i feel that theres hope to me passing chem! yes there is! Chem is actually so simple la! LOL, but a lot to memorize....

Kk now back to studying, haven studied at all since i woke up to see lakers getting trashed 39 pts? LOL!! haha

But nvm, i noe lakers is complacent, nxt season sure own celtics esp pierce upside down :)

Maths Physics here i come =)

Reward for the day!

In 45 mins, just like e world cup which i have been waiting for! ITALY VS FRANCE! muz muz watch! skully gt another head butt!!! haha!

Then in 6-7 hrs! Gt finals nba! MUZ MUZ WATCH!!! surely lakers will win! History will be created! Lakers will win!

Cant wait for these 2 matches to start! Muz not sleep! Donno how i survive tmr haha..

Lives at stake here!

This holiday is screwed! Seems like i go out e most in my entire life? Almost 1 in 2 days go out including this wk? haha! I am dead! However, study life isnt really impt, wad i have learnt through this holiday and esp this year is really what feel is very impt!

Everyday is a new day! Tomorrow may not come so make full use of today! This is indeed true, just read it in e daily bread! Gotta start cherish e things ard me, pass e joy ard me, no one sad no one angry, everyone w be happy forever! Everyday is a priceless experience!

Kk back to serious business, have been hearing and noticing how ppl's lives now are- mostly bad. Some cos of studies, stress, wadever they are, they all are not happy, worried, and feeling they cannot achieve one what they wan. For me is e same feeling but is in e past, now, i think i have really changed a lot. Put faith in wadever u do, seriously, it works, for christians in god :) it is amazing how a suffering can become a blessing :) haha...

One experience was just two days ago monday, i was late for sch 9 wake up, bathe 905, 40 mins to econs lesson, inside me thinking that i am dead but i decided to put faith in him and give it all... i change my clothes ran downstairs, and there is my father going to work! He fetch me to seragoon int in e end, is 910, then left 30 mins, at the bus stop, i pray and close my eyes for a while.. Amazingly if u believe what u consider a coincedence or a blessing imo, as i open my eyes, 81 was infront of me! I was shocked la! But it all happens not coincedently but cos of faith cos of a reason :)- god's move to increase my faith further! In e end though i was late, i was late only by 3 mins? haha, praise god! Just hope to ppl out there, no matter christians or not, in wadever u do, give it ur best seriously, u nver know what e outcome mayb, it may just turn out much more better than u have imagined it to be! Dont think that onli christians can, for we all are humans, we all are capable of anythin :)

Give it ur best in everything u do!

Striving to become FHL, put down pride & Being humble !!

Ziyan, cya, time to glorify god :) haha

Ziyan wake up la!

Cannot be lazy!
Cannot be afraid!
Cannot be ashamed!

TIME IS ALMOST UP! WAKE UP ZIYAN! DONT KEEP SLEEPING!

wth lakers zz! i just realized how complacent they are or how good the celtics are, zzzzzzz, 22 pts lead can end up into 6 points deficit! Z!!! Kobe please wake up and be as aggresive as lebron! U gt players like odom and gasol but lebron doesnt and they can get 4-3 series, u sure can win de! LOL, hope kobe will read my post and be inspired haha wad am i thinking sia! If kobe will read my post, the sky will drop down le...

Ziyan

Life seems good afterall!

Outing w sec class today! Turns out to be more fun than i tot! haha! But kicking a ball in e sand is PAIN LA! Bleeding cos of kicking e ball once? haha, but talking was very fun frisbee too! Knowing how each other is doing now is great! Though some are having difficulties now, but at least is great to hear that they have good frens in their respective jcs!

Just come home, something just happen. Mayb what i have been expecting to come true may not come true? Things are unpredictable, in just an instant i may not need to expect all these things i have been preparing for! haha, but yet agn, if the decision is changed, bet some of my frens w scold me... lol.. for making them cry for nth LOL.. haha

Gtg sleep! Happy BDAE ZX BTW!
Ziyan

Time is precious la!

Thinking abt my life right now, it is just simply great except for e exam part haha, but thinking abt e future, i am doubtful..

Can it last forever? I doubt so.. Is nt my choice is nt my destiny but is he who chooses for me, wad can i do but only to accept it...

Gotta start mugging, cannot procrastinate, this wk is busy yet i am slacking now.. lol.. gtg study time brb on msn =)

Ziyan

Friends are there for a reason!

There are many different types of frens in everyone's life and i believe every type of them is there for a different reason! All for a good reason though!

Firstly, some frens are there to encourage u!
Secondly, Some are there to cheer u up! To motivate u to excel in studies sports!
Thirdly, Some are there to test how u react to certain situations like anger management! Even if these frens are treating u bad, they are helping u actually! Nurturing u to be a person of better character!
Fourthly, Some are there to be helped! To test ur principles in life!
Lastly, which i think is e most impt! Is frens that are there to fellowship with me, to hear my probs, to go through thick and thin with me! And i think everyone can be that fren in everyone's life nt only my life, it is just whether they are willing to take this step to take on this role! =) It takes courage, lots of effort but yields a best friend who will be there for u too in the end of the day!

Emptiness

Almost every night, i had to go down to take care of my dog! He is just so irritating lol! 11pm! Shout for me! Let me out to shit! Let me out to pee! haha! Though it is irritating but everytime i am with him alone outside my house at his cage, the setting seems perfect for me to always ponder and the emptiness of something just sets in.

It is always nice to think about everything everyday but not emoing! Theres a difference haha, i feel that though i always had to clean my dog pee and poo i had time to think of all these and really realized how blessed i am! Which areas in life i am lacking! And how amazing some people actually perceived life so differently from what i thought! Hard to express through words but easy to think of all these =)

Life is just so amazing. Everything has a reason. And coming down every night to clean my dog's poo and pee is not excluded too. God has planned it all =)

Inevitable

Thinking abt it again, just cant seem to get it off my mind. These things are bound to happen sooner or later and i am hoping not to think for now. Yet, it is inevitable. Nt that i am affected by it now but it will affect me sooner or later. In 3 months time?

Anw, was just looking at my secondary school class' photos. It is really amazing how many of us including me have changed. It is really cool to see how people have matured so much just through these few months. However, it is really sad to see some people now suffering in those jcs they wished they have not been to. Hope that i can help them, but i know i cant as we are in both different schools now, different lives. The only thing i can do is to pray and talk to them whenever they are online? Really feel sad for them la, they do not deserve to be in these situations now. Hopefully, someone will look over them =)

If any of u all are reading now( though i doubt so ), just wan to say that life is hard but u gt a choice- fight for it or give up. Even if u are in e worst situation, fight for it! Fight for e joy that u wish u have, fight e type of life that u wish to have. Nth is impossible =) God is real, seek him if u r a christian , he will bless u! Everything has a reason behind it, this situation u r having now also has a reason- nurtures u to be a better person? I dont know, is for urself to find out and for urself to know. All the best, God Bless =D

Ziyan

Life in e Universal World

Since i have 20 minutes left b4 i go out, shall blog again, this time once again about life, nt my life but how i think e life of many are having now

Life is never an easy task, we always tend to expect too much from our lives and we always feel we are never up to the expectations of having a happy life. In fact, we feel inferior as compared to others whenever we see them happy and cheerful at times. We tend to think that we ourselves are never being able to be like them- happy, positive. However , actually these ppl whom u think they r happy but think that they are inferior as compared to u- the same way u think. We shld always think life simple u know ? Life isnt that complicated unless u make it complex. Make it and think it simple and u will be happy always! Dont limit ur joy only to urself in ur heart! Express it out! Spread ur joy to others through ur actions! Only then, wil others be happy too! Thats wad we should also do =) The world will then be a better place even if there are more and more probs in e world, this is becoz there has been a change in perspective in the way we look into lives =)

Another aspect is that we always try to avoid probs in life or procrastinate. Whenever we have probs in lives, we choose e path- avoid or delay e problems hopefully it will solve by itself? We think that this path w much be much easier and much less painful but We r wrong always time after time, we r wrong. In e end of the day, these probs will never be solved and by then, the seriousness of them will be amplified. U will find it harder to solve them, u may even be so stressed cos of this prob that u may do smth stupid? U never know, probs are meant to nurture u to a person of better calibre, higher maturity, and really grow to be a better person overall. So dont ever run away from ur probs for they are there for a reason- To make u a better person- by making u experience the hard way yea?

The last aspect is that we human beings always tend to have problems managing our feelings? In front of ppl, we are always keeping a strong front, saying we have no problems , we are alright . However, inside at home alone, actually, we are having a big problem in our lives. Are we scared of losing face? Are we too scared that ppl will mock at us? This is what i think is e reason to why we are always trying to hide our tangible feelings inside and trying to lie to others that we are alright. Yes, we should not let ppl worry for us by nt showing these feelings out, but we should also not hide these feelings inside us! We should try to get rid of these negative feelings, nt by inflicting pain on urself but seeking other ways to do it. Eg, find someone close to u to confide in? Or If this feeling is hatred, try to forgive and forget. If others can do it , y cant u! Learn to be able to fa de xia =) Dont make ur life worse by having these feelings! If is jealousy, y wuld u be jealous? Everyone is unique in their own ways. Care abt ur own life and not others! Does jealousy make u better? It makes ur worse! These feelings must not be pondering u forever, it will affect ur mood ur life and e ppl ard u! Learn to manage ur feelings and try to be more sensitive to urself. Which part of ur personality is not good to u? Change it, move on w ur everydae life with a better perspective to life and also as a better person. Improve urself everyday in character wise!

Shall stop here, 5 mins left
Cya!
Ziyan

Thank you lord =)

Things are back on track =) Thanks for understanding me, and thanks wenjie for telling me =D, have learnt a lot through this period of time

I Believe U

Clarify some stuff todae and really hope our friendship still can be that of last time- close and trustworthy =) Really hope that there will be no longer mutual misunderstanding or disbelief in each other yea? Sorry for really misunderstanding mani stuff recently, but now i know everything already

Anw, just on a random note, i have drunk 3-4 Starbuck coffee of the same type just different size- White Chocolate Mocha Frappucino( if i spelt correctly ) plus whipcream! Nice and addictive =) Go try ! haha

Ziyan

Life is good =)

Learn many things abt life this wk!

1) Have faith

2) Love ppl more than u love urself

3) Be more enthu, less serious

4) Be more decisive

5) Humble yourself

U can always be the one who bring joy to the ppl around u, dont wait for others to bring joy. U can be the one =)

Hope everything will be alright

Hope tmr outing will be successful =) Hope everyone w come , Most prob e only outing in this holiday hai... please come ppl, w/o any of u, is nt a class outing anymore


Why has e trust diverted away from me?

Thank mong for e svc today =) it simply blew me off, thanks pastor tan! =)



2-5 months left... time is precious... but i think i am wasting it now, ziyan wake up from the world of delusion

Can someone his or her ear to me right now?

Ppl are simply self-centred, only care abt themselves. Is this true? To me to a large extent for now...

They claim ppl are nt there for them, and when u r there for them, they simply just sae " thank you for ur concern " or simply just brush it off like they dont care at all..

When they are happy they dont care ur concern towards them, when they are sad they need ur concern, is just like we r their slaves at their disposal. when they wan, they drag us out frm the deep hole, when they no longer need, they simply throw u back inside e deep hole..

Who will be there for these slaves?

Guess no one is understanding why am i saying all these, do u? No i dont think so, since ppl r happy now , ppl are no longer needing ur concern , please wake up!

Everything seems to come true according to what i pray haha... shall cfm further only time can tell =)


Gonna mug, going to... no procrastination no more...

God bless!

Although these few days were unproductive in terms of studying, the things i have gained in life outweights this =)

Went to meet Sy jiafor studying and her fren, marcus oso went along!( Dont think wrongly k! haha ), realize that she is much better now mentally =) Can only pray for her, but i believe e prayer is starting to work! i have faith! She seems happy yes on the outside but she w feel sad on e inside, try my best to cheer her up, hope it helps.

Went to play pool w wenjie, wy , dennis. Realize that pool is just as fun as b4 lol, but dont plae too long at one go , will die out & So ex! lol! Realize that life is actually much simpler if u think much lesser and just let god leads and guides u while u uphold his image =)

Nd to start mugging now and chiong pw, hope our pw can be done quickly. Other grps are infront of us just realized lol, and in terms of mugging, hope i can study more effectively and be more serious. Wk 1 is ending, and nth is yet to be produced academically. How jc life works is just so unexpected from what i perceive on e 1st dae of the jc life. But yet, e frens e ppl i noe are damn nice to be w haha, however in just an instant all these may just perish from my life... SECRET! LOL..

Ziyan

Troubled Year

This year , if u realize the ppl ard u or mayb it is onli me, the ppl ard me, are all troubled , pressurized , stressed, wadever word u can come out w to describe their plight. Not only that, ppl in e world are suffering more than usual. Sichuan earthquake. Myanmar Cyclone. All these are just e beginnings. Are all these signs of smth? Is god trying to test our faith to remain stronger becoz e time is now? Is god seeing a need to grow them? Wadever it is, their stress , pressure on them are just killing them. But, just hope that they can know that not only are they in a pathetic situation now, i am too. However, the way u look and do things are different. Seek in the bible. Yes, some may did that. But who realli carry the faith to pray to do things. In the end of e dae, really have e faith that god w bless us after all these trials. Theres no nd to worry.

Hope that these ppl i am aiming to, can hear me? Though i know it is slim but i really hope god w let his purpose known to them and encourage them. Even non-christians are possible.God is e truth and e light. Only knowing him by faith then u can experience him. Not by sight =) And just really hope that this troubled period of the year will not last forever...

And mayb i shouldnt have worsened their current situation, i shouldnt have told them my probs? I shouldnt have told them that matter? They cant take it then why did i tell them? Hai..

God, i am willing to suffer for them( eg, XSWW and much more ), be it one or one thousand. Just divert the burden of them to me please. They dont deserve it and they cant take it. But i can with u lord, with the faith u give me. Please fulfil my wish. Thanks =) [ Some of u all reading this blog may think i am too devoted to god, but just really wanna sae that is cos god is too real to deny, that i am willing to take this step of faith to proclaim his glory ]

Ziyan

I am just an It-newbie who learns photoshop only for 2 months and thats newbie tutorial. Now i had to apply all these skills to make a professional website in like 12 hrs more? And i have been sleeping only like 2 hrs on wed and 5 hrs ytd... How am i going to survive. Pressure is so much on me..

I used to spend 1 wk making just a cover page and its links without details . Now i have to do all these within 12 hrs.. on my own somemore..

No offence agst anyone, just trying to vent my stress out so i wont die of stress.. Wonder why sometimes ppl can seem so relax and produce excellent work while some seem to think too much and take it too serious and produce under-productive work in the end of the day. It is all in e mind and e mentality and thats all matters. Stress / pressure / take it too serious / unable to adapt urself to situations all are bound to cause u downfall no matter how hard u try..

God be w me =) And bless my fren's family and everything i pray for the school, cca , ppl ard me, my family and myself

Ziyan

Helpless at ends.

Sometimes or most of the times, when u want to help a person badly but u couldnt what u should do? I have no idea. Just dont know how to help, but i want to help. Life is full of limitations. U may have the ability but u sure lack the willingness or the other way round. How i wish we can all have both. The world would then be in peace and order =) Full peace and order.

Hope u are reading this blog now, just want to say that though i cant help much, i will do my best to help u =) Cheer u up, Motivate u anythin as long as it can make u feel better yea. And rmb god is always w u w us , and hes fair to everyone. Have faith, continuously praying, blessings w come no doubt. Patience is a virtue =) God bless everyone, esp u.

Ziyan

Everything will be alright my fren

Trials may come, but god w be the better of them. Blessings in disguise w sure come.. God is testing u, dont be sad, dont be troubled , dont be dishearted. Stay strong in his faith and his glory will bless u w e most unexpected outcome! Be happy really. Though u seem happy always , deep inside i noe u r sad. Have faith, faith is the key to miracles to everything. Be strong, u can do it! =) U can be stronger than u r now, and u and i noe that..

Day by day, tears well in his eyes, second by second, it started to flow down... In relation to time, seconds tick away every instant, time is wasted everytime, the moment of truth is nearing to an end. Time is precious for now, very precious. Moments must be cherished now.. Really. Hope emotions wont get the better of me when the time comes. Be strong. The end is yet to come though is nearing. Time will soon be lost and the moment of truth will come. Just hoppe everyone will be very happy and BONDED! B4 THE moment of truth comes. Dun wan to see a pathetic sad lives of ppl when the truth comes..

Ziyan

Everynow & then, this matter just dont seem to be able to escape from my mind. I kept thinking and thinking. Sometimes, i feel like i should just tell everyone now and just go. But on the other hand, they would hate me or be demoralized cos of me... Should i or should i not? I never know. How i wish time will go back...

It is true that they sae that cherish e moments when u r young. That time i keep thinking when i grow up i will have a better life cos theres no hw no sch. But now , i tot of sch, esp primary sch the times when we can plae the times when we can really have time to spend w our family and frens and not keep w our studies & all this personal affairs that u have to handle when u grow up. How life works is so complex. But God is always there for me =)

U all may not know what i m talking abt but u all will know sooner or ltr.

Ziyan

Faith!

Ytd svc was simply great overpowering man! Praise god! Really was totally different b4 and aft the svc! nver regretted goin=) Pastor How taught me faith. The confidence we shld have to take one more step to glorifying god is so impt ! It is just so great believing more and more in god! haha.. Nver felt this in the past though i frequently went church. Think i was not serious that time as in real serious . Merely following ppl.

Now is the change in life! FAITH! I goin to have faith in everything. Setbacks ? No kick.. as long as i try and i fail & most impt god still loves me, why should i be scared or sad or intimidated? Right? Even my shooting though this wk i screw up, i was happy cos god bless me much more! He bless me in such a way i did not expect it. He heal me as i was a bit sick that week after eating a meal with a fly in it. LOL.. and he bless my physics spa! though i didnt study much. Wad most impt is he let me see where i can change and the way of life ppl ard me are living and what i should do to help them.Really thank god! Hope god cont to bless me to be more sensitive as i grow more in the faith of the lord.

Oh ya , one more thing, sorry MR LIANG! I know i was caught playing psp in ur lesson. Really sry.. Wouldnt commit anythin that will anger u or anyone else. Anw to end off , just wan to say... that no matter what happen to me or u in future, u must take care of urself, i am sure u gt frens ard u not only me that care for u . Pray in the faith of the lord, he will bless u i am sure in every way possible ! Dont be dishearted! U can do it =) I have faith in u!

Ziyan

Just dont get it

Why does ppl just want to show off when they did so well.. and just move away when they did so badly? I juz dont get it. Ppl now and in e past all have one thing in common. Self-interest. Care abt their lives and theirs onli. Through this jc life, i not only realized that e ppl ard me are always aiming for their own interests via any means be it BS, Lying, Showing they are more superior.. and much more la..

Ppl will basically do anythin in order to achieve what they aim for. For me, i feel that i am not this kind of ppl. I really want to go for a job that really make ppl happy and not urself. By making them happy, is my pleasure. However in order to do so, i must earn a sum of money to help these ppl i believe. Thats why i am going on the business and finance line. Earn a sum of money in ten years and help these ppl. i want to show the world that not only e world consists of selfish ppl, it also contains ppl who are compassionate and come to this world just to bring joy to others and not themselves. I hope that one day, i will meet ppl of this personality . It is rare i know, but i hope i can meet them. Even christians sometimes may not be that good , just for instance this person i know, he just simply suan and though he serves, he didnt apply wad god teach him in his life. Haiz.. this is self-explanatory. Shall nt elaborate further.

Anw, just want to tell everyone that, i dont like anyone ( not that i dont like u all ji siao me ) but just wan to inform u all .. i did like her once a bit i dare to say that but it was a first impression kind of like.. as time past, i dont like her nor love her =) gd frens only