2010!!!! 2-0-1-0! A great year to start the year with god :) First time plus family! God family and I! How great is that? haha. Fun spending such time, quite inspiring, quite emo haha!

But like what my fren say on msn, we must be happy this year! Not moan over the past or whatever sad things. Yes they w still come, but we can look at it in a different perspective! Decided to stay faith filled and do things that way.

People may still be the same, ignore me or whatsoever but i am going to look at it in a positive note. This is to nurture me into a person who is even more loving when people are even more less loving. haha

Time to please God in 2010! :))):)):)) & Start my resolution rolling

Cya
Ziyan

This year can be said to be a blast in its own unique ways in my life. People whom i have never known deeply have become quite significant in my life for this year and i am grateful for that. Frens, sisters, brothers- these people are what make my life so unforgettable in the midst of As this year.

Sadly but true, we never know whether we will be in contact again but this journey that is imprinted in my life will never fade. When i look back and share with my younger generations or my future frens these moments, it is definitely something to be joyful of.

I thank god for such a church that never forsakes even when i was down and never give much passion for serving god.

So is my sisters in christ- Sy Jia & Xue Li. These people are definitely god blessing of encouragement in all aspects of my life esp x haha. Thank you for that though i know just a thank you is not enough. If you are reading this blog, please keep in contact w me k! Time is definitely not enough after this sat, but i believe a true friendship can never fade away over time. Obstacles are bound to come but it is only when they come that a friendship tightens:)

So is my brothers :)- Wen Jie & Wei Sheng & Winson & Hong liang & Peter. Though some may only be close for this moment after Alvl while some may only be close at certain periods of time, i am grateful for them in my life these 2 yrs :). I hope that just like how i feel, they also feel and will continue this friendship thrugh the nxt 10 yrs haha or 20 or 30. Weisheng,6 yrs fren haha. It will be weird not having you as the same "class" anymore in army. Whenever i look at my own class for these 6 yrs, there is weisheng! haha! Still in class w me wondering why are we so lucky to be in e same class. Even our results are almost identical sometimes haha. Miss u bro if you r reading.

My church frens too and many more- This year is something to be remembered b4 we go to a whole new stage of our life.Thanks guys for being there:)

Sounds like some speech for getting an award ? hahah. And truly speaking, as i enter 2010, i am prepared for many people ard me to change for the better & for the worse. Some may even be totally different from what they are now and i can already see some change in them even b4 enlistment or b4 uni. Mayb thats them when there is no more school. Thats them when life kicks in and studies kicks out. I am also ready to change- smth i long for. A change where people will look and say WOW! Cos they wont believe what i have been doing. haha. Smth that will give ppl a scare but in a good way of course!

Thanks everyone and 107 , Chingay, Chiang Mai, Hog church, and my family! Learn to cherish them more from 2010 onwards. Though i always say i will, i seem to potray a different image and thats bad. esp to my family.

2010's gonna be great. Eh nono, it's gonna be magnificent :) God's gonna rock the world. And i am going to be e platform!

Cya Guys for 2009. A year where everyone will never forget for now. A year where friends are made for life and friends are lost for life(*Cross Fingers)

God bless you all haha. Seem like i am talking to myself but who cares? I just love it that way :)

2009 will end with a celebration which is once in a lifetime! Cos i don think i have ever celebrated that way b4! haha!

Cya
Ziyan

It is 2.17 am now and this is 31st december. Time passes fast and it dawns on me suddenly that this year is coming to an end.

Shall post one long long blog tmr and it will sum up 2009:) Okay it is 2.18 am haha! This year has not started off with a bang but lets hope it will end off w a bang :)

True frens are those that will stick to you during tough times. Till now, truly speaking, i don't know who are my true friends. Not that there's tough times in my life but some friends who seem not close tend to be the ones close to you during these times. And she, who seem like a close fren, is actually isnt one.

Cya
Ziyan

How i feel

All my life, things have been going smoothly, ordinary, like all my frens have been experiencing. However, i feel something is missing personally in my life, something that will make my life fulfiling. I don know what this thing is, perhaps it is trying smth out of my mind(2010 resolution) or growing spiritually or stepping out of my comfort zone to changing myself to a better person imo.

I don't know if anyone has experienced this but i feel a kind of boredom in me even if i am preoccupied with things to do. It is such boredom that always draws me back to thinking what am i going to fulfil the next few years. Am i supposed to look at others' life and envy them? No right. Life should not be compared to another's life but should be drawn upon what you have been doing. I guess i have to figure this out soon b4 army kicks in and things start to go way much messier.

Time to plan. Time to step up onto another level of achievement:) Sec4 to J1 has been one major change in me but that is only the start. I still got much to learn and much to change. Cant imagine how life would be 10 years down the road and i look back and see what i have achieved so far. Who knows? My life may be reflected in the media 10 years down the road HAHA!

Think big, nono, Think bigger, nono, Think bigggggger!
Do big, nono, Do biggger, nono, Do biggggger!

Okay i am going crazy. Shld finish up something soon or else i am so dead. Don't even know does she care abt all these things when she appears so unbothered at all. Hmmm, then why am i doing such stuff for her. Kinda dumb.

Cya
Ziyan

How i wish not only frens can clique, but beyond frens, a relationship will start.

Yet some is too late, some is too early, is it so hard to find something or someone that is at the right moment there for u?

Things tend to be so amazing at times that we cant predict what's gonna happened nxt. The world is as amazing yet we fail to appreciate it and complain abt how bad the world is in today.

Most humans tend to be dissatisfied with things are in at the moment unless they are to their liking. Thus, the world can never be a happy place for everyone since we are all unique.

Cya
Ziyan

Went ubin ytd, it was quite fun except for the bike. The seat is seriously not comfortable but the shop puts up a signboard saying" comfort bicycle " which means comfortable bicycle. Poor english, poor expression. Shld be uncomfortable instead haha.

Aft which, went shermine's house. It was more fun than i thought when we all went swimming( e guys ). Then in e evening and night we just spent our house at shermine's house. I expected we eat and talk but that didnt happen. Haha. Hope that sometimes, people can learn to be more sensitive or rather considerate. Okay, so now monday is finally a rest day:)

Tuesday- cycling :) with the clique hahah fun man!

Wed- Hopefully catch up with dl ppl b4 bbq at ecp :)

Thus & Fri - no plans yet but hopefully have some plan :)

Sat- Atlas 4 outg & Ah ma bday & church. How to push all these into one! so hard!

Sun- Bye bye! to taiwan haha.

I still wanna meet so mani ppl but it seem so hard. Shld i just leave w/o a trace? haha, hope to keep in contact w e ppl i know these 2 yrs but it seem it will take more than willingness to do it for some. It is sad but it is a fact.

Cya
Ziyan

Christmas eve, Christmas, Boxing day have been woah this year :) Attended 3 svcs, and it is really a blessing to attend with frens amen? U share the joy and love with frens and family members and god, and that is really awesome. Love it. One of the best christmas time ever i suppose but quite tiring haha. Was supposed to go out today too but someone forgot today is sat and cant go out LOL. Blur leh! Ltr am supposed to go to my er jiu house haha. Family time is the best, catch up once in a while and see how everyone is doing.

Tmr will be cycling trip! :) Love cycling haha.

And all these are coming to an end. 11 jan is fast approaching so is 4th jan. Ws and Hl are gg in. Hoping to enjoy every bit right now and taiwan i am coming! :)

Hope this christmas, i will receive many cards on top of msgs. Though no cards have been sent to my house, hopefully they will be sent at the end of the day :) Felt so unloved now when ppl ard me are receiving cards at their house haha sad.

Anyway, hope this year 09 and countdown to 2010 will be fun. No plans but hope i will have a plan and it will end off with a bang. Yet to catch up with sec sch class and hope there will be one soon. Hope to see hows everyone is doing. And 2010 resolutions got to be set and achieved since all exams and studies are over. Time to make a drastic change in 2010 for the better in all aspects

PS: I had a dream, i got E for econs and Cs and Bs for other subjects. Quite scary but in my dream, i don feel scared of whats my future. Weird ah. Luckily, dream and reality are two different things. Outcome will be the opposite. Grace's gonna come. Thank god :)

Cya
Ziyan

Finally i get the meaning of never leave things to the last minute becoz they never go as you plan it to be. Crap! Christmas cards- 34 but sent out only 30 because not all reply their addresses, and even question why i ask them LOL. Like i don get it cos i explain already.

Okay, so i sent out 30 hopefully all receive in good condition since it is raining and i glue it like damn fast becoz b4 12pm today is the last collection!

Cool day, woke up at 830 get down to business of doing and continuing my cards. And now finally a time to rest b4 i have lunch and go church :)

220 at paya lebar mrt with peter and hong liang then joining sy jia one in e evening. Cool time to exp god :)

And tmr is xueli one haha

Love god love ppl. I know this is the time god wants to test me to serve ppl. Yup.

Okay, time to plae one game yea!

Cya
Ziyan

Days have been great so far

Felt great to be back in the desire to start reading the bible and applying biblical principles :) Starting soon! I am so gonna grow and make a change in the way i live in, man:) not male!

The past few days have been busy but not quite satisfying. Maybe i am feeling really excited to try smth new but hadn't grabbed the chance to.

Monday was spent at home, revising of what is in store for me :) And spent some time just recovering from post prom(don wanna say already). Conclusion: Alcohol is not advisable for me!

The following day was cycling! Worst and best cycling trip ever with some of my class and sze how. haha cool man.

Then was working and steamboat :) Sick after that though. Conclusion: No labour work for me anymore! haha but at least i earn 156 dollars in total :)

Thus and fri was spent resting at home and planning what should i do for the christmas and other events. Realise i have got many things to do but not all are of my interest.

Sat went out with sec sch clique:) Realise many facts and catch up many stuff haha.

Sun was swimming and impromptu gaming outg haha! then church ! and jumbo dinner :)

Superb week but not very spiritual if i take a look back. Nevermind, the future is still bright. Two more weeks to spend wisely! Time to get things back on track where it should be.

Time to buff up too! Cant imagine if i become heavier by 20 kg b4 i go army... hmmmm. that will be kinda cool :)

Got to do christmas cards and meet up w some ppl whom i long to. Hope they share the same willingness to meet up with me :).

Self-Quote: If one is to change the way things revolve around him, one must first change the perspective of doing things.

Be the head and not the tail. Lead and not back down. Love life, cherish life

Cya
Ziyan

The greatest discoveries a man make is when he discover he can do what he deem it is impossible for him initially. Smth of a quote from henry ford i think really speaks into what i am today.

I shld continue inculcating this value into my heart and do what i want as long as it is not against the biblical principles.

Anyway, many things have yet to be done but all these are down to whether am i determined. Got to get out of my house to do it if i need to but i am lazy like all or most human beings do.

PS: I really want to grow and do the extraordinary things that i deem they are. Hopefully, nxt year will be e start of all these :)

Cya
Ziyan

Now that's everything is finally over, everything seemed to come to a standstill.There's no purpose, no aim haha. There is no longer any reason to ask people out like in the past, feels so weird w/o any study outing eg.

Things have changed and i suppose i have to accept it. We are about to move on to another stage of our life where it is more independent rather than dependent. Gotta start moving and plan my list of to dos out.Time is short but at least time is no longer that pressurising like in the past. I no longer feel the urge to rush agst time and thats relaxing :) But yet agn, after a few days, u feel and u wish u can be back in the old days and long for the feeling that you once had.

Life is so amazing that it revolves around different stages with different entrances and exits that you can take. Some just stay in the middle awaiting for the doors to open to them while some fight but give up. And there were those who fight and fight and succeed in e end but they realise that is not the right door that they should be in. Life is all about risks and i think it is time i take one step to opening one of the doors and take the risk yea.

Cya
Ziyan

Pre-Prom,Prom,Post-Prom

Prom has been great and an unforgettable experience for me :). Miss it during sec sch days but catch up with it during jc days :)

However, post prom wasn't that memorable as i wanted it to be. Down with diarrhea vomitting fever headache discomfort, all kinds of symptoms that u do not want to be associated with when you are out there having fun.

Thanks everyone who sms me for their concern yea :). I am feeling much much better now. At least not as bad as two days ago when i slept 23 hours? or mayb 22 hours hahah.

Srsly, after prom, you just feel something missing. Or is it just me? Like what will it be like now after all this has ended. Will you be catching up with all these bunch of frens ever agn?

I dono truthfully but i will never forget such memories or blessings that i have been given these 2 yrs :)

Hopefully everything will still be e same or even better in the nxt 10 yrs?

Random: I feeel like undergoing a change in the way i look. wuldn't that be cool? haha! cant imagine if i wear contact and style my hair... hmmm haha!

Cya
Ziyan

Failure but not as bad

I still hadn't gt the top part of prom clothes. haha, i think i just go with what i feel as it always turns out to be great :)

Church svc really speaks into my heart today. No anxiety of anything= anxiety abt nothing:)

True indeed. Really blessed to have such pastors and church that are so guided by not what they feel but what the H.S feels :)

Thanks lord. Hope everything will be fine by wed for sj and her bday w be great yea after all that had happened. And may xl find her stuff asap like me! :)

Cya
Ziyan

Shopping 2-8 plus

Today can be considered a faliure to me and a success to others. Many of them bot what they want even lam who didnt plan to buy anything. I just don't know what i want perhaps and i did not plan for today's madness. I simply want some time to talk and catch up with what has been all these while. I love talking though i may not look like haha.

Anyway saw damn lot of people today, e most of all time i think.

Saw ming tjong, jun lin, yi xiang, alicia, samuel, chee siang, mu ye! My primary sch fren LOL. To me a lot la haha but nt mayb to some.

All diff timings diff places. damn cool haha.

Okay, hope tmr will be more decisive.

And i just realised i hate shopping with more than 4 people. It is just weird to me yup yup.

Cya
Ziyan

It is weird whenever i think of why isn't our life always planned and guided by someone yet again it is always frustrating for people to do things their way in our life. Ironic ah? I just think that sometimes we tend not to fight for the things that we yearn for the most yet we hope that it will come our way naturally. Lazy human beings we are or i am haha.

On the other hand, to say that having a religion or relationship, we will actually know whats our end goal will be yet in life on earth, there are so many things that we want to yearn for in spite of knowing what is the end goal that is in front of us. Isn't life supposed to be full of freedom? Or should it be planned accordingly as it is stated in the bible that we serve the one and the only one?

It is how amazing that i think of such stuff once in a while yet such thoughts are of little significance or relevance to what we are doing every day. We think and live our lives differently at times or perhaps for now.

Got to settle matters but i am just too lazy. Feeling i am back into my old days but a little better haha.

Prom
Hanging out with frens
Bday
Christmas
Exercise commitment
God
Work

Most of these seem to be the typical usual stuff that teenagers are doing right now. Yet i somehow feel thats not what i like to do. I find myself loving to travel and exploring the different parts of the world ever since i went chiang mai. I want to venture out of this little dot in the world map to some place that is exotic, unique from the typical city area that we are so exposed to in singapore.

All these seem impossible but maybe possible if i fight for it. isn't it? It is rather obviously actually right? haha. But it is easier said than done. so many obstacles- mental physical emotional spiritual

Cya
Ziyan