Chiang mai

First two days: Stay at hostel at chiang mai university. Thought of vegetarian diet kills me yet in reality, the food isnt that bad after all! We bathed hot water. Cold weather wasnt that cold. Meeting the thai ppl is weird at first. I talk, they cant hear properly. They seem hard to socialize. I had a great time thinking how am i going to benefit from this trip and help the ppl in this trip.
Living conditions arent of a big prob to me during these two days yet.

3rd Day: We went up to the mountains. During the trip i was excited, i wasnt having such a bad perspective or mindset of the whole trip. Living conditions to me were just like the hostel. The only problem is the language communication btw us and the village ppl. Yet i still thought they know basic foundation of english like is are was were, alphabetical order eg. When we reach there, the place is far beyond my imagination.

First- The girls' dorm got like few hundreds or even a thousand ants. Spiders were much more and bigger than those in singapore. There was even a snake but was dead. Pigs! Dogs! Rats- according to sze how. Boys' dorm much better but the floor is damn hard to sleep. Rats on the ceiling at night. Lots of creeping sounds in the night. Cooking conditions- Insects can just drop into to ur plate anytime or into the frying pan anytime. Food was nice yet little. Dogs can just come in anytime for ur food but they were friendly. They arent like certain wild dogs-Fierce and wild. Toilet conditions!! Worse! Water-iced water to bathe. No flush. Use water to flush. Tissue may just get stuck there. Insects to bathe with you. Pail and water tap is all that u have to bathe. No proper hangers. Small cubicles. No proper lightings. Weather! It is cold esp in the morning and night. Night comes at 6! Day comes at 6 am. U got to bathe early otherwise GG!! So cold, bathe till you scream haha. First night, i am already sick! Sleeping at night= waking up 6 plus times! Waking up in the morning is damn cold! I cant stand it by the first night!!!! Almost dying!

4th Day- Yet miraculously, by the nxt day, i got fever but recovered on the same day as well! Had a much better time and sleep that day!!!

Shall cut short! The rest of the days till the 8th day was the thing, just that more time with the village kids! Their life, their way of thinking is what i admire most! If only singaporean kids will have those mindset and stop grumbling abt every single bit of their life, that will be great! They are so smart yet so unpriviledged not to have sufficient adequate education and living conditions. Their smiles, their every actions are enough to bring priceless memories and happy feelings and smiles to you. Too much to talk abt them! But they will forever be kept in my constant memory not in my backup forgotten memory! How i wish i can go back!

Coming back to Singapore seems weird seriously. The life u live in right now seems so priviledged that you dont even feel like having that life! Is so empty and meaningless w/o being able to help those kids agn. I miss them truly. This experience is one that not many ppl experience and yet should be experienced by everyone so ppl will know how fortunate they are and how meaningless our lives are actually. It is ptless to have such a luxury life or rather boring to have such a life. Nothing you do makes a difference. You enjoy, you help old folks yet you dont actually makes a huge difference and dont actually get to see what exactly it is to have a poor and pathetic life in the world. In singapore, even the poorest ppl are fortunate. Yet in the life i live in the past 10 days, the people are so happy in spite of living a life worst than any life in singapore. They are strong mentally, emotionally, physically! They fell, they smile. They treat life with such an optimistic mindset. Nothing is in their way!

I really hope that 10 days can be 10 years? Even if the toilets remain the same way as it is. The kids' emotions are all that matters. Their smiles. Their appreciation towards your help. Their thankyou words are irreplacable. I hope i can retire there nxt time? haha, life has changed for me i believe. Different mindset, different perspective of looking. Time to cherish my life. Time to show others love. Time to live my life to the fullest!

Leaving aus in 8 hours. Time to pack my bag! WOOO!! Must not waste my life just like that. Time to experience the most out of it!

PS: I miss Mo lei Tak!!!

Cya
Ziyan

After 10 days away from the urban lifestyle, life seems so weird and different now when i am in singapore.

I feel really empty unable to do anything to help yet enjoying the luxury life when i don even deserve it..But on the happier note, this trip simply is priceless. I learnt far more than i teach them! The way the thank you, with a simple smile or simple gift is worth it. Just a simple piggyback or tickle can brighten their life for that day. Thats how simple their expectation of happiness is. I am really impressed by it! Unforgettable! How i wish 10 days can last a little longer. haha.

Through this trip: I really learnt far too much that i can type out with words. Life is gonna change. Yet ur happiness is always determined by yourself. :)

I really realize some of my mistakes that i often make: Lazy, indecisive, not putting ppl first, thinking too much abt small issues.

10 days away seem like one year, suddenly all the frens i seem to lose contact w. Yet i am leaving tmr agn till 14 dec. Excited though haha. New place w/o so mani buildings. New environment. New lifestyle.

Anw, i think i gonna miss ogl a lot. Seem pointless being an ogl suddenly- w/o the proper training, the proper dance steps, what is the point to be an ogl? Haha, this stage of ur life is just busy, admit it. Yet this is the time when u experience the most out of ur life. Pro-active!:)

Have fun to those in ogl! Jiayou to those practicing for their concerts, sports, ccas, wadever. God bless all! :) Makan time!

Cya
Ziyan

I am leaving, i hate this feeling, the life when u just cant seem to relax a single bit..

Yet i am helping ppl:) Lets see how it goes. Mayb it is the first step to me going humanitarian permanently? To help ppl for good..

I love singapore, cant believe i will be away for one month!!! I want to enjoy much more here before i leave!!!

How i wish life can slow down just like how hiro nakamura did it in "heroes" lol! Talking abt heroes, i gonna miss it too, damn! So is prison break!

K time to sleep. Sorry kobe! Happy bday kobe! Nites!

Cya
Ziyan

Mayb sometimes i should not show too much of one side of me out?

I should not act as if theres smth to say yet i keep it inside.

I should not just care about myself rather than the others.

People really changed. People really are different. This year, I have just known one section of people in this world, yet i am already confused by their way of thinking. Life is much more complex than i thought. However, one who is able to see life openly and as a moment to enjoy themselves, will then he be able to go through the circumstances in life and surpassed the others.

Time to not show that side of me too much yea, too scary lol.

Really wonders/ponders/thinks how next time the future will be like, how people around me are gonna be like. It is gonna be amazing to see how people's life changed once they reaches university..

Cya
Ziyan

Take care to those who are going overseas! :) Bon voyage!

And congrats to sy jia who gt distinction for her ballet! lol, just read her blog

And hope shermine found her wallet real soon. Pls bless her :)

Madagascar 2 is tempting me! I wan to watch!

Time is tight! Time to prioritise my time! :)

Mind is clear! Nth except u brighten my life. LOL. Fyi, theres no such person, just crapping. Only God yea haha. My life perspective of people in this world really changed this year. I am much clearer in my direction in life now.

Cya
Ziyan

My life has changed indeed Cos of knowing this relationship with god :) yet i feel i can improve more!

Shld nt be stressed or busy over temporary happiness but over lives!

I gonna win this battle upside down!

Sometimes, how i wish friends know me inside out yet i know only Him can understand me, thanks for everything!

Temptations, distractions of faith may come but he w prevail! Just saw youtube videos on god does not exist, on the mind doing great things and not god, on the mind doing everything that causes e universe and not god, noah ark is fake yet i sometimes feel in doubt in faith cos of them. But looking at videos like how cool the bible is interlinked, i am strengthened!

2012 no matter what year it is, i gonna live my life to the fullest.. If the time is to come, i w not be scared! Do wadever u wan to me, yet i w still proclaim his love!

Cya
Ziyan

This wk will once agn be a busy week! Tis year is crazy!

Haha, ogl, chiangmai, outgs, exams! I gotta improve w e year moving forward. In everything in life.

Whos up for madagascar 2? Feel like planning a movie outg b4 i am off to Chiang Mai!

Cya
Ziyan

4th dimension!

Speak, Think, Visualize, Faith!

4 Keys to ur heart to the H.S to work in U!

Time to live my life w/o fear!

Fear is the worst obstacle in life. It is worse than anything. It impedes u from doing anything u wish u want to do yet u cant do.

Remove Fear, and ur life will be much better!

He will give u sufficient str! Body is weak but my spirit is strong babe! :) LOL

Cya
Ziyan

Sometimes, we will think that if life of ours will be a little happier, a little smoother, a little more relaxing, that will be great. Yet, this imagination of ours will never come or set into reality.

We know that life is always not a bed of roses like my life, esp when u come into a commitment or rather conviction of smth. Life is purposely made this way so that in we can become stronger and strengethened more each day! At the end of the day, i realize my home is still here. Nevertheless, temporary stuff are more desirable and yields more fun if u think, the happiness is still temporary right?

When u feel down, u tend to realize everything or rather when u feel empty on the inside though on the outside everything seems perfect, u tend to enlighten urself with some amazing simple facts: They are still e best ppl on earth, and i shld not forsake time w them!

Happiness is maintained if and only if u seek them in the right ppl or right objects. This is true and true indeed. U can say anything that dampens one's mood, but he who stays strong and knows what life is really about, will always put a smile on his face regardless the circumstances :)

Normally, ppl appear friendly to u on the outside. Yet at times, or everytime, they are doing it for their own good and on the inside, they are just wearing purely wolf-clothing. lol. I met these ppl and i thank god for knowing them. For i grow strong and happier for i know he will look over me.

How i wish this blog can be private yet i am lazy to do it.

Lastly, Ppl who shld be close to u shld be ppl who are living with the same purpose with u.

Cya
Ziyan

Awesome svc! Indeed it is true, if god wan to have something for u, it will come naturally no rushing!

What we need to do, is live the way he wan us to w love as simple as that! Really regret the things i do in the past, never cherish friendships. Now, it has gone way out of hand. Ppl are avoiding me or mayb drifting away. Hope everything will be alright :) Time to live his life and thats all i wish i can be able to do.

Time for prison break! And i wan go shopping! I wan swim!! Most impt, i wan serve him! Time to prioritise my time! Busiest holiday ever? Or is it even a holiday to relax? haha, two camps two trips- i gonna die.. haha just joking

Ziyan

ANOINTING!!! Svc was once agn overwhelming! I love hog more and more haha :)

Though my life is very busy now, i still hope i can make this power packed week a success, a time where many of my frens will get to see an amazing life of a guy who is limbless as well as what a church svc is like in hog church!

Hope god can give me the str, the faith, the wisdom, the necessary stuff that i nd to glorify god!

Scars! It is true.. brokerness.. i guess my backbone operation was one that broke me and now i am stronger! Anw readers! Note there will be an advertisment on tmr- sunday and monday on strait times or classified! Nick vujicic service! Come on down k! Don miss this sermon of his!

Sidetrack- Op is coming, i hope i can prepare as much as i can tmr! :) I will give it my all! Sleep b4 1 and pia thrugh tmr! Power packed week. I hope this wk will nt be only a fulfiling but a life changing one for me! Hope frens ppl will all come for the services this wk!

Sidetrack 2- I realize mind and heart always tend to go different on their agreements sometimes. Ur mind can sae one thing but ur heart will tend to go agst it. I realize and i cant deny. I cant stand u yet my heart longs for u, whats this? Self-Dilemna? haha, and i wan go shopping!!! and Find the price of the cardboard!!! :)

Most importantly, get ppl to come for svc this wk! Nick Vujicic! Life changing person= life changing experience to others