No time to blog. So shall summarize e gist

A new year like wad everyone is blogging now. A new start! 09 6 hours away plus one second haha due to earth's revolution.

New resolution. Though this year mayb e worst for some or rather the whole world due to recession, i really thank god for this year for everything. Be it bad or good. I love it. Cos i grow stronger and learn from my mistakes from the bad. And the good, i feel happy cos i am blessed

Know, nxt year or tmr will be a hard time or year. Cos of A's, hw, commitments, everything. I know i can pull all these through as long as i persevere with a mentality at a lvl that is higher than them and same as urs:)

Faith rise, blessings come. Impossible is no longer a reality. But rather a virtual obstacle that can become possible in reality if u get ur mentality, actions, thoughts, plan right :)

Cya
Ziyan

Blogless

In a blog, to me, it is impossible to blog everything in ur life. It is too tedious and lazy to just blog everything. Talking to someone is always the better way out.

Right now, many things are twirling in my mind. Trivial,impt,stressful,all u think of they are right in my mind now. Yet i find it too lazy to just blog. Simply ptless. I just wan to find a day to talk to someone yet i am lazy too u know? or tired? haha.

Studies yet to do, waiting for me at one side. rm not in a gd condition to study. Still, commitments are piling up. My brain is just so confused. Even when i wan to plan, smth comes in btw my plans.

I gotta be decisive. Plan fulfil. No delay. No more. Hope 09 will be a better and more fulfiling year though ppl and i know nxt year will be a tough year w all unexpected happenings awaiting for us.

Gotta remain strong. :)

Cya
Ziyan

Theres only rm for the better

At this pt of time, i think i practically just say out things w/o thinking, mostly being bad. Thats kinda sux when u realize but is too late

Time for room to change for the better

I feel i let her down, or rather him down. Whether it is just a remark, i know everything is just kinda not in place right now. But in e end, surely theres a way, theres a miracle, theres a blessing!

Cya
Ziyan

Overwhelming

On e night of sunday and monday i was quite sick- the feeling isnt good. I hope to get well for christmas is coming.

So i pray with Faith. Indeed, god never fails me. I am quite well now miraclously haha. I just want to thank god for always being there for me. U may not believe it but i do. Trust in him and u see e light and truth. :)

Anw, when people say they are what they are, are they really what they say they are? To some yes, To u and u, i don think so.

And i realize i have got a big problem of unable to contain the thoughts in me and always having a tendency to blurt it out in impulse. gotta change.K time to rest a while b4 is time to go toa payoh.

PS: Mum is coming back! WOO!

Cya
Ziyan

Faith elevation

See,Think,Confess,Touch,Hear.

Pastor How is really one great guy who i always admire. The reason i manage to stay long in hog is him.

:) Thank you. K lets hope nxt wk will be a great day. Everything w be smooth, even if not, it will be successful in e end.

Sometimes, i am really amazed how different my perspective to life is compared to others. Just different. K gtg. Time to take a break. Dota!! haha.

PS:Congrats wj if u reading. 95/96 :) Keep it up!

Cya
Ziyan

Went sj concert, was great. Quite inspired to dance at some parts by the song, mayb i will take up dancing! haha. Anw felt quite bad not meeting my sec ppl though last min i culd. I got many things to settle thats y sorry. Is just me in my house and everything got to be cleaned and my dog needs company.

Met up w my jc mates. Nth changes much. Just that one person seems more different than i know in the past. I wanted to show the change in me, yet i just back to normal when i came back singapore. haa donno y. K shall not talk agn abt changing. It is pointless to say. Must show

Sometimes, being the one who spreads love to ppl is the best yet in reality people normally only associates nice, fun people with people who expresses themselves totally. Cos, all the time we only notices the outside of people and not their inner beauty. Generally, in everyday life with ppl, what they do, think, act is never able to tell whether they are being genuine. It is only when you are with them privately just two of u then u slowly notices the small and tiny bits of true charac of them which amounts up to either a very good or bad side of them.

It is late. Guess i got to sleep soon. Nd to start getting serious. I cant just lay back and relax. It is not me and surely i am wasting time if i cont doing this.

Cya
Ziyan( I must stop saying or doing whats on my mind w/o thinking. )

Gonna cherish the free time i have now. Plan my long term goals, my daily needs, my additional stuff( according to priorities). Shall keep to my promise. shall not divert from my promise.
Must no longer be the same as last time b4 i go chiang mai. The feeling of changing is slowly diminishing yet i couldnt let it fade away. I just couldnt be what i was in the past- too spoilt, too...

Anw, time is going to be tight now. Pressure, stress. Maid is going home for one month. Zx Ns. Mum coming back only on 20 plus. dad frequently go overseas. Dog how? Nd to wake up 630 am. Huge burden. Studies coming. I got to manage. This is wad i get for having a dog. Is my choice. I can look it at a positive side. I gonna be more independent. Gonna train to be more responsibe-more mature. Learn to manage my time. Be decisive. Arrange my priorities!

Today sermon was great. Real Men. Indeed true. We are born to be male. But not all are real men. What defines real men?

1) Real men who leads and not direct nor facilitate. They shower love, provide stable income(for dads), give security, bring happiness via actions not just buying of presents!

2) Real men dont give too much rules, far too commanding! It drives the people crazy, confuse ppl, give them pressure of following the rules. What rules am i talking abt? Rules on paper, rules u say to them. We shldnt have too much of them. We can have discipline via rules but not rules on paper. Rules in the heart of man. Use ur love, ur care to teach them. This will have an impact, deep significant impact in their lives for good that they will understand and w always rmb and follow. These type of rules are what i call "rules of love". Is rules and followed willingly through the power of love. :)

Gonna start to lay more, be a real man step up! Prioritise! One year and i am still stuck in this prob of prioritising! How indecisive, lazy i am haha.

Cya
Ziyan

Everything is piling up, yet i am still lazing ard. Whats wrong w me sometimes.

I just got to sit down and plan. I did it. Yet, i am too lazy to achieve it sometimes.

The feeling of my ownself is kicking in. I hate it. Got to change.

Shall restart all over agn. And start planning. Must achieve what i start. Must end off where i start.

Be decisive! Life is just like a river. No matter what, u are gonna knock into some rocks some day. But if u plan ur future routes, u gonna knock into lesser and smaller rocks. Even if knocking into them, u wont feel discouraged cos u learn from them and move on. Soon, ur route will be a smooth one. A near perfect one. Many ppl lack this mindset. As a result? Bad consequences. Like the recession. Don plan ahead, u die. badly . Plan ahead. U survive. Hurt slightly.

K guess no one understands haha.

Anthony robbins rocks

Cya
Ziyan

Random post

Never make fake promises in life!

Always put whats Impt to god over everything!

Always learn to be patient, have trust in ppl and urself.

Always focus on permanent happiness rather than temporary happiness! Ppl>Anything

Arrange ur priority, settle e most impt followed by the least impt!

To end off, i just wan to say sorry to those such as R if i ever promise u smth yet i didnt fulfil it in e end. Sometimes, i am just not perfect, my memory don have much rm for everything in life. If u r reading this post u shld know it. I will try to learn and improve though i w not be perfect in e end :)

Cya
Ziyan

Back in sg :(

Really regretted appealing to come back ytd. Cos of several reasons that i realize aft i come back.

1) Precious time w mum!
2) Gym
3) Food
4) Good environment to study
5) Able to tour ard w mum, similar to (1)
6) Shopping time!

I really miss melbourne now lol! as in my mum haha. Shit, always aft something happens then i cherish it, kinda stupid yea. Must learn to cherish at every moment, cherish everything NOW!

Nvm, happiness is decided by us and not by the circumstances we are in :) Since i am in sg now, lets settle everything so when my mum comes back, i have time for her haha.

1)Ogl stuff! I don even know whats going on
2)Finale! Same here!
3) Chiang mai! Nd to reply them!
4) Chingay! Got to know whats up!
5) Basketball w winson!
6) Learn to be more independent haha
7) Catch up w frens
8) Swimming!
9) Studying!

Two wks are all i have!

Mum, i miss u! haha

Love
Ziyan

9th day at aus

6 dec- Finally back at apartment after 3 days 3 nights away from city. Had quite lots of fun.

Scenery to animals feeding to horse riding to seeing penguins to star gazing- all memorable yet unforgettable and once in a lifetime moment :)

Oh ya one thing bad abt aus now is that the flies here are in abound! Too many till buay ta han. But they are stupid haha. Their reflexes arent that fast compared to sg flies lol.

K is quite late now, i think i gtg time to sleep :) Nites

Cya
Ziyan

5th day at aus!

Shall blog my 5th day here on my blog, lazy to write. haha. Today wake up late agn! lol!

Went to victoria mkt! Cool!Didnt expect them to sell all kinds of stuff. But ex la! Only bot souveniers haha. Then ate snack pack which is fish&chips. 6 plus quite worth it. Unhealthy though but who cares! I wanna get fat lol.

Then went w bro take tram to smith street. Factory outlet still so ex- Adidas, nike, ripcurl. All so ex. Bot bottles nia. Australia everything so ex. Is really hard to shop. Even if i buy smth, i will feel pain haha.

Then night at jap restaurant. Quite ok but i prefer sg :) Or rather jap restaurant at sg. Left 3/4 of my money left. Tmr is so called e last day to shop at melbourne b4 we go somewhere else- philip island and blah blah!

Wanna go gym too lol! So skinny still go gym. At the same time i wanna go melbourne central. Hopefully has e energy to go haha. But i am not sure abt my willingness to spend though i have e ability to.

I wan a polo T or rather two of them and at least a pair of jeans! Cap! Hoodie! Cool small bag. & Hopefully Shoe bag? Haha, k gtg

PS: Prison break was nice! Imba show haha. I love scofield. Backup is always gd :).

On a random note, hopefully i get in chingay yea vip usher haha.

Cya
Ziyan

Aus!

So far have been walking ard in aus, spent quite a lot-100 plus? The stuff here so ex! one shirt 49.95, one pants same or more..

Gotta buy souveniers hmm what they will like? Do anyone nd a wallet? Or anything? Email me thx..

Damn full now! Just ate mexican, lamb chicken, almost vomit. Gotta shit now! And i just bot PEE!! Inspired by shermine haha..

Gtg! FULL! DAMN FULL!!

PS: Gotta change my attitude on a random note, gotta learn inner is more impt than outer.

Cya:)
Ziyan