Chiang mai

First two days: Stay at hostel at chiang mai university. Thought of vegetarian diet kills me yet in reality, the food isnt that bad after all! We bathed hot water. Cold weather wasnt that cold. Meeting the thai ppl is weird at first. I talk, they cant hear properly. They seem hard to socialize. I had a great time thinking how am i going to benefit from this trip and help the ppl in this trip.
Living conditions arent of a big prob to me during these two days yet.

3rd Day: We went up to the mountains. During the trip i was excited, i wasnt having such a bad perspective or mindset of the whole trip. Living conditions to me were just like the hostel. The only problem is the language communication btw us and the village ppl. Yet i still thought they know basic foundation of english like is are was were, alphabetical order eg. When we reach there, the place is far beyond my imagination.

First- The girls' dorm got like few hundreds or even a thousand ants. Spiders were much more and bigger than those in singapore. There was even a snake but was dead. Pigs! Dogs! Rats- according to sze how. Boys' dorm much better but the floor is damn hard to sleep. Rats on the ceiling at night. Lots of creeping sounds in the night. Cooking conditions- Insects can just drop into to ur plate anytime or into the frying pan anytime. Food was nice yet little. Dogs can just come in anytime for ur food but they were friendly. They arent like certain wild dogs-Fierce and wild. Toilet conditions!! Worse! Water-iced water to bathe. No flush. Use water to flush. Tissue may just get stuck there. Insects to bathe with you. Pail and water tap is all that u have to bathe. No proper hangers. Small cubicles. No proper lightings. Weather! It is cold esp in the morning and night. Night comes at 6! Day comes at 6 am. U got to bathe early otherwise GG!! So cold, bathe till you scream haha. First night, i am already sick! Sleeping at night= waking up 6 plus times! Waking up in the morning is damn cold! I cant stand it by the first night!!!! Almost dying!

4th Day- Yet miraculously, by the nxt day, i got fever but recovered on the same day as well! Had a much better time and sleep that day!!!

Shall cut short! The rest of the days till the 8th day was the thing, just that more time with the village kids! Their life, their way of thinking is what i admire most! If only singaporean kids will have those mindset and stop grumbling abt every single bit of their life, that will be great! They are so smart yet so unpriviledged not to have sufficient adequate education and living conditions. Their smiles, their every actions are enough to bring priceless memories and happy feelings and smiles to you. Too much to talk abt them! But they will forever be kept in my constant memory not in my backup forgotten memory! How i wish i can go back!

Coming back to Singapore seems weird seriously. The life u live in right now seems so priviledged that you dont even feel like having that life! Is so empty and meaningless w/o being able to help those kids agn. I miss them truly. This experience is one that not many ppl experience and yet should be experienced by everyone so ppl will know how fortunate they are and how meaningless our lives are actually. It is ptless to have such a luxury life or rather boring to have such a life. Nothing you do makes a difference. You enjoy, you help old folks yet you dont actually makes a huge difference and dont actually get to see what exactly it is to have a poor and pathetic life in the world. In singapore, even the poorest ppl are fortunate. Yet in the life i live in the past 10 days, the people are so happy in spite of living a life worst than any life in singapore. They are strong mentally, emotionally, physically! They fell, they smile. They treat life with such an optimistic mindset. Nothing is in their way!

I really hope that 10 days can be 10 years? Even if the toilets remain the same way as it is. The kids' emotions are all that matters. Their smiles. Their appreciation towards your help. Their thankyou words are irreplacable. I hope i can retire there nxt time? haha, life has changed for me i believe. Different mindset, different perspective of looking. Time to cherish my life. Time to show others love. Time to live my life to the fullest!

Leaving aus in 8 hours. Time to pack my bag! WOOO!! Must not waste my life just like that. Time to experience the most out of it!

PS: I miss Mo lei Tak!!!

Cya
Ziyan