Kk how shall i start? Hmmm.. juz dunno where to start la..Todae, juz realized that in jc, life is really damn tough- tougher than what u VISUALIZE. Gt not only tutorials , projects , exams, tests but also most impt church and outings. Have been going almost every weekends w/o fail, end up slacking, never really study beyond what i shld have studied. Like that , how to get gd results, how to get scholarships! Muz learn to adapt as the title saes, life is all abt testing ur skill of adaptation, whether u are able to pull through this successfully. Some may fail, some may barely pull through while some w find it easy and pass successfully. I think i lies in the second category. I juz find it so hard to keep adapting. From sec to jc and then later two years later to another new dimension of the world. Life is fast. Within the blink of an eye, 4 years past, 10 years past, 16 years past. Still remember when we are a little kid in primary sch, we hope that we can have e priviledge not to go sch, and now as i am approaching the age of not goin to sch in 1 and a half year time, i regret not spending my time in pri and sec sch fruitfully. Now i understand why parents always sae studying is better than working. This is indeed true, unexplainable, can only be explained through ur own experience. Not only is life arranged in this way, life is also arranged such that , u have to always learn to adapt to the society - the people, environment , etc - around u. Go jc, muz learn to clique w ppl , close ppl, and u juz have only a so short period of time during orientation to start ur friendship and develop w them. Once after orientation, people w start studying. Theres no time for anything bullshit or time to slack or do all sorts of stuff u want. And thats y in jc, the time u can make friends is just so little so little. Dun understand why is Jc life so tough . Not only in studies but in other sectors too. Really sympathize those ppl who cant clique w their class or cca, like tat their life in jc is really boredom.. Hope that i can really clique w my class and cca , and esp clique w some close ones so that we can help one another and study tgth go out tgth, learn to distress tgth, and always studying. If one is alone, he will always have no one to talk to or slack w , hence he w just keep studying but not as efficient as those who have close friends ard. Hope that these 1 and a half years would be a gd time for me to study excellently, and live my life spiritually as well as spend my time happily. Dont want to keep studying and use com.. thats no LIFE man!
Another sector of life and e most impt of all - CHURCH. Am really in a dilemna. Have been thinking for like dont know how many daes or even weeks already. Which church shld i commit, yhope isnt a really good one for me personally, i feel god is trying to divert me to another church. Covenant really impact me a lot, but HOG also too , and e ppl are younger and easier to talk to. I think i shld decide soon , really soon. It isnt good to keep going all kinds of churches in Singapore. It just isnt good. God wont like it. Surely, he want me to settle down right? Talking abt churches, i really hope that wenjie as u are reading this blog, u can give urself a chance to go church and see how is it like =) .. cant really tell u this in sch, u surely find me a little awkward. So hope that by reading now , u can understand it yup.. If u are interested approach me anytime =).. ya =D. Look forward to your acceptance to go church yea. Kk now is 12am.. just finish my econs , shall do QT and daily bread and sae gd night lol. Another random thing i forgot to say, sometimes i just find it so hard to clique with some people yet sometimes i find it easy, what should i do? Should i just live it like that or should i just try to adjust myself to their frequency? I think i should just live by GOD's character . Thats all , as god saes, Seek him and all shall be given to u . This is indeed true . Kk got to go. God bless people who i pray for! Nth is impossible!
Nitez, cya Ziyan aka Xavier aka Brother in christ
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Are our secrets meant to be kept in darkness forever?
Hmmm, have been thinking abt secrets in our class nowadays. Although i promises myself not to , the stupid kaypoh gut in me keep urging me to ask more from my friends, yet i know i shld not. The memories of sec 1 me is comin back.. sian.. muz control... On the other hand i have also been thinking what are secrets really. If secrets are stuff that are meant to be kept from people forever, then y are ppl still telling their own secrets to their close ones. And from the close ones, the secrets of theirs are again told to others. Then how can u consider this a secret anymore? Is more considered as a group secret and no longer ur own secret. Yet again, can people be trusted? How u know that when u tell people ur secrets, they wont exchange it for other secrets ? U nver noe.. i nver know.. onli GOD knows yea.. yep the best is remove e word " Secrets " from the world. Secrets juz bring the bad side of people out most of the time. Displeasure, Dislike, Anger , Sadness, etc, all these feelings will be brought up by juz one little matter in the universe " SECRET" .. Haiz, juz so confused... Y does secrets revolve around everywhere. Go Sec sch got secrets, Go JC got secrets.. just that in Jc, the class tends to be smaller, hence once theres a secret, everyone normally knows but some just do not know it in detailed while others know cleary what is it.
From christian perspective, this shld be a period of time where god is testing me. As he said during QT these few daes, sufferings w come , temptations w come, it all lies in u , whether u are going to see god as the image or the thing that is tempting u as e image. U may enjoy it but is just temporarily. What matters e most is e end in everything. If we can pull through all these temptations , trials , sufferings, we will definitely be able to reach the DOTL yea! It is all worth it. Oh ya, talking abt christianity, i strongly want to write the following down now. Wenjie, so far, please tahan a while , u may think i too spiritual haha. For the past two daes ago on , 16/3/08 and 17/03/08, i received not one but two similiar visions from god! It is a law of double mention as stated by pastor how in HOG church! haha.. e sermon on sat though i didnt hear a lot cos was tired.. sorry lord.. but i did grasp hold of e gist- Vision from god will come to pass, is just whether u want to hold on to it and wait for it and dont give up! Anw, about the two visions, the first was about two cows walking across a place , and all of a sudden, a car juz knocked them, the end was unknown. On the other hand, the second vision was two snakes slithering again across somewhere, and again they were injured but this time by a blade comin across their neck , the end was unknown. These two visions really impacted me and after a while praying and seeking god, i realize that god was telling me that sufferings trials temptations w come, but whether u want to pull through it or just simply submit to it determines e outcome. Hence, the outcome or e ending was unknown in my two visions! How cool is that! It all links! GOD really is great. If mong sy jia winson HOG church people, esp Pastor How!, come into my life this year, i wouldnt have chosen to walk back into this path with god =) .. GOD bless them lord! Is all in ur plan and they are sent by u =) haha.. oh shit is 11 o clock soon.. gotta study econs and muz get totally what this econs demand and supply is talking and followed by QT! Muz study muz manage time! Is amazing how i stop playing that often so far no dota matches in 2 months once i commit to god =) Hope that god w bring those far back to him through any ways be it involving me or anyone and those who do not know him or do not want to convert , esp my friends and my family members , hence they can be SAVED! B4 GT ! IS comin.. and i am hoping theres still enough time to make up what i had wasted in the past 1 year and past ten plus years b4 i know god JESUS =)
Ziyan aka Xavier aka Pufo
From christian perspective, this shld be a period of time where god is testing me. As he said during QT these few daes, sufferings w come , temptations w come, it all lies in u , whether u are going to see god as the image or the thing that is tempting u as e image. U may enjoy it but is just temporarily. What matters e most is e end in everything. If we can pull through all these temptations , trials , sufferings, we will definitely be able to reach the DOTL yea! It is all worth it. Oh ya, talking abt christianity, i strongly want to write the following down now. Wenjie, so far, please tahan a while , u may think i too spiritual haha. For the past two daes ago on , 16/3/08 and 17/03/08, i received not one but two similiar visions from god! It is a law of double mention as stated by pastor how in HOG church! haha.. e sermon on sat though i didnt hear a lot cos was tired.. sorry lord.. but i did grasp hold of e gist- Vision from god will come to pass, is just whether u want to hold on to it and wait for it and dont give up! Anw, about the two visions, the first was about two cows walking across a place , and all of a sudden, a car juz knocked them, the end was unknown. On the other hand, the second vision was two snakes slithering again across somewhere, and again they were injured but this time by a blade comin across their neck , the end was unknown. These two visions really impacted me and after a while praying and seeking god, i realize that god was telling me that sufferings trials temptations w come, but whether u want to pull through it or just simply submit to it determines e outcome. Hence, the outcome or e ending was unknown in my two visions! How cool is that! It all links! GOD really is great. If mong sy jia winson HOG church people, esp Pastor How!, come into my life this year, i wouldnt have chosen to walk back into this path with god =) .. GOD bless them lord! Is all in ur plan and they are sent by u =) haha.. oh shit is 11 o clock soon.. gotta study econs and muz get totally what this econs demand and supply is talking and followed by QT! Muz study muz manage time! Is amazing how i stop playing that often so far no dota matches in 2 months once i commit to god =) Hope that god w bring those far back to him through any ways be it involving me or anyone and those who do not know him or do not want to convert , esp my friends and my family members , hence they can be SAVED! B4 GT ! IS comin.. and i am hoping theres still enough time to make up what i had wasted in the past 1 year and past ten plus years b4 i know god JESUS =)
Ziyan aka Xavier aka Pufo
Friday, March 14, 2008
Everything comes with a price
This could be my longest blog if i have e time to blog all of e things ltr or am not affected by my endless, countless no. of thoughts in my mind. Oh ya btw,this title might nt be related to wad i am sayin now...
Have been thinking of a lot of things since ytd after comin back frm chalet.. a lot... can no longer contain all in my mind in my heart, decided to post almost all or all here... Since this chalet, i realize that this class atlas 4 gt bad pts too no offence, as in it is nt that gd as i tot as compared to my sec 4 class... ppl normally say nth is perfect, it is true.. during this chalet, this class is juz so indecisive , including me. But at least i and some ppl gt give suggestions right? Those ppl disagree and nver give any suggestions and juz stone there or digress to wadever world they are in are crap sia.. wth la.. waste a lot of time u noe? then end up all of us did nt enjoy e chalet as we want it to be.. and sae " the weather keep raining , hope nxt time wont rain" thats nt e prob! E problem that lies with this chalet is that ppl are juz so indecisive, do not know when to behave? u noe? We juz keep digressing and worst , we juz cannot sit down and come to serious business for a few minutes.. suggested city hall, no response tamp mall no response, .... at least sae give some suggestion la.. juz stone there.. =.= then in e end, all sae hope that it doesnt rain.. rain is nt e prob!!! sae hope nxt time it w be better.. then take no initiative.. PPL plz ! take initiative and give suggestion dun juz wait for ppl to lead u, get out of ur comfort zone .. dont keep following me wj and ric.. u all muz make decision or give suggestion, a cooperative gd w a leader is gd but an incooperative grp w a leader is useless... haiz...juz hope that if theres a nxt outing, ppl will start to take e initiative la.. i nt pin pointing to anyone whos at fault.. i juz hope that our atlas 4 class can be cooperative and bonded... but i doubt is goin to happen since jae and what happen at e chalet...
During chalet, ppl are juz so segregated.. some upstairs some downstairs some went away some dun even wan to come some were bbqing.. ppl at least try to mingle tgth la.. dun all so separated la.. and some who come dont even wan to take e initiative to talk or have fun, then end up sae e chalet not fun, everything nd to be achieved by ur own, it doesnt juz come freely when u want it..
And one more thing, atlas 4 dont anyhow sae things or buy things, " chicken nt enough nd a lot " initially i tot so too but wj sae is enough, and u all sae will finish, and end up we buy 60 chickens? And during bbq, those bbqing make so much effort to cook all those chickens la , and no one ended up eating those chickens.. where those ppl who sae they want to eat a lot chickens? this is crap la.. atlas 4 if u all dun wan so mani chickens dun sae u all wan .. plz.. it juz waste time & money...
Whoever is reading this, what i type so far may have offended u or insulted u, but i seriously didnt mean it , juz venting all my thoughts on this blog..
In life, ppl shld juz make e intiative towards their goal, if u wan happiness go for it, if u wan entertainment go for it, dont wait for ppl to serve u.. ppl arent ur maid wadsoever, nth w stop u if u wan smth, seriously... This chalet widens my thoughts abt atlas 4, shall nt talk abt it further... I know i am at fault this chalet, but i w change, wad abt u all? are u all goin to change? I hope so..
Anw, i juz realized jc is juz so worse than olvl, time management is damn so impt.. w/o time management, i bet even e smartest kid is gonna suffer.. got homework nt done, gt movies nt catched, gt much other goals nt achieved, got god to serve more impt.. i juz wish that everything w go as planned and hope god w be w me through all this.. yep =) gonna study now.. gtg shall blog nxt time again.. feel much better, shall learn frm e mistakes and look at e future and live w a better personality which is that of god yea.. Btw wj if u are reading now, i bet u have a different perspective of me too yea.. i think too much but i juz blog some, others are too offensive lol..
Cya, bb
Have been thinking of a lot of things since ytd after comin back frm chalet.. a lot... can no longer contain all in my mind in my heart, decided to post almost all or all here... Since this chalet, i realize that this class atlas 4 gt bad pts too no offence, as in it is nt that gd as i tot as compared to my sec 4 class... ppl normally say nth is perfect, it is true.. during this chalet, this class is juz so indecisive , including me. But at least i and some ppl gt give suggestions right? Those ppl disagree and nver give any suggestions and juz stone there or digress to wadever world they are in are crap sia.. wth la.. waste a lot of time u noe? then end up all of us did nt enjoy e chalet as we want it to be.. and sae " the weather keep raining , hope nxt time wont rain" thats nt e prob! E problem that lies with this chalet is that ppl are juz so indecisive, do not know when to behave? u noe? We juz keep digressing and worst , we juz cannot sit down and come to serious business for a few minutes.. suggested city hall, no response tamp mall no response, .... at least sae give some suggestion la.. juz stone there.. =.= then in e end, all sae hope that it doesnt rain.. rain is nt e prob!!! sae hope nxt time it w be better.. then take no initiative.. PPL plz ! take initiative and give suggestion dun juz wait for ppl to lead u, get out of ur comfort zone .. dont keep following me wj and ric.. u all muz make decision or give suggestion, a cooperative gd w a leader is gd but an incooperative grp w a leader is useless... haiz...juz hope that if theres a nxt outing, ppl will start to take e initiative la.. i nt pin pointing to anyone whos at fault.. i juz hope that our atlas 4 class can be cooperative and bonded... but i doubt is goin to happen since jae and what happen at e chalet...
During chalet, ppl are juz so segregated.. some upstairs some downstairs some went away some dun even wan to come some were bbqing.. ppl at least try to mingle tgth la.. dun all so separated la.. and some who come dont even wan to take e initiative to talk or have fun, then end up sae e chalet not fun, everything nd to be achieved by ur own, it doesnt juz come freely when u want it..
And one more thing, atlas 4 dont anyhow sae things or buy things, " chicken nt enough nd a lot " initially i tot so too but wj sae is enough, and u all sae will finish, and end up we buy 60 chickens? And during bbq, those bbqing make so much effort to cook all those chickens la , and no one ended up eating those chickens.. where those ppl who sae they want to eat a lot chickens? this is crap la.. atlas 4 if u all dun wan so mani chickens dun sae u all wan .. plz.. it juz waste time & money...
Whoever is reading this, what i type so far may have offended u or insulted u, but i seriously didnt mean it , juz venting all my thoughts on this blog..
In life, ppl shld juz make e intiative towards their goal, if u wan happiness go for it, if u wan entertainment go for it, dont wait for ppl to serve u.. ppl arent ur maid wadsoever, nth w stop u if u wan smth, seriously... This chalet widens my thoughts abt atlas 4, shall nt talk abt it further... I know i am at fault this chalet, but i w change, wad abt u all? are u all goin to change? I hope so..
Anw, i juz realized jc is juz so worse than olvl, time management is damn so impt.. w/o time management, i bet even e smartest kid is gonna suffer.. got homework nt done, gt movies nt catched, gt much other goals nt achieved, got god to serve more impt.. i juz wish that everything w go as planned and hope god w be w me through all this.. yep =) gonna study now.. gtg shall blog nxt time again.. feel much better, shall learn frm e mistakes and look at e future and live w a better personality which is that of god yea.. Btw wj if u are reading now, i bet u have a different perspective of me too yea.. i think too much but i juz blog some, others are too offensive lol..
Cya, bb
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