2010!!!! 2-0-1-0! A great year to start the year with god :) First time plus family! God family and I! How great is that? haha. Fun spending such time, quite inspiring, quite emo haha!

But like what my fren say on msn, we must be happy this year! Not moan over the past or whatever sad things. Yes they w still come, but we can look at it in a different perspective! Decided to stay faith filled and do things that way.

People may still be the same, ignore me or whatsoever but i am going to look at it in a positive note. This is to nurture me into a person who is even more loving when people are even more less loving. haha

Time to please God in 2010! :))):)):)) & Start my resolution rolling

Cya
Ziyan

This year can be said to be a blast in its own unique ways in my life. People whom i have never known deeply have become quite significant in my life for this year and i am grateful for that. Frens, sisters, brothers- these people are what make my life so unforgettable in the midst of As this year.

Sadly but true, we never know whether we will be in contact again but this journey that is imprinted in my life will never fade. When i look back and share with my younger generations or my future frens these moments, it is definitely something to be joyful of.

I thank god for such a church that never forsakes even when i was down and never give much passion for serving god.

So is my sisters in christ- Sy Jia & Xue Li. These people are definitely god blessing of encouragement in all aspects of my life esp x haha. Thank you for that though i know just a thank you is not enough. If you are reading this blog, please keep in contact w me k! Time is definitely not enough after this sat, but i believe a true friendship can never fade away over time. Obstacles are bound to come but it is only when they come that a friendship tightens:)

So is my brothers :)- Wen Jie & Wei Sheng & Winson & Hong liang & Peter. Though some may only be close for this moment after Alvl while some may only be close at certain periods of time, i am grateful for them in my life these 2 yrs :). I hope that just like how i feel, they also feel and will continue this friendship thrugh the nxt 10 yrs haha or 20 or 30. Weisheng,6 yrs fren haha. It will be weird not having you as the same "class" anymore in army. Whenever i look at my own class for these 6 yrs, there is weisheng! haha! Still in class w me wondering why are we so lucky to be in e same class. Even our results are almost identical sometimes haha. Miss u bro if you r reading.

My church frens too and many more- This year is something to be remembered b4 we go to a whole new stage of our life.Thanks guys for being there:)

Sounds like some speech for getting an award ? hahah. And truly speaking, as i enter 2010, i am prepared for many people ard me to change for the better & for the worse. Some may even be totally different from what they are now and i can already see some change in them even b4 enlistment or b4 uni. Mayb thats them when there is no more school. Thats them when life kicks in and studies kicks out. I am also ready to change- smth i long for. A change where people will look and say WOW! Cos they wont believe what i have been doing. haha. Smth that will give ppl a scare but in a good way of course!

Thanks everyone and 107 , Chingay, Chiang Mai, Hog church, and my family! Learn to cherish them more from 2010 onwards. Though i always say i will, i seem to potray a different image and thats bad. esp to my family.

2010's gonna be great. Eh nono, it's gonna be magnificent :) God's gonna rock the world. And i am going to be e platform!

Cya Guys for 2009. A year where everyone will never forget for now. A year where friends are made for life and friends are lost for life(*Cross Fingers)

God bless you all haha. Seem like i am talking to myself but who cares? I just love it that way :)

2009 will end with a celebration which is once in a lifetime! Cos i don think i have ever celebrated that way b4! haha!

Cya
Ziyan

It is 2.17 am now and this is 31st december. Time passes fast and it dawns on me suddenly that this year is coming to an end.

Shall post one long long blog tmr and it will sum up 2009:) Okay it is 2.18 am haha! This year has not started off with a bang but lets hope it will end off w a bang :)

True frens are those that will stick to you during tough times. Till now, truly speaking, i don't know who are my true friends. Not that there's tough times in my life but some friends who seem not close tend to be the ones close to you during these times. And she, who seem like a close fren, is actually isnt one.

Cya
Ziyan

How i feel

All my life, things have been going smoothly, ordinary, like all my frens have been experiencing. However, i feel something is missing personally in my life, something that will make my life fulfiling. I don know what this thing is, perhaps it is trying smth out of my mind(2010 resolution) or growing spiritually or stepping out of my comfort zone to changing myself to a better person imo.

I don't know if anyone has experienced this but i feel a kind of boredom in me even if i am preoccupied with things to do. It is such boredom that always draws me back to thinking what am i going to fulfil the next few years. Am i supposed to look at others' life and envy them? No right. Life should not be compared to another's life but should be drawn upon what you have been doing. I guess i have to figure this out soon b4 army kicks in and things start to go way much messier.

Time to plan. Time to step up onto another level of achievement:) Sec4 to J1 has been one major change in me but that is only the start. I still got much to learn and much to change. Cant imagine how life would be 10 years down the road and i look back and see what i have achieved so far. Who knows? My life may be reflected in the media 10 years down the road HAHA!

Think big, nono, Think bigger, nono, Think bigggggger!
Do big, nono, Do biggger, nono, Do biggggger!

Okay i am going crazy. Shld finish up something soon or else i am so dead. Don't even know does she care abt all these things when she appears so unbothered at all. Hmmm, then why am i doing such stuff for her. Kinda dumb.

Cya
Ziyan

How i wish not only frens can clique, but beyond frens, a relationship will start.

Yet some is too late, some is too early, is it so hard to find something or someone that is at the right moment there for u?

Things tend to be so amazing at times that we cant predict what's gonna happened nxt. The world is as amazing yet we fail to appreciate it and complain abt how bad the world is in today.

Most humans tend to be dissatisfied with things are in at the moment unless they are to their liking. Thus, the world can never be a happy place for everyone since we are all unique.

Cya
Ziyan

Went ubin ytd, it was quite fun except for the bike. The seat is seriously not comfortable but the shop puts up a signboard saying" comfort bicycle " which means comfortable bicycle. Poor english, poor expression. Shld be uncomfortable instead haha.

Aft which, went shermine's house. It was more fun than i thought when we all went swimming( e guys ). Then in e evening and night we just spent our house at shermine's house. I expected we eat and talk but that didnt happen. Haha. Hope that sometimes, people can learn to be more sensitive or rather considerate. Okay, so now monday is finally a rest day:)

Tuesday- cycling :) with the clique hahah fun man!

Wed- Hopefully catch up with dl ppl b4 bbq at ecp :)

Thus & Fri - no plans yet but hopefully have some plan :)

Sat- Atlas 4 outg & Ah ma bday & church. How to push all these into one! so hard!

Sun- Bye bye! to taiwan haha.

I still wanna meet so mani ppl but it seem so hard. Shld i just leave w/o a trace? haha, hope to keep in contact w e ppl i know these 2 yrs but it seem it will take more than willingness to do it for some. It is sad but it is a fact.

Cya
Ziyan

Christmas eve, Christmas, Boxing day have been woah this year :) Attended 3 svcs, and it is really a blessing to attend with frens amen? U share the joy and love with frens and family members and god, and that is really awesome. Love it. One of the best christmas time ever i suppose but quite tiring haha. Was supposed to go out today too but someone forgot today is sat and cant go out LOL. Blur leh! Ltr am supposed to go to my er jiu house haha. Family time is the best, catch up once in a while and see how everyone is doing.

Tmr will be cycling trip! :) Love cycling haha.

And all these are coming to an end. 11 jan is fast approaching so is 4th jan. Ws and Hl are gg in. Hoping to enjoy every bit right now and taiwan i am coming! :)

Hope this christmas, i will receive many cards on top of msgs. Though no cards have been sent to my house, hopefully they will be sent at the end of the day :) Felt so unloved now when ppl ard me are receiving cards at their house haha sad.

Anyway, hope this year 09 and countdown to 2010 will be fun. No plans but hope i will have a plan and it will end off with a bang. Yet to catch up with sec sch class and hope there will be one soon. Hope to see hows everyone is doing. And 2010 resolutions got to be set and achieved since all exams and studies are over. Time to make a drastic change in 2010 for the better in all aspects

PS: I had a dream, i got E for econs and Cs and Bs for other subjects. Quite scary but in my dream, i don feel scared of whats my future. Weird ah. Luckily, dream and reality are two different things. Outcome will be the opposite. Grace's gonna come. Thank god :)

Cya
Ziyan

Finally i get the meaning of never leave things to the last minute becoz they never go as you plan it to be. Crap! Christmas cards- 34 but sent out only 30 because not all reply their addresses, and even question why i ask them LOL. Like i don get it cos i explain already.

Okay, so i sent out 30 hopefully all receive in good condition since it is raining and i glue it like damn fast becoz b4 12pm today is the last collection!

Cool day, woke up at 830 get down to business of doing and continuing my cards. And now finally a time to rest b4 i have lunch and go church :)

220 at paya lebar mrt with peter and hong liang then joining sy jia one in e evening. Cool time to exp god :)

And tmr is xueli one haha

Love god love ppl. I know this is the time god wants to test me to serve ppl. Yup.

Okay, time to plae one game yea!

Cya
Ziyan

Days have been great so far

Felt great to be back in the desire to start reading the bible and applying biblical principles :) Starting soon! I am so gonna grow and make a change in the way i live in, man:) not male!

The past few days have been busy but not quite satisfying. Maybe i am feeling really excited to try smth new but hadn't grabbed the chance to.

Monday was spent at home, revising of what is in store for me :) And spent some time just recovering from post prom(don wanna say already). Conclusion: Alcohol is not advisable for me!

The following day was cycling! Worst and best cycling trip ever with some of my class and sze how. haha cool man.

Then was working and steamboat :) Sick after that though. Conclusion: No labour work for me anymore! haha but at least i earn 156 dollars in total :)

Thus and fri was spent resting at home and planning what should i do for the christmas and other events. Realise i have got many things to do but not all are of my interest.

Sat went out with sec sch clique:) Realise many facts and catch up many stuff haha.

Sun was swimming and impromptu gaming outg haha! then church ! and jumbo dinner :)

Superb week but not very spiritual if i take a look back. Nevermind, the future is still bright. Two more weeks to spend wisely! Time to get things back on track where it should be.

Time to buff up too! Cant imagine if i become heavier by 20 kg b4 i go army... hmmmm. that will be kinda cool :)

Got to do christmas cards and meet up w some ppl whom i long to. Hope they share the same willingness to meet up with me :).

Self-Quote: If one is to change the way things revolve around him, one must first change the perspective of doing things.

Be the head and not the tail. Lead and not back down. Love life, cherish life

Cya
Ziyan

The greatest discoveries a man make is when he discover he can do what he deem it is impossible for him initially. Smth of a quote from henry ford i think really speaks into what i am today.

I shld continue inculcating this value into my heart and do what i want as long as it is not against the biblical principles.

Anyway, many things have yet to be done but all these are down to whether am i determined. Got to get out of my house to do it if i need to but i am lazy like all or most human beings do.

PS: I really want to grow and do the extraordinary things that i deem they are. Hopefully, nxt year will be e start of all these :)

Cya
Ziyan

Now that's everything is finally over, everything seemed to come to a standstill.There's no purpose, no aim haha. There is no longer any reason to ask people out like in the past, feels so weird w/o any study outing eg.

Things have changed and i suppose i have to accept it. We are about to move on to another stage of our life where it is more independent rather than dependent. Gotta start moving and plan my list of to dos out.Time is short but at least time is no longer that pressurising like in the past. I no longer feel the urge to rush agst time and thats relaxing :) But yet agn, after a few days, u feel and u wish u can be back in the old days and long for the feeling that you once had.

Life is so amazing that it revolves around different stages with different entrances and exits that you can take. Some just stay in the middle awaiting for the doors to open to them while some fight but give up. And there were those who fight and fight and succeed in e end but they realise that is not the right door that they should be in. Life is all about risks and i think it is time i take one step to opening one of the doors and take the risk yea.

Cya
Ziyan

Pre-Prom,Prom,Post-Prom

Prom has been great and an unforgettable experience for me :). Miss it during sec sch days but catch up with it during jc days :)

However, post prom wasn't that memorable as i wanted it to be. Down with diarrhea vomitting fever headache discomfort, all kinds of symptoms that u do not want to be associated with when you are out there having fun.

Thanks everyone who sms me for their concern yea :). I am feeling much much better now. At least not as bad as two days ago when i slept 23 hours? or mayb 22 hours hahah.

Srsly, after prom, you just feel something missing. Or is it just me? Like what will it be like now after all this has ended. Will you be catching up with all these bunch of frens ever agn?

I dono truthfully but i will never forget such memories or blessings that i have been given these 2 yrs :)

Hopefully everything will still be e same or even better in the nxt 10 yrs?

Random: I feeel like undergoing a change in the way i look. wuldn't that be cool? haha! cant imagine if i wear contact and style my hair... hmmm haha!

Cya
Ziyan

Failure but not as bad

I still hadn't gt the top part of prom clothes. haha, i think i just go with what i feel as it always turns out to be great :)

Church svc really speaks into my heart today. No anxiety of anything= anxiety abt nothing:)

True indeed. Really blessed to have such pastors and church that are so guided by not what they feel but what the H.S feels :)

Thanks lord. Hope everything will be fine by wed for sj and her bday w be great yea after all that had happened. And may xl find her stuff asap like me! :)

Cya
Ziyan

Shopping 2-8 plus

Today can be considered a faliure to me and a success to others. Many of them bot what they want even lam who didnt plan to buy anything. I just don't know what i want perhaps and i did not plan for today's madness. I simply want some time to talk and catch up with what has been all these while. I love talking though i may not look like haha.

Anyway saw damn lot of people today, e most of all time i think.

Saw ming tjong, jun lin, yi xiang, alicia, samuel, chee siang, mu ye! My primary sch fren LOL. To me a lot la haha but nt mayb to some.

All diff timings diff places. damn cool haha.

Okay, hope tmr will be more decisive.

And i just realised i hate shopping with more than 4 people. It is just weird to me yup yup.

Cya
Ziyan

It is weird whenever i think of why isn't our life always planned and guided by someone yet again it is always frustrating for people to do things their way in our life. Ironic ah? I just think that sometimes we tend not to fight for the things that we yearn for the most yet we hope that it will come our way naturally. Lazy human beings we are or i am haha.

On the other hand, to say that having a religion or relationship, we will actually know whats our end goal will be yet in life on earth, there are so many things that we want to yearn for in spite of knowing what is the end goal that is in front of us. Isn't life supposed to be full of freedom? Or should it be planned accordingly as it is stated in the bible that we serve the one and the only one?

It is how amazing that i think of such stuff once in a while yet such thoughts are of little significance or relevance to what we are doing every day. We think and live our lives differently at times or perhaps for now.

Got to settle matters but i am just too lazy. Feeling i am back into my old days but a little better haha.

Prom
Hanging out with frens
Bday
Christmas
Exercise commitment
God
Work

Most of these seem to be the typical usual stuff that teenagers are doing right now. Yet i somehow feel thats not what i like to do. I find myself loving to travel and exploring the different parts of the world ever since i went chiang mai. I want to venture out of this little dot in the world map to some place that is exotic, unique from the typical city area that we are so exposed to in singapore.

All these seem impossible but maybe possible if i fight for it. isn't it? It is rather obviously actually right? haha. But it is easier said than done. so many obstacles- mental physical emotional spiritual

Cya
Ziyan

"ORD" LO!!!!

Haha, exam's finally over! Took some time to hang out and came home to take a break from studies forever! Time is all i have now, 1 month! B4 i enlist! Must make full use of this 1 month:)

Time to pursue and fight for what i want, srsly, all my life i feel i have not been able to fully express entirely what i want on the outside- fear perhaps? Which i regret. Frens i lost which i regret. All these i realise are all due to no one else's fault but me yup. Kinda regret but at least i realise this ever since i step into mjc? And i realise more after i finish my exam. There's so much things to blog abt that i am not really good at putting into words.

I see how the lives of the ppl ard me are changed esp those once close frens of mine, yet i wonder whether is mine any different from that in the past? I am going to try at least to get out of this stubborn, lazy mindset of mine and jump straight into the life that i want to be able to fully express myself:)

Guess no one understand but only me. Fight for your life, pursue ur dreams. What is it i really want? There's a deep burning desire inside me that is so unlike me on the outside sometimes.

Cya
Ziyan

Exam finished, yet life is not finished. haha, i long for exam to end but to end with a bang. Seems like it isn't. Hope i can turn things ard and have a direction aft exam but apparently i don have haha.

But on the good note, everything is over!!! :) Soon haha. One MCQ! Time to relax and make full use of my time.

Okay, to sum my alvl up, it has not been very easy as i thought. Hopefully my target will still be met:). I know it will. I still believe.

Cya
Ziyan

4 days left! This is the time when i guess people including me start to have thoughts of relaxing a while haha.

I have lagged my study plan yet i feel satisfied. Thats bad.

Anyway, on a sidenote, i guess all the prayers are starting to show. Cool to me eh haha. Gonna have more faith through this time through this life time.

And i want to play l4D!!!! Seriously, cant wait to plae w anyone who wan to plae. I want the excitement, the freedom, the enjoyment of killing zombies! And no more stress. No more! At least for two years. As long as i do what i like, i believe stress is quite minimal compared to now. Even in uni, when people seem to mug at a far worse and alarming rate than jc students, if i pursue what i like, i think it is definitely worth it.

Having said that, i must work hard to enjoy my years ahead! Alvl gao ni le! My career, my destiny, my testimony

Cya
Ziyan

Random: I seriously think environment is going to come out for gp p1 and p2 this year. haha. just a random thought after studying gp.

Cya
Ziyan

No one's online! Wads this haha. Shall stop playing dota from nowon. 9 days left.Fear is finding its master everyday. This is scary. Yet, since we r the masters we should be able to get rid of it right haha.

Mad abt

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Cya
Ziyan

What if

Have you ever wondered what will you do 20 years down the road? Which friends will still be with you then?

Okay, not so far fetched, what about 10 years down the road? What is your future route gonna be like?

Or even closer, what will you do after your Alvls?

Have you ever wondered? I did though, and i fear at the sight of it. Mayb it is cos i hate the feelings of deciding and planning your future route in life where no one will provide for you. In schools, the system is built in a way that you will naturally get educated and make friends and ...
But after JC life, i cant imagine how am i going to be so independent. Or rather will i still have the friends i am having now? Or will i be mixing with another whole new bunch of people? How will my working life be like? How is it that i am going to survive on myself when i am old enough to live alone? So many questions. No answers

Seems like what i read two days ago really makes sense in Dailybread. Often, we are anxious and scared of what our future will be. And this is inevitable and luckily normal. But personally, knowing god's there and before me. the head and nt the tail is comforting. I need faith and trust him. I need.

Random thought: How does chicken lay eggs everyday when it is enclosed in a cage by itself? How to mate? LOL

2nd Random thought: Why is a goft competition cancelled but not a soccer match? Don't lightning strike everywhere, be it in a goft course or soccer field?

Hmmmm, i wish someone can be there whenever i have smth to talk abt.

That someone is still someone. Some friends are there for you but i find it hard to talk to them at times. I can't be my normal self except with someone. Secret! haha. But that someone is a fren of course. Don think too much haha

Words beyond expln... donno how to describe haha. Things seem different when they all seem to be alright.

Cant wait for As.! I study till my eyes turn red. And is a horizontal red line across both eyes. Am i going mad?? hahaha..

Days at home are good but they can be boring at times when you are alone. Thats when u do silly things!

Struck off the happy day. Lazy haha. I know can already. Anyway, Ytd was dumb of me! haha


FREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 1st time so malu!

Sometimes, blog seems to be meaningless imo. A diary seems to be more appropriate. More personal. More sentimental. Haha, mayb i shld change to a diary.

Realize lots of things in the context of studies nd to be caught up.

I study slower than others, but i don deny nth is impossible to overcome :)

Wheres she when u wanted her most? Life is so confusing. When u wan smth, it doesnt comes to u, vice versa....

haha.

Hope dad and mum are having fun out there in Aus, while i control myself and bury myself in books.

God bless my family in every ways:) and shalom,isaac,ccm. So is my frens, relatives.

Practically everyone,but primarily my family haha.

Cya
Ziyan

Happy Day 4th: NS on jan 11!!! :(

Title speaks it all. Yet on a good note, i am going to enjoy more after i book out :)

Happy day 3!

Thankful for all teachers, esp mrs tan and mrs lim.

W/o them, i donno what will happen to my character and my studies. Thank god for them. Pray that god will bless them in return :)

Mrs tan is the best teacher and one who is really like a fren to me :) If u r reading, i am really thankful for what u've done and i wish u all the best for the upcoming years in ur life. god bless u!

Mrs lim is a very experienced teacher who passes her knowledge of chemistry extremely well. Cant believe how i have improved. From U all the way to S in block test, mye to D in prelim and to A in Alvl in future :)

And i almost have the worst nightmare today! Guess those in the class know haha. Worst of the worst. Scary man. hahaha. and Embarrased to the max. Thank you WJ AND HL for everything today :) Ur pro activeness saves me :) I thank you guys really if u r reading this=) Thanks man!!!

Anyway, L4D ppl if u r reading the post 08s107 guys. I promise i will play someday! I wan class bonding, i wan these ppl to last forever in friendship in my life :) Even though we may not clique at times, loving ppl goes beyond that :)

Hopefully one last thing, donno if this will ever come true, i just hope i have a chance to know that person better :) hahaha someone someone someone

Cya
Ziyan

Happy Day 2!

I am great and happy of what my teachers said for the past few days :)
' Ziyan, u got the potential to get an A'
' Ziyan, u can pass but i know you can do better than that. I know u have worked very hard'

These sentences really impact me and i am believing more than ever than nothing is impossible. Even if all else fails, nothing can fail you if you don give up believing and DOING of course right! haha

I know this is great and i cannot be complacent. I got to start working harder harder every day. Yet, 8 hours of sleep is compulsory for me to stop falling asleep while studying. That is very bad, very bad. Got to get up and stop sleeping! motivation!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! energy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

U may think i am mad. Perhaps i am. But i am mad for getting good results for the better of the world and I :)

Cya
Ziyan

1st Day

Decided to run with a so called day numbering in my blog from now on- inspired by chang zai xin! haha. ok lame. 1st Day of living a fulfiling life starts today i suppose :)

1 month left! Ppl have yet to cope mentally with their prelim papers when now we are back to round one- fighting the battle. In school now, many people ard me seem to be nervously on the inside imo, i donno mayb cos is one month only or the fear of losing out in the competitve educatn system?

1 month seems long yet when u plan and do, it seems freaking impossible to finish. Talking abt all these studies, it is so frustrating. I cannot believe here i am studying like hell just or worse than O's. I still rmb during olvl, i say to myself aft O's, i will not never work so hard- it is just so tormenting. Freak!

Had some bad days nowadays with people with myself. Esp during studies. When u are in something crucial, u tend to avoid it u know what i mean? This is pathetic haha. Temptns, negative thoughts keep coming. But i gonna persevere! No man is too weak to overcome anything. Shall focus on my study plan, and perform better than Alvl! :)

All As, i am excited, confident but not complacent! haha.

It is all abt how we look at life that determines half e outcome. studies, work, career.

Sometimes, on the contrary, i will ponder why is our life so sophiscated? I rather choose e old ages type of life :) Even if we are outdated, we enjoy life to our liking.

Cya
Ziyan

Gotta stop my bad habits!

Gotta stop daoing people, esp ppl whom i know in the past
Gotta stop being selective in socialising, thats really bad....
Gotta stop being indecisive!
Gotta stop being lazy!
Gotta stop playing!
Gotta stop procrastinating
Gotta stop having a plan yet not fulfiled
Gotta stop being a hypocrite sometimes.

So many gotta stops... but most impt is still the first one. gotta stop being loving at times only and to certain ppl only. Thats bad when it comes to living a fulfiling life imo. I hate it and i shld overcome this weird fear in me....

Dota this weekends, and i am gone!

Cya
Ziyan

Thankful for all days and excited for the upcoming exams to come! This is really quite cool becoz for prelim, i was excited too and not nervous for the exams. I really was confident but not complacent to get the targets i had intended w/o doubt. Though i did not in the end, i am still excited cos i know god is going to bless me in the end. All As is not a far sighted goal. I can see it already in spite of no As for now. haha. Nothing is too far, nothing is too hard. Only fear impedes all that.

Once i get rid of fear, and take control of my circumstances, i am just so excited for all the exams to come.

Nevertheless, hard work has to be doubled and faith has to be tripled :)

Cya
Ziyan

God is Amazing!

Witness many amazing blessings today! :)

Though i may not get my intended results for e subjects so far, i made a huge improvement in most of my subjects :). Yes it is hard work of my own and god motivation in me:)

Physics- U to B
Chemistry- U to D
Gp- 25/50( At least i pass for now haha)

So far, i am sure god is gracious and in e end of the day, All As! :)

And xueli testimony of her exams is even amazing. Though she tot she screw up everything because of lack of time, panic, she got B for Physics and C or D for chemistry and a B for gp p1.

Sometimes, we got to take life in different perspective. Even if we were not christians. The attitude and work we put in must be there and most impt the mentality! We must not let our circumstances influence our motivation in life to study, our perseverance. But let our motivation and perseverance influence the circumstances.

We r in control :) and not the other way. Never is a servant in control of its owner. Same here.

Exams are done by us. We r e doers and we r in control :) A is within our limits!

Cya
Ziyan

Life is not a bed of roses, to be more specific, in my context now, is not an easy task to stay happy everytime.

It is so hard to get across some idea to some people esp when we all think differently. Thats why, babies are the easiest to communicate w! Cos they don think much, they just wan ur company regardless of who you are.

Hope everything will be fine in my family just like what we were 18 years ago...

:)

Cya
Ziyan

I long for the days when we were just innocent as ever and have as much freedom as possible...

The world seems a better place if that were the case haha.

Cya
Ziyan

Temporal break

Somehow, i don't feel satisfied of the fact that we finish tmr. Perhaps, we only have a few days to rest and the memory, knowledge we have accumulated cannot be forgotten. I so long for days that i can cycle, swim, run , basketball, and bowled and so much more. I love sports but the fact is that i am not as capable as others i guess.

Since my operation, the physical ability has long deteriorated. It has dragged me down of course, yet i can only recover fully only if i remove the 'thing' in me.

Whatever, it is, at least this does not stop me from doing what i like most but yet to get a chance- helping people! animals! haha I miss chiang mai seriously. I love th place people weather except the environment. I must do something abt it. I know everyone sae this but i will keep my word hopefully haha. Just don wanna fall into the ignorant grp of people in this world :)

And i really wan to work. Believe it or not. Yet to earn myself a single buck at the age of 18 LOL. Must have been one spoilt brat. I nd to find a way to earn money for myself, family and future :) The skills are impt!

On the sidenote, i realize many people tend to complain a lot esp abt ppl. They tend to sae this and that and act pissed off by what others doing. Maybe they are angry cos they cant be like these people who enjoy at the expense of others. but who cares. I don really give a single thought of whether people are benefiting off u. As long as i know what i am doing is of good moral values, i don compare.

And for those, who are demoralised by ur things in life right now esp exams. Don. It is the end route we are aiming for. Through all these steps of mini exams, it is just for us to learn our mistakes and not commit in alvl. Don treat it as a setback for u in ur alvl :) These exams, prelim, are all for u to learn to apply what u've learnt and learn from ur mistakes. Not see how bad or how good u have done :)

Okay, damn sian, still got one exam but is a h1 mcq. Somehow, i have smth on tmr but thats good for a gd purpose. But seems like, i have hooked onto smth more distracting than this and is nt gd. I hope i can let nature take its course and stop thinking abt it :) Like what christians say, it is all in god's plan as long as u live for him and through him :)

Cya
Ziyan

Blog no.2 of the day

Totally slacked the whole day. Went up, with the intention of studying, after reading the bible, but who knows my lack of adrenaline just kicked in. Not long, i was lying on my bed sleeping.
Nxt thing, it was 6.30 pm. I decided to just stop and study later at night at 10. Gonna stop thinking of the burden of studying and think far beyond it yea.

Okay, Sax-An lai le! Gonna blow some saxophone :) Chang Zai Xin haha

Cya
Ziyan

The race is almost over! Tired, just don feel like studying anymore esp with 2 more paper 1 to go in the nxt 3 days.

Through this prelim, i have realized many have responded these papers with different mindset.

I believe prelims just like work life or anything u do in ur life will always try to impede one's mental strength. Thats why those who triumph in the end are normally those who are able to withold any bad influence on their mental str through the process.

2 more papers to go. Jiayou people. Have been slacking for 5 hours lol. One more dota match and i am done

Cya
Ziyan

You are the light in the darkness
You are the hope to the hopeless
You are the peace to the helpless
You are...

I am just so touched by this chorus, nt sure did i type correctly

Anyway, our ways can never outweigh his ways.

This is why i also realised that some amazing people do some amazing things cos their thinking is set on a level higher than those of ordinary.

So if we were to set our ways like that of god, it will amaze the world :)

Cya
Ziyan

Life will be hard, but we can do it like what everyone is trying to encourage everyone haha.

Let ur confidence be independent of the circumstances ard u.

Let your morale be unwavered by the questions u face.

I think that is really one good technique i find out for myself for prelim.

I think it will work :)

Shall try it for prelim p2 chem and the rest of p1.

God bless everyone! Prayers do wonders so why not pray for everyone and global wonders will occur haha.

Ugly truth- hmmmm, not really the kind of movie i thought LOL. Awkward w a bunch of ppl, esp my class huh haha

Cya
Ziyan

Focus!!

The more the crucial period, the more challenges u bound to face. This is very true. Esp exams. All kinds of obstacles, small or big, always impede your determination to study. I don know why but i guess it is just me mayb haha.

The world perceives things in an universal way that many of us fail to notice when we are hooked onto something that introduces a new belief to living life like christianity.

Ppl view christians as many different perspectives- judgmental, hypocritical, fake, too holy, only god and god and god and much more.

As Pastor Kevin says, the inability to live what we behave has made many people think christians are hypocritical, one of the most serious misconceptions to many. I think many will agree with me. Also, many think what is a god to us, is a religion or something to satisfy our insecurity.

Many do not know it is a relationship. One that makes us feel we are not alone even when all else fails. I am not trying to mean anything by saying all these, just wan to clarify some doubts i have haa. And we must never just keep saying, it is god and god not us. It is quite a humble act to christians but not to the majority non believers in the world, who see it as a part of arrogance.

Anw, shall start finish my rev package ans by tonight when it is now 11.52.45 pm! haha. And i shld stop getting distracted. Focus! not on sports soccer but studies. Btw man city 4 arsenal 1. WTH!!! ARSHAVIN wuld have changed all that :(. My league. Aiya, heck. It is just a mere discouragement from my route to success in studies. I cannot let it demoralise me lol. Seems like i quite addicted to soccer.

Okay, shall leave now

Cya,
Ziyan

Falling into a situation where you will be completely devoid of ur senses, it is indeed hard to get out once you are in.

I am exactly in this situation now. I dont know why but i guess thats how the brain works haha. God cr8 the world in such an amazing way that some things are still beyond our comprehension for only god understands.

Gonna step out of my comfort zone more if i need to see a change in my purpose.

Knowing someone only by name yet not personally hurts one esp if he or she is impt to u haha

Cya
Ziyan

Teacher's day

This year teacher's day is one of the best or rather the best one i have had in many years:)

Seeing how dedicated our teachers are, they really deserve it. And this, in my opinion, should apply to everyone in life.

Whenever someone does something for us, though many of times, they do not want anything in return, we should shower them back what they deserve.

Sometimes, just regretted not doing this early. Shall try to put others b4 myself than myself b4 others.

1 wk or less than 1 wk left! The fear is not killing me but it is the pressure ard me that is killing me. Lack of rest, lack of freedom is just so uncomfortable and looking at my cousin, i don get poly life sometimes. He writes he play dota 150 games in 8 days. Thats like madnesS?????? 1 game=30mins or 1 hr. 150 means= 4500 mins in 8 days?

What abt the time to sleep, time to have family time, time to study, time to socialize!!

Don get the way mindsets are shaped in ppl's life sometimes..

Get well soon ok! God is gracious, he blesses those who seek him :)

Jiayou people, god is abundant in his blessings but one should be patient to receive it with Faith!

Cya
Ziyan

People changed and though many claim unique, they are all almost identical in the same way- ego, company, materialism, naive thinking...

Shall talk more abt it nxt time, gtg.

Cya
Ziyan

Screwed one question of chemistry today! Haha, but luckily is not prelim

For the past day, someone has been shooting me non stop, don't know whats wrong. Seems like studies spoils everything.

Whatever it is, shall not let it bother me. I have better things to do.

Lescott went man city! Every month, surely there is one person going to man city. when will it stop?

Why does rich ppl like to spend so much money on an activity with 11 ppl and one soccer ball

Cya
Ziyan

Praise god for my chem test today:)

Indeed he is the provider of all needs if u seek him which what i did!

Cont serving god and having faith god will use me more day by day, step by step, test by test and ALVL- :)

Straight As possible? Yes in the eyes of god.

Tiring day but i am gonna persevere through. Laughter joy are amentities i need everyday to keep on going.

3 more months and thats it

Cya
Ziyan

2 years ago compared to now, life has changed and i can say these two years are quite fulfiling to me, quite life changing to me. Though i seem the same on the outside, inside seems different..

W/o this change, i wuld have suffered now in jc life i guess. As one negative effect comes, following effects will start to spill over. Thank god my life is not like this no more :)

Time is all i long for. Time to enjoy myself:( I want sleep, i want a time to relax- a long long time. Not 3 days( E max i had at bintan). Beside that, life can be said to be rather boring.

I want at least 2 wks of rest. When all these had ended, i better make full use of my time b4 i go NS. That means i will finally get to rest and do what i like- :)

Cya
Ziyan

It is definitely hard going on, but at the very least i will stand to gain priceless experience that will last me forever.

Short term vs long term.

I will choose the long term

Cya
Ziyan

Finally the gp workshop has ended! Intensive :) but not sure will my efficiency be 100% haha. Left much hw to be undone. Not sure how i am going to finish my though but i am and will.

Level of capacity confidence is enough to replace the physical tiredness in me. Indeed, nothing is too difficult to overcome. It is all in the mind. Change ur mindsets and ur body will adjust accordingly.

Praise god for answering my needs everytime when i least expected but most needed.

Thank you for the safety and protection over my family and my dad, who stay in China- which is now under serious threat by typhoon Morakot-few days ago. :)

Time to makan!

Cya
Ziyan

Today was an important day :) A day i drop my physics h2, not cos i cant cope with it but i have no time. There is a difference and i wan all my As:) In order to do so, time has to be devoted to more of a subject than the other.

Gp and Econs esp

Nothing is impossible but they must be planned and done with confidence and a detailed coherence sequence

I got to buck up

I got to trust in god.

Miracles show. And it occurs to anyone as long as u r willing and faithful

Thank you lord for the wisdom, safety, physical mental spiritual emotional rejuvenation daily, over the people ard me and i

Cya
Ziyan

Schoot is tiring as usual but i am slowly getting back on my track. Though academic life is now in a mess with people saying once in a while that this is easy and i imba or wadever sentences, i am going to bury all these worries on god who is the one who i should follow.

Yes, it is rather amazing to see the transformation in douglas. Though not totally yet, it is already a significant one. God paves the way for people to get transformed in ways we can never imagine. Cool ah?

If u wanna see his blog go to keepit-up.blogspot.com( xueli ) then go douglas.

Praise the lord who does all things:)

Heavenly man, a controversial book but one that is true and can definitely occurs to anyone in life not just him.

Faith is the key :)

Cya
Ziyan

Week 6 coming to an end

Religion and the modern context of the world has never failed to conflict with one another. Be it science which everyone claims, in schools, in family outings, in meetings during work, it is ubiquitous to witness once in a while conversations on such topic.

It is rather controversial but it takes faith not risk or security to have this relationship with god,which people of the world deems as religion. Seldom they neglects or lacks the knowledge that our god is one who will communicate back to us. Yes, again some will question our faliure to address this premise. Is it our own sense of mind playing the trick or god himself revealing to us by FAITH

Never will i really know nor the world knows in sight but definitely i will know via experience and the unexplained blessings the world has received through him. It may seems more than a mere coincedence but again, what can explain if such occurences are happening again and again over the years, around the world.:)

Time to start studying! My target settings may be unrealistic but possible haha.

Cya
Ziyan

5 weeks left

It has been an amazing week to end off with a satisfying result for my chem test :) It is indeed god blessing that i am able to achieve that. Looking back one year ago i fail chemistry practically every test and exam even coming into 2009 with a very poor foundation. Yet now, i can get an A for periodic test, yes is just a test but is a good start :) A for prelim! and Alvl

I am going to aim to achieve the following and when i look back i am going to be proud of what i have achieved :)

2Bs for chem and gp and 3As for phy math econs- PRELIM
5 As for chem gp phy math econs - ALVL:)

Don lose heart, focus, purity. Sometimes i feel an urge to talk to my frens abt christ but e feeling of my poor knowledge holds me back. Mayb i shld stop this mentality and start taking a different route right now.

I love god!

Cya
Ziyan

6 weeks left! or rather 2 months if u want to calm urself down haha. Motivation to start studying after seeing my grades S S U U C LOL

But seriously, it is quite a serious matter.

Anw, check out yahoo link or youtube if u have time. Don piper :) Though many ppl w doubt such a remarkable thing, i choose to believe it for things that are of god are far more than the normal human beings can perceive of. :)

Passion to serve! Starts right from me and the ppl ard me! I cant wait to live every sec of my life right now! Impossible is only in the eyes of a human being but definitely not in the eyes of the ONE!

Cya
Ziyan

4 more days left! and yes aft that is 2 more weeks to end of exam. Cant wait haha.

For the first time i mug like a mugger.

But for the first time, i learn to appreciate the value of time. And experience god. What he has assigned us to do in life is much more than completing the task but is more of showing his will through u.

Whatever we do we are given the ability to do it, whatever questions hold in front of me, i can conquer it :) So can u!

CCCAA! Faith,convenant, glory

Cya
Ziyan

Last week of the week officially, gotta start piaing! haha:) Trust god too!

2 more weeks to go, this is no longer holiday...

Persevere:)

I marvel at how i am living my life right now. Compared to my past not to others, it is rather amazing or what i must say a huge improvement :) The way i look at life and live my life is satisfying.

However, i see myself going to a future of not like this currently. I want to pursue a greater and more unique life that is beyond the ordinary :)

And i want to take up counsel lessons! haha

Hope shermine is feeling better day by day :) Prayer does wonders

Cya
Ziyan

Did many stupid things today. Esp the one which angers my friend accidentally. Man, human brain is beyond our control sometimes. One moment, i can control my thoughts and another moment, the thought just flowed out of my mouth. haha, literally.

These few days have been great for me, though not for the ppl ard me? Ever since last wk, people have been not themselves. Or rather from this year onwards. Really wish we can choose an ability. For me, read people thoughts:) U can always be there for anyone even no one chooses to. Really hope everything will be smooth for everyone :) esp after this mye. Take it as a break for everyone.

Lastly, why look upon ppl weakness when you have the ability to look beyond people's flaws? haha.

Cya
Ziyan

Prison break is one the best shows ever :) Worth watching before gp exam tmr.

Cherish what we have and never regret it.

It is not worth sacrificing temporal happiness for permanent happiness.

One man can change the world or at minimum, the people ard him, do u believe it?

Cya
Ziyan

Many things happen ytd, good and bad. But just shall not elaborate much.

Man u lost! Omg, not that i didnt expect that. But is that they didnt even have a close match at all 2-0. Not even a goal. haha. I wuld expect penalty that will be great or rather looking at the past, chelsea will be the champions instead.

Left a last match on 30 may for soccer. By then, there will be no more soccer. But there is still nba:)

Sidetracking, one month is all we got now. It seems little but it is possible. Our productivity has been increased ever since we are in jc. Things are more efficiently done. With more discipline.
We can do it :) cant we?

Cya
Ziyan

Does doing something u like be to such extent

I don know about you, but ytd, i really didnt like what i went for. It was for a good purpose but i cannot feel the purpose and feeling in it. It is more of a noise pollution. No offence. But i feel doing something you like and he like is simply learning more about him. Why should we go to such extent to do all these. Mayb it is entering someone world. I really dont know.

I just want one thing- grow more spiritually. Thats all. And also, christianity and christ are indeed two different things. I feel sometimes, people are different from people outside in church. They seems friendly yet abnormal if one is to be a visitor and take a whole innocent perspective at them. Yet, this isnt generalization. I only meant this for specific people.

K enough of my thoughts. Econs time. Oh ya, if any mjc j2 econs rdg this blog, please read ur email and make e necessary amendment to ur revision package.

Cya
Ziyan

I always thought when we do things we ought to do and like, we will be happy and relaxed. But this is not the case right now. We are just so stressed up by exams and here comes this thing. Why must doing something i have always liked be enforced by someone or some people continuously. It is getting tiring. I love it but i hate the way it is operating right now.

Not only am i feeling it, but also i am sure others too. Some people may think it is cos of a lack of conviction. Yes, u may be right but i kinda feel one is understand and loving and i know it. Yet, people are feeling too swayed by the view that he is one who is constantly pressurising us. Yes, we must take e initiative but we must set our priorities. He will understand but do u?

Hope every jc ppl esp grace will be more relaxed and not stressed during this period of the year.

Cya
Ziyan

Unending workload, will it stop?

Uncontrollable time, will it be within our control?

Such thoughts never stop to revolve around my mind.

I guess just like many others in jc, we all hope this will end once and for all. :)
Nevertheless, when it ends, we hope it doesnt. New exp=> Fun challenging jc life. True, process is difficult but the reward in e end is priceless.

Don't u agree?

Cya
Ziyan

I do appreciate the style ppl write sometimes esp the way they express their feelings. It seem really fluent and entertaining. Nth much, just expressing how i feel right now after reading some ppl's blog. Anyway, 2 weeks to mye! I bet everyone in school in jc2 is just wishing they can get their butts off studies for one day. But if u know, it is impossible in mjc. Notes never get finished and efficiency never gets better. We just cant finish doing everything that is planned for us and we have to keep emptying our pockets at the expense of having such treatment. Amazing huh?

Studies is one thing. Enjoying is one thing. Cant we just put these two into one? haha, it is hard but why is this so? Truly speaking, i guess is human nature? haha. Recently this year, i know this year is gonna be more stressful and i hope that i can relieve stress of others. Not just i see that it is necessary but i also feels it is what everyone yearns for. They hope they can get out of this stressful, tedious journey. They are feeling too stressful or stressed up by the workload. Yup. Esp some ppl i have observed. I may be wrong in my observation though. Anyway, two weekends a day seem too much when you have too much freedom. But it seems no other different than weekdays if u are in jc2 now. Mayb those ppl working, might be worse. But at least if u make the right choice in life, u get to do what u like. Isnt it? B4 uni, u get to choose ur combin but not the path of ur life.

Enough typing. Cant wait for mye to pass and As to pass. But cant stop but think of what will i do aft i graduate? Studies, school time, class bonding, lesson time all these will soon be coming past. I dread it yet yearns for it. Irony? But is true right?

Self-Quote (for fun):
Cherish what u have control, by the time u regret it will be out of control. Be determined to succeed your goals or else you will just fail your roles. Nevertheless, determination is the key and initiative is the lock. =)

Cya
Ziyan

Pathetic Match

Though i didnt watch the match chelsea vs barcelona, it was such a disgrace just by reading newspapers. The referee just simply tarnishes the reputation of soccer. Chelsea shouldnt have thrown tantrum but they are humans arent they? Just imagine u are scolded four times for no reason, how will you feel? It is the just the same for chelsea players.

And out of all these, i just wan to say smth. Barcelona triumphed in this spanish primera liga simply not because they are good as compared to english clubs but the coaches in spanish league are far less tactical and better than those in premier league. Take a look at spain, how many good coaches are there? And england, now u know why spain league is not at all competitive but england is? From top to bottom, the england league never fails to get people to watch simply because their matches are so intense.

Lastly, i just hate referee and barcelona dont even deserve to play. If it were to reveal that they had paid the referee to do so( nth is impossible ), soccer in the world has a taken a big step nearer to its grave.

How weird it is that we tend to focus on unnecessary stuff most of the times? Like me, focusing on sleeping playing basketball, fantasy premier league. Is it because we are too bored down by the daily chores of life? I think so. But this is all beyond our control. The bits of things that we can enjoy are only that much. At this young age, many things we have yet to try and are forbid to do. How i wish maturity, freedom is something everyone can have totally. And weighing the consequences of things and sacrifices u nd to make is really tiring

Who knows world is never simple? I know and realize that only when i was j1. B4 that, i could not be bothered abt anything except those typical things a student does. I thought life was that simple. I live as though i am always happy with what i am living for. But now, knowing we had to make hard choices in life, caring for ppl thoughts, the sacrifice u got to make to excel, the temptations you have to force yourself to forsake. There are many other things that exist that make this world so perplexed and complicated. But, they can actually be summarized into one- For ppl. In everything u live for in life is abt ppl- u or others. Seriously. Just that we tend to think too much and go in a wrong direction. Yet, on the contrary, ppl alone have enough problems. In return for pleasing them, you have to make lots of planning to meet their different personalities in one way. Kinda hard yea i know. Thats why during all these times of living, theres risk to take. We got to believe in what we do and take risks. Yes, we do not know the future. And we got to believe what we do in the present are gonna affect e future. Trust and confidence.

BRB now. B4 i go and sleep, soccer news update: Liverpool won!(dirk kuyt score two, damn it, i subst him out two wks ago), chelsea won! and much more. Gonna stop wasting time on soccer. Seem too addictive nowadays haha.

Cya
Ziyan

This week has been busier than i thought yet i managed to survive. Amazing yea especially when i am sick in my own perspective. Sj may not think so but thats how i am feeling in e past few days. Having to endure with a bad sore throat, flu and discomfort and insufficient sleep, i managed to do all the hw and didnt sleep for the first time at night b4 bedtime haha. I,myself, am surprised too that sometimes, humans can really stretch their potential or limits. We only use 10 percent. If we force ourselves on that mindset and build upon it that everyday, we stretched a bit more. Amazing changes are gonna happen! This can be applied to anyone as long as u r a human :)

Gonna start planning my stuff long term though i am not a very forward looking person. Most probably because i am lazy and satisfied with every moment i am experiencing currently. I take life simple yet i think of silly stuff a lot. Irony huh. I can waste time thinking of soccer or even the dreams i had or even those 'what ifs'. What if we got power just like heroes. I did even try to find one for myself that i think is a power. lol! haha. But thats when i am really very tired and bored. I dont even know why am i doing that at that time. Ppl think too much abt their future but thats not me. My future is uncertain yet certain at time. Another matter of irony huh haha. I wan to be an estate agent in the past or even a basketballer or even a person who just devotes his time to helping people now. But i feel unsure of myself at time most prob because i hate to take risks cos of low experience or confidence. Due to past experience, i dont really feel it is really pleasing to take risks. Mayb i shld employ some strategies. Aft all, in life, u nd a certain guidelines to succeed in everything. Eg in sports, u nd a certain range of techniques to excel.
Maybe strategies are the keys. I haven really tried employing any specific strategies. I shld nxt time ah.

Ok shall stop typing now. Prison break time!

Wait, one thing to ponder: If people say they are your friends in e past, then why arent they talking or even saying a word 'hi' to you when they walk past u? Is this how life is? Or just how singapore is? People are not really sentimental? I dont know. What u think?

Cya
Ziyan

Studies show we only use 10 percent of our human potential.. hmm.. and at the same time i come across ytd svc that says we shld stretch our limits everyday.

Mayb i shld start doing it. No matter am i sick or not, potential gonna be stretched daily. No giving up. No cannot. No tiring. Time to step up and finish what i started- jc life. I come w one purpose and shld end w one purpose:)

Cya
Ziyan

Just read something back long ago abt economic, giving my own personal view on it. U can criticize if u r reading cos i know my econs got a pathetic 13/100! LOL!

Things arent that complicated all the time. Why is people meeting up to come up w measures? Is it necessary? We got to think back all the way on how the economy actually started! What are e loopholes? Will it end up self-destructing itself? Just like how is it now. If yes, we shldnt make e economy as complicated as it seems. Mayb ppl shld just use e same currency all over agn? Like seashells u know haha. There w be no more exchange rate! And even better, trading of goods will no longer need to be worried over external value of the currency. Hmm, ppl will then easily find a job elsewhere in another country.

Back then, keynesians sae abt AE rite. Must it always be e case? Though it seems to be working all the time, is it effective now? Nth is full proof or fully effective. So why not we just go naturally and stop thinking so much of economic stuff. aha. Biased mayb cos i hate econs. But seriously, econs isnt all that complicated if e ppl in e world don think so much. It just cr8 problems that evolves from simple into very very complicated stuff that makes ppl think even more! A circular type of thinking u know. Going round and round for more and more confused and complex thinking.

But still, i am just a 18 year old kid. Who just hates the city type of functioning. Mayb i am unique hahaa. I just longs for the day when i am living in a countryside area, full of scenery, freedom and no stress from the modern forces of this earth :) Most impt, serving god whenever i want!

Cya
Ziyan

Random

Ziyan wants complete freedom! Miss mo lei tek suddenly haha. Those type of ppl i have known are very different compared to the ppl in sg. Life is different. Though mani ppl have long forgotten times in chiang mai, i still long for the feeling..

Mayb, i am a person who likes helping people? Yet i do not know how to do or do not have the courage to. Mayb one day, i shall committ full time to volunteer! Hmmm then why am i studying now? haha, time shall decides my future.

Cya
Ziyan

WoW!

Just in two days, a new week is going to start! Tiring yea? i cant adapt to it man haha. Tmr is sch again. two days of proper rest every week is just not enough! How i wish this will end sooner or later. The amt of effort to endure through this is much lesser compared to uni though but the subs i do in uni will at least spur me on to cont since i get to choose my subs:)

On e side note, a thought came to my mind ytd. Often what we do in life, have we ever really thought of whether is it really worth it? We only gt 24 hours a day, yes everyone says that. But do everyone really think since we got little time and we do not know what w happen nxt, why are we not cherishing every moment of our life. Asking ourselves everytime is it worth doing this or that at every moment. Life is precious. Yes, we got to buckle up ourselves for everything in life. Even when i am typing this, i feel i am wasting my time at doing something in life. No one is perfect. Often we make mistakes, we sins, we are guilty. Yet do we ever change or do something about our lives. If not, our route in life is just going to go back to its starting pt everytime just like a lost boy in a jungle. It is ptless. Yet How do u even define wasting ur time? Does playing means wasting ur time? Or does it means otherwise since it helps u to relax and start your day on a better mood and better note. Haha, many kinds of thoughts just come once in a while. This is one of them. But, they are just thoughts right? Do care abt them but don end up being confused by them. Shall stop here. Got to do business, large business haha. Then go sui chiu!!

Cya
Ziyan

I hate to get sick! One day, i shall invent smth that will deprive one of sickness for good haha..

Slept like 7-8 hours daily when it is school in jc life context. Pig yea? Or sloth? haha

K time to makan. and biggest loser 2 ppl!

Cya
Ziyan

Thank god for my gp grades! Not boasting or what. But really thank god for his blessing :)

All e hardwork has paid off and the prayer too..

Indeed prayer does wonders esp when u thought ur gp is gonna get screwed.

Nevertheless, hope our class can improve and not get disheartened by this block test. The wave has come. Time to withstand it:) Jiayou ppl

Cya
Ziyan

Exam is over! Really thank god for blessing every single thing whether whats e outcome. Being able to get over a rather weird sickness and concen on my hw, i am quite proud of that haha. Since i am those kind normally take quite long to heal.

Anw exam is over. Kobe is here. Yet i feel like going to take a break of school- total break. I wan plae sports! And life 4 dead. How i wish i can organize outgs w/o thinking yet i realize theres only 4 days left till sch starts per normal nxt wk and i have to take care of my dog. Sianz. Really hope can try my best to fork out time to spend time w both family and frens and god! haha

Good job everyone for ur block test if anyone's reading. Rmb it is Alvl that we r working for. Don let block test make u stumble! Yea! =)

The feeling of one more year in proper sch layout is hard to let it go yet the feeling on one more year studying intensely for smth i dread on is getting on my nerves..

I hate exam! Who don hate? haha, but i really hate exam now cos of jc 2..

If only i can take exam that i like? Like sports exam mayb? basketball =)

Time to relax!
Cya
Ziyan

Few more days to exam. Looking forward haha. Though many people dreads this coming, i yearn this coming for playing time will be coming soon too!

And right now, i cant seem to be able to concen on hw. Cos i got a blister on my butt! And stomachache and i am not feeling right on e inside right now! Funny yea? Blister on butt. Hilarious haha, guess i am e first one to get in singapore. i hope i can get well soon. I cant do it alone and i know it. Depending is more than being self-dependent. Faith, key-> success.

Cya
Ziyan

Two things i learn in the past weekend, which is quite true to my context of life.

First, everything u shld do must be from the heart. This applies to studying especially.

Second, every effort should be put in to do something. Half an effort put in is useless. A whole amount of effort put in is then considered meaningful to do.

Just blogging what i learn :) Sorry if u don understand. Diff ppl have diff thinkings, isnt it?

Bon voyage to mum and dad. Take care!

Cya
Ziyan

Inconvenience together with discomfort seems to be the worst things of earth at times. Yet, it is them that shapes ur life so perfectly that w/o them, u cannot be as mature as now, as responsible as now, as happy as now.

Learnt smth new ytd. :)

Time is precious but human nature tends to deny it. Or rather my human nature. Has been dragging everything. And my temper is getting over me. I cant seem to control it. I hope my secondary school nightmares will come back to haunt me. haha.

Theres only one purpose in life:) Hopefully, that will enlighten me somehow.

Got to do some planning and homework.

Stressed, not cos of homework but cos of the tight schedule i have and theres only 7 days i have to be able to cover all of them. Why cant god make 8 days sometimes. haha.

Cya
Ziyan

Just when i thought i can sleep for 8 hours and focus during sch's lessons, i realize i got principal's talk at 7.30 am. How great is that.. Why is mjc principal so dedicated or rather over devoted to making this sch a better place.

Cya
Ziyan

It is just so amazing to witness and realize anything can happen anywhere :)

God's so amazing yea. This year cny really blows my mind off. =)

Nt only in relationships btw my cousins but also the blessings i receive even during the worst recession of 50 years in 2009.

How i wish it culd last longer. Only two days haha. Wednesday is sch. And i have yet to finish my hw and tution hw. After tuesday, there will be almost no time for resting. Chingay, ogl- these two are enough to kill me haha. Nevertheless, i sign up on my own accord cos i enjoy it!

Cya
Ziyan

Happy Cny!

After two days of waiting for cny, the time is here!

woo! Happy cos can socialize and get a break from studying! Nevertheless, spread the joy all over the place! Surely, ppl w feel cny is just to collect ang baos, but i feel it is time to get together and know more about ur cousins and family members and bond w them!

K gtg sleep, is 8 more hours to cny bai nian! And tinking of sch, i still gt chem and tuition el left. Though is not a lot, by the time cny finishes comes chingay and then ogl. There will be no time, less say revision. Gtg start planning my time.

PS: Not everything is as it seems(random thought)

Happy CNY!

Cya
Ziyan

MY BRO INJURED HIS SAME ANKLE TWICE!

Last year on feb 20 he injured his ankle, was on cast.

This year jan 20, he yet again injure his same ankle.

Next year, who knows, dec 20, he may agn injure his ankle! LOL jkjk. Of course no one hopes for this incident to happen thrice

Once bitten twice shy, theres no thrice.. right

Anw, ppl are visiting him from army. Right now while i decided to relax my mind on e com.
I must learn to be friendlier! Went down but didnt say hi. Whats w me. Is it an obligation? no, but it is a courtesy! haha, will change..

Game started!

Cya
Ziyan

The more u wan to achieve smth, the harder it comes. Difficulties w come. U shld rejoice when u face them for it is through them that u wan grow to be what u have always wanted to.

The process or rather the journey is tiring yet the ending is blissful.

I must not commit the same mistake over and over agn otherwise whats e pt of my 09 resolutions? I am never going to achieve it. I must learn to go the extra mile for people regardless of what ppl perceive as. I will still go for i see it as a way of loving ppl.

Was initially writing a whole chunk of stuff. but i think i shld scrap it off. Is not a good idea yea. I will just hope and pray for the best of u. Be loved and start to love=> Key to happiness :)

Cya
Ziyan

After today, i realize i got to trust in people and Him more often. Don think or worry too much

And respect ppl opinions. Give them a chance to talk. Respect them. Rather than keep acting on my own belief and scolding and talking bad things to them.

Nevertheless, i am happy that i learn all these today and also thank god for blessing me w unpredictable good blessing in disguise incidents once in a while. Like today i visit my grandma. and she just give me money for no reason. How unexpected is that. Yet i know the reason behind it.

Thanks lord =)

Cya
Ziyan

When people reject ur sincerity, the best thing to do is to cont doing what u r doing. Don be discouraged :) Though they may not appreciate, at least u know someone appreciates =)

Letting ppl wait in life is equals to putting their importance to ur life as insignificant. So i decided to not be late for today onwards for anything except sch LOL. Since sch is not a person haha.

Got to go mug- alkene, gp skills transfer, phy CE and lastly file my stuff b4 it goes out of hand.

Responsiblity and emotions- 2keys areas i gonna focus on

Cya
Ziyan

I want a new com!!!

This com is killing me. So much free space yet so lag in its processing.

I did everything. This com is still so slow! One match of relaxation cant even be fulfiled. Hai. Shall go study now since theres no time. Shall take my revision as a form of enjoyment then. haha.

Cya
Ziyan

I just suddenly miss my dog.. it is in the past yup i know. Is my choice yup i know. But i had no choice. His happiness is what is impt right? k u guys wont understand i guess

How i wish this word"change" wouldnt be in reality sometimes. Ppl always change, situations always change, environment. At times, u feel u are in the best time of ur life. Nxt moment, it can be ur worst moment. People whom i know are always different from what i perceive them as. When i initially tot they were those caring happy going people, i realize they were not. They are insensitive and unbothered. They just couldnt handle when they insist they can. They assume they are doing e right things when they are not. They want comfort yet they reject it.

On the other hand, w/o change, i will always be in a comfortable zone, no challenges ahead, no progess made. U will just be stagnant. Which is BAD. Ur life will just revolve the same every year. So everything sure has its pros and cons. And i guess is they way we perceive things and live based on our perspective that really determines our happiness, our future, everything.

It is not the things in the world that are in control of ur life. It is u and u alone that is in control of ur life. Get this straight into ur head and start to live,learn and lead. Don wait for things to appear themselves. Cos they never do.

Random: Omg! Chelsea is losing to stoke! 90 min already LOL! Cant believe it! And man u =.= 0-0.... Ronaldo!! pls..

Cya
Ziyan=)

Busy wk. Busy year. One more year

Busy busy busy. To me i am not currently happy w my busy schedule. Why? Cos i am doing things that are depriving me of free time to do things of my desire.

Study- It is the bulk of it..

Eh shit just forgot i am in a game w ws LOL. K gtg cya!

PS: Pls don let the devil deceive u for u are never left out by anyone but always loved by someone :)

Cya
Ziyan

Mentally drenched- on the verge

Tired- one word.

Yet, i have to pull myself tgth and finish what the homework that is awaiting my arrival on the desk upstairs.

Hope everyone isnt like me. Don leave things till e last min. It isnt worth it. Jiayou ppl. All e best esp to 107 ppl! Finish ur hw early!

Cya
Ziyan

Last day of enjoyment. To some last day of rushing their hw.

No matter what, don worry or be stressed for it is not the last day of ur life :)

Excited to go sch tmr, yet tired to go sch haha irony yea.

Feel like talking to someone now, yet too tired mentally to do it. How i wish the amt of work we get in our life is a choice of our own. Or rather what we do in life is a choice of our life. Nvm, all these w end in one year's time for it is e time i can choose what path i wan to take in my life and enjoy it to the fullest

Never am i going to do something i don like in uni.

Life is never comfortable if u nd to make sacrifices. Yet it is this kind of life that makes u cherish life more. ( Read btw e lines for smth haha)

Cya
Ziyan=)

Life is never going to be the same. Yet i am still going to be always happy.

Cos i am always blessed :) in studies, in family, in friendship, in character.

Never will i be the same if i chose to go there this year.

Anw, i gtg grow fat soon! No because i wan but i must! Theres 3 pants i bot last year and i cant wear it now! LOL. And i don wan to get into underweight program for this year.

Sch starting soon. Enjoy ur last moments everyone. Yet on the positive note, prepare to enjoy ur first moments of school!

Cya
Ziyan

Slowly but steady

Is hard to change i know esp when u arent born that way. But no matter what as long as i try, slowly steadily it is coming i know..

In spite of failures, i feel happy today. Felt happy cos i succeeded in doing what i wan to do. Though i wasnt very gd at it, i w improve. Must learn to put others above everything else regardless of what state u r in.

Anw, gtg start my hw soon! It has been 2 months of HOLIDAY, and 1 wk left. What have i done? NTHING! lol! At least i pack my rm. Everything is in place.

Tmr gtg start. No delay. Last weekend of playing. Last day of playing! Yet on the irony, i am going to watch seven pounds tmr! With my mum.

But everyone nd to relax. Arent they? Just that i think i have been relaxing too much. but who cares. Is the holiday babies! We gonna relax to the hell max b4 we start our official studying period full of stress,challenges and difficulties.

Be prepared. Step up. Step in. Take charge. Make decisions. Make things happen.

One word=> Initiative! :) My additional 09 resolution

Cya
Ziyan

Great 2009 to start with!

I just drop a tooth! A size of 1/4 of a peanut! So small! LOL! I was eating and eating then aft dinner, EH! Why the back of mouth feels so pain. Luckily i didnt go bbq, otherwise the blood will drip on the charcoals LOL!

Chingay trng was great! And walkingw my dog was great! Busy time! haha, though i am not doing my hw yet. Cant imagine how i have been procrastinating. Gtg start tmr. But hey wait, tmr is sunday and i gtg find my aus frens in sg! LOL. Thinking abt that DL outg, kinda regretted nt to go but no choice gtg fetch my dad who just came back. Donno when will we have our nxt Dl outing. It was fun with all of them coming back tgth just for this outg :) Once in a while and is a success

Sidetrack, i just realize being what i should be is not of my choice but is a must. Do what i wan and do wad i must is a diff yet only when i get that both comes together as one then i can achieve what is supposed of me to do in life. haha. Sounds complicated. yea. But i just love 09! Everything unexpected, challenging is awaiting me. Sounds exciting and i hope it will be this way.

Lets see how people reacts to diff challenges along the way in this year 09. A's, post A's, Pre A's, bloc tests and prelim and much more. Surely there will be people who will be stressed out of their minds. Yet it is useless to be that way yea. Be the one that stand out. The one that is positive, full of confidence regardless of what happen cos i know what is the outcome already anyway. Isnt that right? :)

Nevertheless, Actions speak louder than words.

Cya
Ziyan

3 Things to start off w 09

1: Plan ahead
2: Focus on the things i plan ahead
3: Loving,compassionate,faith in god through actions(Don compare&care too much abt e outlook)

Up on the list to do stuff on 09

1) Chem tys
2) Chem revision
3) Chem tutorial
4)Math tys
5)Econs revision
6)Math revision
7)Physics mcq
8)Physics revision
9)Cut hair
10)Finish puzzle
11)Gp daily!
12)Gp hw
13)Finish two books( 4-D & Anthony robbins)

Thats all i guess for the impt compulsory stuff haha. Happy new year guys! Ok belated happy new year guys!

People even the closest ones arent always what u though they are. In reality, face to face, they may be ppl u find them the best to be with. Yet in reality, communication via technology, they seem to be totally different persons. Again, in reality, when they arent with u, they seem entirely hypocritical.

Whatever it is, i have only found one friend whom i love to be with u and that is in deu 6:5=> Love the god with all ur soul, str and heart.

Cya
Ziyan