Hope everything will be alright

Hope tmr outing will be successful =) Hope everyone w come , Most prob e only outing in this holiday hai... please come ppl, w/o any of u, is nt a class outing anymore


Why has e trust diverted away from me?

Thank mong for e svc today =) it simply blew me off, thanks pastor tan! =)



2-5 months left... time is precious... but i think i am wasting it now, ziyan wake up from the world of delusion

Can someone his or her ear to me right now?

Ppl are simply self-centred, only care abt themselves. Is this true? To me to a large extent for now...

They claim ppl are nt there for them, and when u r there for them, they simply just sae " thank you for ur concern " or simply just brush it off like they dont care at all..

When they are happy they dont care ur concern towards them, when they are sad they need ur concern, is just like we r their slaves at their disposal. when they wan, they drag us out frm the deep hole, when they no longer need, they simply throw u back inside e deep hole..

Who will be there for these slaves?

Guess no one is understanding why am i saying all these, do u? No i dont think so, since ppl r happy now , ppl are no longer needing ur concern , please wake up!

Everything seems to come true according to what i pray haha... shall cfm further only time can tell =)


Gonna mug, going to... no procrastination no more...

God bless!

Although these few days were unproductive in terms of studying, the things i have gained in life outweights this =)

Went to meet Sy jiafor studying and her fren, marcus oso went along!( Dont think wrongly k! haha ), realize that she is much better now mentally =) Can only pray for her, but i believe e prayer is starting to work! i have faith! She seems happy yes on the outside but she w feel sad on e inside, try my best to cheer her up, hope it helps.

Went to play pool w wenjie, wy , dennis. Realize that pool is just as fun as b4 lol, but dont plae too long at one go , will die out & So ex! lol! Realize that life is actually much simpler if u think much lesser and just let god leads and guides u while u uphold his image =)

Nd to start mugging now and chiong pw, hope our pw can be done quickly. Other grps are infront of us just realized lol, and in terms of mugging, hope i can study more effectively and be more serious. Wk 1 is ending, and nth is yet to be produced academically. How jc life works is just so unexpected from what i perceive on e 1st dae of the jc life. But yet, e frens e ppl i noe are damn nice to be w haha, however in just an instant all these may just perish from my life... SECRET! LOL..

Ziyan

Troubled Year

This year , if u realize the ppl ard u or mayb it is onli me, the ppl ard me, are all troubled , pressurized , stressed, wadever word u can come out w to describe their plight. Not only that, ppl in e world are suffering more than usual. Sichuan earthquake. Myanmar Cyclone. All these are just e beginnings. Are all these signs of smth? Is god trying to test our faith to remain stronger becoz e time is now? Is god seeing a need to grow them? Wadever it is, their stress , pressure on them are just killing them. But, just hope that they can know that not only are they in a pathetic situation now, i am too. However, the way u look and do things are different. Seek in the bible. Yes, some may did that. But who realli carry the faith to pray to do things. In the end of e dae, really have e faith that god w bless us after all these trials. Theres no nd to worry.

Hope that these ppl i am aiming to, can hear me? Though i know it is slim but i really hope god w let his purpose known to them and encourage them. Even non-christians are possible.God is e truth and e light. Only knowing him by faith then u can experience him. Not by sight =) And just really hope that this troubled period of the year will not last forever...

And mayb i shouldnt have worsened their current situation, i shouldnt have told them my probs? I shouldnt have told them that matter? They cant take it then why did i tell them? Hai..

God, i am willing to suffer for them( eg, XSWW and much more ), be it one or one thousand. Just divert the burden of them to me please. They dont deserve it and they cant take it. But i can with u lord, with the faith u give me. Please fulfil my wish. Thanks =) [ Some of u all reading this blog may think i am too devoted to god, but just really wanna sae that is cos god is too real to deny, that i am willing to take this step of faith to proclaim his glory ]

Ziyan

I am just an It-newbie who learns photoshop only for 2 months and thats newbie tutorial. Now i had to apply all these skills to make a professional website in like 12 hrs more? And i have been sleeping only like 2 hrs on wed and 5 hrs ytd... How am i going to survive. Pressure is so much on me..

I used to spend 1 wk making just a cover page and its links without details . Now i have to do all these within 12 hrs.. on my own somemore..

No offence agst anyone, just trying to vent my stress out so i wont die of stress.. Wonder why sometimes ppl can seem so relax and produce excellent work while some seem to think too much and take it too serious and produce under-productive work in the end of the day. It is all in e mind and e mentality and thats all matters. Stress / pressure / take it too serious / unable to adapt urself to situations all are bound to cause u downfall no matter how hard u try..

God be w me =) And bless my fren's family and everything i pray for the school, cca , ppl ard me, my family and myself

Ziyan

Helpless at ends.

Sometimes or most of the times, when u want to help a person badly but u couldnt what u should do? I have no idea. Just dont know how to help, but i want to help. Life is full of limitations. U may have the ability but u sure lack the willingness or the other way round. How i wish we can all have both. The world would then be in peace and order =) Full peace and order.

Hope u are reading this blog now, just want to say that though i cant help much, i will do my best to help u =) Cheer u up, Motivate u anythin as long as it can make u feel better yea. And rmb god is always w u w us , and hes fair to everyone. Have faith, continuously praying, blessings w come no doubt. Patience is a virtue =) God bless everyone, esp u.

Ziyan

Everything will be alright my fren

Trials may come, but god w be the better of them. Blessings in disguise w sure come.. God is testing u, dont be sad, dont be troubled , dont be dishearted. Stay strong in his faith and his glory will bless u w e most unexpected outcome! Be happy really. Though u seem happy always , deep inside i noe u r sad. Have faith, faith is the key to miracles to everything. Be strong, u can do it! =) U can be stronger than u r now, and u and i noe that..

Day by day, tears well in his eyes, second by second, it started to flow down... In relation to time, seconds tick away every instant, time is wasted everytime, the moment of truth is nearing to an end. Time is precious for now, very precious. Moments must be cherished now.. Really. Hope emotions wont get the better of me when the time comes. Be strong. The end is yet to come though is nearing. Time will soon be lost and the moment of truth will come. Just hoppe everyone will be very happy and BONDED! B4 THE moment of truth comes. Dun wan to see a pathetic sad lives of ppl when the truth comes..

Ziyan

Everynow & then, this matter just dont seem to be able to escape from my mind. I kept thinking and thinking. Sometimes, i feel like i should just tell everyone now and just go. But on the other hand, they would hate me or be demoralized cos of me... Should i or should i not? I never know. How i wish time will go back...

It is true that they sae that cherish e moments when u r young. That time i keep thinking when i grow up i will have a better life cos theres no hw no sch. But now , i tot of sch, esp primary sch the times when we can plae the times when we can really have time to spend w our family and frens and not keep w our studies & all this personal affairs that u have to handle when u grow up. How life works is so complex. But God is always there for me =)

U all may not know what i m talking abt but u all will know sooner or ltr.

Ziyan

Faith!

Ytd svc was simply great overpowering man! Praise god! Really was totally different b4 and aft the svc! nver regretted goin=) Pastor How taught me faith. The confidence we shld have to take one more step to glorifying god is so impt ! It is just so great believing more and more in god! haha.. Nver felt this in the past though i frequently went church. Think i was not serious that time as in real serious . Merely following ppl.

Now is the change in life! FAITH! I goin to have faith in everything. Setbacks ? No kick.. as long as i try and i fail & most impt god still loves me, why should i be scared or sad or intimidated? Right? Even my shooting though this wk i screw up, i was happy cos god bless me much more! He bless me in such a way i did not expect it. He heal me as i was a bit sick that week after eating a meal with a fly in it. LOL.. and he bless my physics spa! though i didnt study much. Wad most impt is he let me see where i can change and the way of life ppl ard me are living and what i should do to help them.Really thank god! Hope god cont to bless me to be more sensitive as i grow more in the faith of the lord.

Oh ya , one more thing, sorry MR LIANG! I know i was caught playing psp in ur lesson. Really sry.. Wouldnt commit anythin that will anger u or anyone else. Anw to end off , just wan to say... that no matter what happen to me or u in future, u must take care of urself, i am sure u gt frens ard u not only me that care for u . Pray in the faith of the lord, he will bless u i am sure in every way possible ! Dont be dishearted! U can do it =) I have faith in u!

Ziyan

Just dont get it

Why does ppl just want to show off when they did so well.. and just move away when they did so badly? I juz dont get it. Ppl now and in e past all have one thing in common. Self-interest. Care abt their lives and theirs onli. Through this jc life, i not only realized that e ppl ard me are always aiming for their own interests via any means be it BS, Lying, Showing they are more superior.. and much more la..

Ppl will basically do anythin in order to achieve what they aim for. For me, i feel that i am not this kind of ppl. I really want to go for a job that really make ppl happy and not urself. By making them happy, is my pleasure. However in order to do so, i must earn a sum of money to help these ppl i believe. Thats why i am going on the business and finance line. Earn a sum of money in ten years and help these ppl. i want to show the world that not only e world consists of selfish ppl, it also contains ppl who are compassionate and come to this world just to bring joy to others and not themselves. I hope that one day, i will meet ppl of this personality . It is rare i know, but i hope i can meet them. Even christians sometimes may not be that good , just for instance this person i know, he just simply suan and though he serves, he didnt apply wad god teach him in his life. Haiz.. this is self-explanatory. Shall nt elaborate further.

Anw, just want to tell everyone that, i dont like anyone ( not that i dont like u all ji siao me ) but just wan to inform u all .. i did like her once a bit i dare to say that but it was a first impression kind of like.. as time past, i dont like her nor love her =) gd frens only

Defines Life

This is e question that drives me to deep thought yesterday during shooting. Was supposed to update this ytd but somehow the blog crashed. yup.. defines life! When wj ask this qn and who feel they are confident to change ppl's lives ytd during shooting when our grp 1 are waiting for grp 2 to finish shooting, i wanted to sae i am. But i feel wad i am saying would be against ppl religion or their thinking.

Cos what am i saying is that i am confident i will change ppl's lives by showing them the image of god through me, and letting them to know god in christ is real and theres onli one and they will accept him willingly. It is indeed true that Jesus is true! Many christians though they believe verbally and yet and yet again they sae hes my saviour i trust him i believe him. However, when u see wad they do for the glory of god, u will know actions speak louder than words. They are just either too lazy or do not believe in god in anyway , merely saying to satisfy ppl who are christians ard him. He do not wan to be left out.

I just want to sae that i hope many christians will know that god is true and i really pray that not only them, but my frens family constantly will be exposed to christ more and more even if they do not accept him, God is constantly at work in their hearts! I believe one day, one moment, one time they will accept him. I know ppl reading this blog may nt be christians but just really want to encourage u that JUST try to give god and urself a chance to go church and to spend time w ppl in christ. Devoted christians will potray an image diff frm e world, an image of god, an image that u will admire. I know what i am saying now may be futile or deaf to your ears but i just wan to encourage u to take e step of faith to know christ more. Experience w god is all i can sae. Take the change to experience god. ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS. SO it is here in this case. Just experience him once and u will know what i mean. Some of u may hate me aft this or dislike me aft this, but i still want to sae plz give god and urself a chance. The reason i am standing here today to type this blog post isnt just to entertain or cr8 a hatred btw u and me but is COS OF what GOD has blessed me so far through my life that i am really TOUCHED. And i hope u can experience this priceless blessing by god through ur life tgth w me. U will nt regret it i promise =)

Ziyan

Ppl juz cant adjust to life is that true?

Haiz... juz two daes and i can see ppl ard me goin into a deep trail of misery. All cos of the common reason> Studies. These ppl include me. I just cant seem to keep myself awake. Study i will i say to myself each and every time i woke up after my unintended sleep. Yet, i break my promise. I feel i am a hypocrite. Doing nothing but talking. Today kenneth bdae, i forgot =.=.. First bdae to celebrate as vice char i forgot. I shld have remembered. And nt onli that, i shld have taken e intiative to celebrate it as a class. Yet i failed. I gonna change right now. Right NOW! I must really do this. By doing it for e glory of god, god w bring me faith =) And Success. I hope every christian w have this mentality. Not only u. U sae u are devoted to christ, yet u arent even following his principles exactly. This can be shown by ur attitude towards probs. In life, most of us just cant seem to adapt themselves when they face new probs or a new perspective of life. This includes me. But at least i m trying to change. Are u?

I feel ppl always claim they will not give up or breakdown during probs or obstacles. Yet again, they lied to themselves. Ppl think too much of themselves that their words have overtaken their actions. Words no longer speak the truth of their personality. Actions do. I hope god w bless all everyone, esp these ppl, letting them see theres a way to everything. A soln to everything. Dun becoz of one thing just give up right now. Is not worth it

Think of the positive benefits u can get and not the negative impacts. In everything u do, e way u look determines e way u do things. Look from the right perspective and i guarantee u that u will be different and better in terms of how ppl judge u each day =) Hope i can be like tat. Do for e glory of god. Do it out of love. Faith w come -)

Cya, time to do physics and sleep? mayb..

Nth is impossible

Exco no more =( ... i knew it yet i dare nt admit it.. facing the nominess they are just more superior over me in terms of everything. Really regret not taking leadership roles in sec.. really pull me down. But nvm =).. Nth can be changed so is this fact. I still believe i can contribute e cca in many ways in spite of me not being in e exco. I am sure i can do my best in the sub com to contribute. Mainly in the blogging and PT to bond e cca.. Looking at todae PT.. i juz feel smth shld be done real quickly not juz quickly but effective as well.. ya..

Another thing... Cip ! i muz realli take e initiative. I muz start to ask people. Plan first and then ask . haha.. Oh ya juz rmb todae shooting.. think mayb i was too nervous.. tremble like ten times compared to last wk.. But aft that adjusted myself and shoot a nice grouping ( like e size of a pellet box =) ) shall realli train.. Sch team i muz come! i muz! though i may be e lousiest now, i believe as long as i am determined.. nth is impossible. Dun give up till e end ya =)

Lastly, Study and Serving. Priorities set! no gaming! no! onli for distressing purposes... get out of the comfort zone ziyan u can do it!

Thank god for blessing my spa todae when i was at a loss of how to set e expt up lol..

Cya =)

Be happy!

The svc realli inspired me haha thanks mong! i realli know wheres my goal and my target now! thats to glorify god! dont nd to be scared ! haha as long as i noe i am w him and serving him i am happy =)

Oh ya, god heal me todae some of u may sae is juz i eat medicine which i did but i realli feel it is a blessing frm god.. two daes ago, my whole body was full of swollen rashes as in realli swollen , red , damn gao wei... and i pray and i apply medicine nxt dae, nt even one is there! all gone! i am healed! thanks god =)

Hope i can get into exco and contribute to e cca and glorify god =)
Shall end here =)