Longing for ....

Time past like a blink of an eye, within what seems like a few hours, 5 days have past, holiday is gone, exam is finished.. and now here i am, adapting myself to suit term 3 school life...

It is just so amazing looking back and seeing how much time has been wasted.. still remember pae say that we still got much time to slack. But now, 6 months gone leh! wth! is like how i wished time will slow down for me to decide when it will start&stop =( but sadly, is beyond my control...

Sometimes, how i wish someone will be there for me 247, i know i am demanding in saying that, but i really think a person in life should have a very very good fren, one whom both can relate probs to so both can help me one another 24/7.. i got frens who are there for me but nt 24/7.. Only god is there 24/7 haha.. but sometimes i wish theres someone in physical form there for me to hear my probs, know when i need a ear, know when i need a helping hand.. Haiz, sometimes there is but sometimes there isn't..Looking at the sky in the silence at night with my dog staring at me blankly, walking home alone , taking bus at home, looking at how gloomy sgeans faces are, how amazing the galaxy is ( Thanks to Xueli!), how nice the sky is , how life is so complicated yet so simple at times, all these just left me pondering, totally oblivious of the surroundings around me, just caring about the life i am living now, the life the world is in now... Anytime, anywhere,anyone can be just affected right now just by the 3 words " Time is here" ... When that moment comes, i donno what will become of the ppl ard me whom i loved but not willing to accept god.. hai.. just can only pray and hope their hearts can be softened more each day till e day they accept him =)

Faith, Holy spirit, i need u=)

Ziyan( Stop being so childish!)

Life is cruel but god is great

Life is hard to cope but is possible to cope

Life will not always turn out what u want but it can be if u persist

Life is said to be ups and downs but if u look from a diff perspective, it is always ups :)


Just dont get it, why sometimes ppl wan to have quarrel ppl wan to have hatred agst somebody, it is just not worth it, both parties suffer, no one benefit at all, just hope u can be less STUBBORN and learn to more loving through ur actions not ur words, acting cool is plain stupidity.. it just simply drives ppl ard u smirking at u...

Life is hard to maintain

Cant just seem to figure out why sometimes things dont turn out as i wanted and it is especially times where i have control of the outcome of these things.. i have a choice and yet i chose to take the wrong path... why? & as the days go by, i think i m sure of my own feelings and thinking already.. yet time is short.. it is too late? lol.. Kk time to get back on track! HS and faith!

7pm le! Love blossoms!

Happy Birthday MUM!

It is 22nd yes 22nd june! And happy bdae mum! Sorry for only buying u a cake and nt making any presents =(.. Shall bu chang aft exam soon haha U have been a loving mum though quite nagging yea? haha! but thats wad mums are.. all mums.. nagging but they do that cos of love =)
Mummy happy birthday again!

Anyway, time is seriously running out for me i got only like 3 hrs to prepare b4 i take tmr chem paper? At night not free, going out lol! Mum bdae ma! haha.. but i believe wad i study will surely come out for chem! God is a good god, use me lord! haha.. chem cant possibly come out 100 percent of what e teachers cover right? haha.. ya lo so i believe wad i study will be well enough and good enough for me to take e exam tmr and get an A,A,A,A,A!!! lol!

Ytd church svc was great, faith! I muz have faith to take on his role, to speak out, to live his life and glory!=) Muz be more god conscious! I do it w faith and HS!! i can :) and i know it! And i will! Glory of the lord here i come:) Faith HS! man! Pride is shit i dont nd it :)

Ziyan

Time is running out

Time, time , time, can i have more of u! Sacrificing my time to use com, and go study these few days, as u can see, my msn is offline now till abt 2am, which is e time i watch soccer!

Is great to take a break from studies and watch soccer, play dota once in a while lol.. haha, portugal currently on live and i am watching it =). Cant imagine how am i going to wake up at 10 when i am going to sleep at 5 LOL.. haha, hopefully i can somehow...

Study within 1 wk is stressful, planning ur time, no longer being lazy, somemore i study very slow, is really very hard haha.. but it seems fun to be able to study! haha! It just seems fun to me now as i study.. i donno y oso... studying seems so fun now yet stressful, experiencing his work as i study is even greater!

Hopefully i can glorify him through this mye? I have faith but i need to put in effort too yea =) Time to serve him not only in exams too...

Second half has started, cya

Ziyan

Chem is fun!

Finally, aft a 1 hr plus tuition by bro just now, i feel that theres hope to me passing chem! yes there is! Chem is actually so simple la! LOL, but a lot to memorize....

Kk now back to studying, haven studied at all since i woke up to see lakers getting trashed 39 pts? LOL!! haha

But nvm, i noe lakers is complacent, nxt season sure own celtics esp pierce upside down :)

Maths Physics here i come =)

Reward for the day!

In 45 mins, just like e world cup which i have been waiting for! ITALY VS FRANCE! muz muz watch! skully gt another head butt!!! haha!

Then in 6-7 hrs! Gt finals nba! MUZ MUZ WATCH!!! surely lakers will win! History will be created! Lakers will win!

Cant wait for these 2 matches to start! Muz not sleep! Donno how i survive tmr haha..

Lives at stake here!

This holiday is screwed! Seems like i go out e most in my entire life? Almost 1 in 2 days go out including this wk? haha! I am dead! However, study life isnt really impt, wad i have learnt through this holiday and esp this year is really what feel is very impt!

Everyday is a new day! Tomorrow may not come so make full use of today! This is indeed true, just read it in e daily bread! Gotta start cherish e things ard me, pass e joy ard me, no one sad no one angry, everyone w be happy forever! Everyday is a priceless experience!

Kk back to serious business, have been hearing and noticing how ppl's lives now are- mostly bad. Some cos of studies, stress, wadever they are, they all are not happy, worried, and feeling they cannot achieve one what they wan. For me is e same feeling but is in e past, now, i think i have really changed a lot. Put faith in wadever u do, seriously, it works, for christians in god :) it is amazing how a suffering can become a blessing :) haha...

One experience was just two days ago monday, i was late for sch 9 wake up, bathe 905, 40 mins to econs lesson, inside me thinking that i am dead but i decided to put faith in him and give it all... i change my clothes ran downstairs, and there is my father going to work! He fetch me to seragoon int in e end, is 910, then left 30 mins, at the bus stop, i pray and close my eyes for a while.. Amazingly if u believe what u consider a coincedence or a blessing imo, as i open my eyes, 81 was infront of me! I was shocked la! But it all happens not coincedently but cos of faith cos of a reason :)- god's move to increase my faith further! In e end though i was late, i was late only by 3 mins? haha, praise god! Just hope to ppl out there, no matter christians or not, in wadever u do, give it ur best seriously, u nver know what e outcome mayb, it may just turn out much more better than u have imagined it to be! Dont think that onli christians can, for we all are humans, we all are capable of anythin :)

Give it ur best in everything u do!

Striving to become FHL, put down pride & Being humble !!

Ziyan, cya, time to glorify god :) haha

Ziyan wake up la!

Cannot be lazy!
Cannot be afraid!
Cannot be ashamed!

TIME IS ALMOST UP! WAKE UP ZIYAN! DONT KEEP SLEEPING!

wth lakers zz! i just realized how complacent they are or how good the celtics are, zzzzzzz, 22 pts lead can end up into 6 points deficit! Z!!! Kobe please wake up and be as aggresive as lebron! U gt players like odom and gasol but lebron doesnt and they can get 4-3 series, u sure can win de! LOL, hope kobe will read my post and be inspired haha wad am i thinking sia! If kobe will read my post, the sky will drop down le...

Ziyan

Life seems good afterall!

Outing w sec class today! Turns out to be more fun than i tot! haha! But kicking a ball in e sand is PAIN LA! Bleeding cos of kicking e ball once? haha, but talking was very fun frisbee too! Knowing how each other is doing now is great! Though some are having difficulties now, but at least is great to hear that they have good frens in their respective jcs!

Just come home, something just happen. Mayb what i have been expecting to come true may not come true? Things are unpredictable, in just an instant i may not need to expect all these things i have been preparing for! haha, but yet agn, if the decision is changed, bet some of my frens w scold me... lol.. for making them cry for nth LOL.. haha

Gtg sleep! Happy BDAE ZX BTW!
Ziyan

Time is precious la!

Thinking abt my life right now, it is just simply great except for e exam part haha, but thinking abt e future, i am doubtful..

Can it last forever? I doubt so.. Is nt my choice is nt my destiny but is he who chooses for me, wad can i do but only to accept it...

Gotta start mugging, cannot procrastinate, this wk is busy yet i am slacking now.. lol.. gtg study time brb on msn =)

Ziyan

Friends are there for a reason!

There are many different types of frens in everyone's life and i believe every type of them is there for a different reason! All for a good reason though!

Firstly, some frens are there to encourage u!
Secondly, Some are there to cheer u up! To motivate u to excel in studies sports!
Thirdly, Some are there to test how u react to certain situations like anger management! Even if these frens are treating u bad, they are helping u actually! Nurturing u to be a person of better character!
Fourthly, Some are there to be helped! To test ur principles in life!
Lastly, which i think is e most impt! Is frens that are there to fellowship with me, to hear my probs, to go through thick and thin with me! And i think everyone can be that fren in everyone's life nt only my life, it is just whether they are willing to take this step to take on this role! =) It takes courage, lots of effort but yields a best friend who will be there for u too in the end of the day!

Emptiness

Almost every night, i had to go down to take care of my dog! He is just so irritating lol! 11pm! Shout for me! Let me out to shit! Let me out to pee! haha! Though it is irritating but everytime i am with him alone outside my house at his cage, the setting seems perfect for me to always ponder and the emptiness of something just sets in.

It is always nice to think about everything everyday but not emoing! Theres a difference haha, i feel that though i always had to clean my dog pee and poo i had time to think of all these and really realized how blessed i am! Which areas in life i am lacking! And how amazing some people actually perceived life so differently from what i thought! Hard to express through words but easy to think of all these =)

Life is just so amazing. Everything has a reason. And coming down every night to clean my dog's poo and pee is not excluded too. God has planned it all =)

Inevitable

Thinking abt it again, just cant seem to get it off my mind. These things are bound to happen sooner or later and i am hoping not to think for now. Yet, it is inevitable. Nt that i am affected by it now but it will affect me sooner or later. In 3 months time?

Anw, was just looking at my secondary school class' photos. It is really amazing how many of us including me have changed. It is really cool to see how people have matured so much just through these few months. However, it is really sad to see some people now suffering in those jcs they wished they have not been to. Hope that i can help them, but i know i cant as we are in both different schools now, different lives. The only thing i can do is to pray and talk to them whenever they are online? Really feel sad for them la, they do not deserve to be in these situations now. Hopefully, someone will look over them =)

If any of u all are reading now( though i doubt so ), just wan to say that life is hard but u gt a choice- fight for it or give up. Even if u are in e worst situation, fight for it! Fight for e joy that u wish u have, fight e type of life that u wish to have. Nth is impossible =) God is real, seek him if u r a christian , he will bless u! Everything has a reason behind it, this situation u r having now also has a reason- nurtures u to be a better person? I dont know, is for urself to find out and for urself to know. All the best, God Bless =D

Ziyan

Life in e Universal World

Since i have 20 minutes left b4 i go out, shall blog again, this time once again about life, nt my life but how i think e life of many are having now

Life is never an easy task, we always tend to expect too much from our lives and we always feel we are never up to the expectations of having a happy life. In fact, we feel inferior as compared to others whenever we see them happy and cheerful at times. We tend to think that we ourselves are never being able to be like them- happy, positive. However , actually these ppl whom u think they r happy but think that they are inferior as compared to u- the same way u think. We shld always think life simple u know ? Life isnt that complicated unless u make it complex. Make it and think it simple and u will be happy always! Dont limit ur joy only to urself in ur heart! Express it out! Spread ur joy to others through ur actions! Only then, wil others be happy too! Thats wad we should also do =) The world will then be a better place even if there are more and more probs in e world, this is becoz there has been a change in perspective in the way we look into lives =)

Another aspect is that we always try to avoid probs in life or procrastinate. Whenever we have probs in lives, we choose e path- avoid or delay e problems hopefully it will solve by itself? We think that this path w much be much easier and much less painful but We r wrong always time after time, we r wrong. In e end of the day, these probs will never be solved and by then, the seriousness of them will be amplified. U will find it harder to solve them, u may even be so stressed cos of this prob that u may do smth stupid? U never know, probs are meant to nurture u to a person of better calibre, higher maturity, and really grow to be a better person overall. So dont ever run away from ur probs for they are there for a reason- To make u a better person- by making u experience the hard way yea?

The last aspect is that we human beings always tend to have problems managing our feelings? In front of ppl, we are always keeping a strong front, saying we have no problems , we are alright . However, inside at home alone, actually, we are having a big problem in our lives. Are we scared of losing face? Are we too scared that ppl will mock at us? This is what i think is e reason to why we are always trying to hide our tangible feelings inside and trying to lie to others that we are alright. Yes, we should not let ppl worry for us by nt showing these feelings out, but we should also not hide these feelings inside us! We should try to get rid of these negative feelings, nt by inflicting pain on urself but seeking other ways to do it. Eg, find someone close to u to confide in? Or If this feeling is hatred, try to forgive and forget. If others can do it , y cant u! Learn to be able to fa de xia =) Dont make ur life worse by having these feelings! If is jealousy, y wuld u be jealous? Everyone is unique in their own ways. Care abt ur own life and not others! Does jealousy make u better? It makes ur worse! These feelings must not be pondering u forever, it will affect ur mood ur life and e ppl ard u! Learn to manage ur feelings and try to be more sensitive to urself. Which part of ur personality is not good to u? Change it, move on w ur everydae life with a better perspective to life and also as a better person. Improve urself everyday in character wise!

Shall stop here, 5 mins left
Cya!
Ziyan

Thank you lord =)

Things are back on track =) Thanks for understanding me, and thanks wenjie for telling me =D, have learnt a lot through this period of time

I Believe U

Clarify some stuff todae and really hope our friendship still can be that of last time- close and trustworthy =) Really hope that there will be no longer mutual misunderstanding or disbelief in each other yea? Sorry for really misunderstanding mani stuff recently, but now i know everything already

Anw, just on a random note, i have drunk 3-4 Starbuck coffee of the same type just different size- White Chocolate Mocha Frappucino( if i spelt correctly ) plus whipcream! Nice and addictive =) Go try ! haha

Ziyan

Life is good =)

Learn many things abt life this wk!

1) Have faith

2) Love ppl more than u love urself

3) Be more enthu, less serious

4) Be more decisive

5) Humble yourself

U can always be the one who bring joy to the ppl around u, dont wait for others to bring joy. U can be the one =)