Priorities!!!! i ndd to arrange them realli

Ok 5 mins more ... 5 mins ltr ok 10 mins more... 10 mins ltr ok i do work now.. DOZE OFF..wake up 630am -.- wth! so late le! these few daes have been like tat todae is nt spared.. i woke up at 730 drag time tot sch 830 i was late in e end.. luckily peter was late too! he smart sia give card tap card then nver take form.. haha.. sae they register hes late so no nd.. is it true? i dont noe lol..

Anw, exco interview was ok, i feel if i get in i realli w be posted to secretary! lol! but nvm, as long as i can contribute to e club is fine w me =) i dont wan to waste my time like tat of sec sch, nver help much cos slack, now i dont wan, i wan to be participative! i wan to be part of it, i wan to lead them w me nt lead them follow me. theres a diff haha, anw goin start doing pw soon, 12 am is reaching! pia ah! do QT first haha, shall end here, wish me luck for fri elect =) lol, haha..

Ziyan aka Exco?

Priorities

Ziyan set ur priorities right! u gt beat her! u nd to nt u wan or not! nt cos of my 10 dollars or wad but i just wan to reach her target and i am happy. A goal leads to motivation thats for me! i gonna do it! no goal= no motivation = no results!

Have been slacking these few daes , sleep a while hmm 5 mins ok i will wake up , ended up 630 am when i woke up !%^&@! wad the! every hw nver do! i muz realli do now! i muz! and i cannot guai lan anymore! though i lessen but i still gl sometimes eg todae winnie low, realize aft vanessa stare at me oops.. i muz think b4 i do! i muz live a better life i muz =) and i can!

Exco shooting sch team, ymca, gd results, gd frens- i hope they w appear not onli in my wishes but in reality too -) hope that U not U but U lol wadever will be happy in ur life =) dont think so much! Dont be negative =)

Choices

Nth to blog much, juz sian that i cant stay all the way w my ex-class ppl .. yup.. long time no see, few moments we can get tgth, just wan to stay for a bit longer but i can. All the things that have piled up my wk, w my parents urging me to go out less, I am really at a loss.

There are times i tell myself to be more decisive, to try my best in everything i do, to control my words, to put my pride down. These are things that have printed themselves on my mind, but i juz cant seem to overcome it at times. Like these few days..

Hope that i can have btr time management, watch less tv, learn to suffer before enjoy, learn to achieve all the above =) & Hope i can get in Exco to serve e cca and glorify god =) & lastly, hope that YOU nt YOU but YOU be happy and less emo ya =)

Ziyan
( 4 more Days to my bdae ! )

Resilience

Why cant u just be more sensitive to ppl feelings and situations and stop being so sensitive to ppl comments instead?

Why cant u be studying lesser? Why cant u relax ? Why must u be so tensed up becoz of one little thing?

So mani Whys.. juz realize that mjc is nt as perfect as i tot it was haha.. Anw must start bucking up, studying , and learn to control my words. I will change i will i believe i try.

Hope things will turn out better as i cont to persist in his presence in his direction.

PS: Can u change back to e person i knew at e first place? haiz..

Reversal of journey

These few daes, i juz realize that theres mani things i shld change nt juz for ppl sake but for my own good too. Yep, i muz try to think less deep, always think so much end up no mood do anythin. I am just killing myself with no external sources but from my own thinking. Another pt, i just cannot think b4 talking. The words i say sometimes i dont even know i sae that, i just sae as i thought. I muz reealli change this pt man! Think b4 u sae. thanks wenjie haha... Normally, i tell people to cheer up and not be sad dun let anythin affect u. K now this is happening to me. I just could not hide my emotions when i told ppl i can. I am just a liar in disguise lol... muz try my best. not to show the negative emotions out, but rather show the positive emotions out =) . This is goin to start from todae! Today, is the day i realli am determined to change all these. Shall see tmr =)

And today shooting realli inspire me! Though i didnt shoot much like onli 5 shots? lol.. i realize that mentality > anything else. The way u think really determines what u produce in ur life not only shooting. I believe now that as long as i want to be happy the only way is that i muz realli not only fight for it but also believe in it as well, nt frm ur mind but frm ur heart =) God is goin to pull me thrugh. Believing + Doing > Seeing! haha.. tmr i am goin to be determined to do everything i wanna do ! I can do it ! haha.. kk feeling much better now =) everydae w be a new dae , everydae will have smth for me to learn. Shall nt waste my life now . Get up!

Oh ya anw, juz wan to sae one more thing, I really wan to run for some leadership positions like house com todae! but cos of YMCA, i feel theres not enough time. End up shermine ronald sy jia all go house com. Wad if they gt in, YMCA how? Hope everything w run smooth.. Now shall start goin for everything that i want, exco everything. But manage time wise is still impt. Muz step by step =). Hope the april goals w be e start of my motivation towards my own journey.

Ps: Wenjie, i dont wan ppl know cos i juz wan to have freedom to vent everything i wan here, otherwise if ppl know abt my blog, my freedom is restricted yep =) I hope u understand