Adapt

Kk how shall i start? Hmmm.. juz dunno where to start la..Todae, juz realized that in jc, life is really damn tough- tougher than what u VISUALIZE. Gt not only tutorials , projects , exams, tests but also most impt church and outings. Have been going almost every weekends w/o fail, end up slacking, never really study beyond what i shld have studied. Like that , how to get gd results, how to get scholarships! Muz learn to adapt as the title saes, life is all abt testing ur skill of adaptation, whether u are able to pull through this successfully. Some may fail, some may barely pull through while some w find it easy and pass successfully. I think i lies in the second category. I juz find it so hard to keep adapting. From sec to jc and then later two years later to another new dimension of the world. Life is fast. Within the blink of an eye, 4 years past, 10 years past, 16 years past. Still remember when we are a little kid in primary sch, we hope that we can have e priviledge not to go sch, and now as i am approaching the age of not goin to sch in 1 and a half year time, i regret not spending my time in pri and sec sch fruitfully. Now i understand why parents always sae studying is better than working. This is indeed true, unexplainable, can only be explained through ur own experience. Not only is life arranged in this way, life is also arranged such that , u have to always learn to adapt to the society - the people, environment , etc - around u. Go jc, muz learn to clique w ppl , close ppl, and u juz have only a so short period of time during orientation to start ur friendship and develop w them. Once after orientation, people w start studying. Theres no time for anything bullshit or time to slack or do all sorts of stuff u want. And thats y in jc, the time u can make friends is just so little so little. Dun understand why is Jc life so tough . Not only in studies but in other sectors too. Really sympathize those ppl who cant clique w their class or cca, like tat their life in jc is really boredom.. Hope that i can really clique w my class and cca , and esp clique w some close ones so that we can help one another and study tgth go out tgth, learn to distress tgth, and always studying. If one is alone, he will always have no one to talk to or slack w , hence he w just keep studying but not as efficient as those who have close friends ard. Hope that these 1 and a half years would be a gd time for me to study excellently, and live my life spiritually as well as spend my time happily. Dont want to keep studying and use com.. thats no LIFE man!

Another sector of life and e most impt of all - CHURCH. Am really in a dilemna. Have been thinking for like dont know how many daes or even weeks already. Which church shld i commit, yhope isnt a really good one for me personally, i feel god is trying to divert me to another church. Covenant really impact me a lot, but HOG also too , and e ppl are younger and easier to talk to. I think i shld decide soon , really soon. It isnt good to keep going all kinds of churches in Singapore. It just isnt good. God wont like it. Surely, he want me to settle down right? Talking abt churches, i really hope that wenjie as u are reading this blog, u can give urself a chance to go church and see how is it like =) .. cant really tell u this in sch, u surely find me a little awkward. So hope that by reading now , u can understand it yup.. If u are interested approach me anytime =).. ya =D. Look forward to your acceptance to go church yea. Kk now is 12am.. just finish my econs , shall do QT and daily bread and sae gd night lol. Another random thing i forgot to say, sometimes i just find it so hard to clique with some people yet sometimes i find it easy, what should i do? Should i just live it like that or should i just try to adjust myself to their frequency? I think i should just live by GOD's character . Thats all , as god saes, Seek him and all shall be given to u . This is indeed true . Kk got to go. God bless people who i pray for! Nth is impossible!

Nitez, cya Ziyan aka Xavier aka Brother in christ